[rant; will be deleted soon]

i often feel stuck in a place where i do not belong, i have felt this ever since i was small, i feel as if this life could be much more better, but there are countless limitations that's holding me back.

either what i am feeling right now is just a phase, or it's genuine, the fact that i feel like no one understands. perhaps there are but not entirely,

it just makes me sick that theres a whole different world out there and i am stuck here within these four walls.

It's absolutely agonizing and torturous and I wonder how people live with it because I most definitely can't.