I saw Peyton actually come into school. I felt a nudge from Eva when Peyton basically limped the entire time to the library.

She wasn't able to walk very well with her leg wrapped. I left my friends and walked in the library where she was reading the book she got for her birthday.

"You need help walking the school?" I asked her and she shook her head no.

"Hey what's wrong?" I asked sitting down next to her on the couch.

"Nothing." She muttered laying her head on my shoulder.

"Cmon." I said and she questioned me.

I helped her up and walked her down the nurses room.

"Can we get some crutches?" I asked and the nurse looked at me.

"We will bring them back." I said and she examined the leg.

"Alright maybe a week?" She said and we nodded.

We got the crutches and I helped her move with them. She didn't get quite right but she finally did get to the point where she can get use to them.

We walked into first hour and Kacy was there. When she saw Peyton she immediately got up but the teacher told her to sit.

"Anna you and Peyton can sit in the corner. Go a few minutes early to leave for your next class." The teacher said as Peyton struggled to get over there.

I took the crutches from her and helped her waist up to get to the seat. When she finally did we got the assignment and she helped me on it. When Kacy walked over I could tell she was annoyed I was here.

"What happened to your leg?" She asked.

"You made a knife drop on my leg when you shoved me to the counter..." Peyton muttered.

"You shoved her..?" I said.

"You weren't there Anna its okay." Peyton said and I felt a little annoyed.

"I'm sorry..." Kacy said and I scoffed looking at my computer.

"Can we talk? Alone?" Kacy asked.

"She can't. If you couldn't see. The bandage on her leg can't make her walk. So please go." I said and both of them looked at me.

"We're in the same place to her. We are both exes." She said and I scoffed again.

"Kacy. We can talk another time. Right now I kinda just want to do my work." Peyton said.

Peyton couldn't pull out of her kindness ever. Whenever someone annoys her she just lets it happen because it somehow doesn't bother her very much. And if it bothers her to the point. She'll simply leave.

"You always have your head in this book?" Kacy said grabbing the book out of her bag.

I stood up to grab but she pulled away opening it. I looked at Peyton who was zoned out of hesitation.

"Holy shit..." Kacy mumbled.

I took the book out of her hand and shoved her out of the way.

"Go away! She clearly doesn't want you here!" I yelled getting everyone's attention.

I looked at the page book which seems to be... suicide notes? I looked at her and she had her head down on the table shaking.

The entire book was filled with words that mentioned her secrets for everyone to read.

"Kacy Carter! Anna Shumate! Go to the office!!" The teacher yelled .

I didn't listen. I felt Peyton's hand shaking bad. Her body was shaking and I just pulled a chair next to her.

"Hey Peyton look at me... it's okay." I said and she curled up in the seat.

Her breathing was heaving so bad. The teacher pulled me out of the way and tried to comfort her.

"Go get the principle." The teacher said and I ran. I mean sprinted to the office.

I called Paxton to come but she was at work. So she sent Lucas to come get her.

After I saw Lucas in the empty classroom with Peyton I slipped in. She wasn't doing anything yet just hugging Lucas.

"You two office. Now." The teacher said pulling me out.

I've been writing that book ever since I was 13. I first started to write the secrets I had and than when I realized in sophomore year I was writing a book that I would want my closest people to read when whatever happened.

I started to write the inside jokes I had with different people and I started to write memories and yet all my secrets were in one book.

Anna was included. So was Kacy. I added Travis a long time ago and mom and dad was there to remember all the family game nights.

Most of them were for Paxton since she was the person who take care of me most of the time. And a lot of them were with Lucas. Lucas and Paxton were together since I was in 8th grade and they've been friends for a long time.

Jackson was in a lot of them as well and I wanted to remember every little fun memory I had. So I added more pages to the book. More and more until it got to its max. Yet it was still thin book since I had a neat and small handwriting.

I wrote in the book in my darkest times. In class... on a vacation spot... anywhere or anytime I felt like I was in a dark place I wrote. And that's how I kept my feelings in check most of the time.

Yet I wouldn't think anyone would notice how long and how much I've had in this book.

I named it my suicide notebook when I was in bed rest dating Anna at the time. When the pills were effecting my mental health I officially gave it a name and signed it to know.

I left it out when I took those pills to my attempt. I left it out whenever I felt like just jag a knife through my skin. I left it out when I wanted to truly hurt myself.

I went to the one person who helped me the most and it was my sister. We've had fights but yet she was my person...