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I layed in my room on my bed just staring at the ceiling. There are so many emotions going around in me it's unbelievable . Your probably like "you're doing way too much. it's never that serious" but to me it is. I didn't date ANYONE nor give anybody a chance to be with me since the day von died. I felt like I was betraying him.. but when I met melo I saw something different. Felt something different. It will pain you if ya walked in and saw the love of your life fucking your ex best friend wouldn't it??

I sighed when I heard a knock on my door.

"OPEN TF UP" Jaden yelled

I opened the door and dragged her in.

"nigga the neighbors will trip if you keep yelling like that!!" I now lived in an apartment complex cause what's the point of a house if you live alone??

she had a HUGE bag with her

"come on we need to cheer you up" she said

"we?"

Then zo came BUSTING in my damn crib like he owned the place

"BITCHHHH" he said in a girly tone.

I chuckled a little cause it was funny. I guess he took my advice cause his face was clear and bright.

They both dragged me to the couch and started pulling on my hair , arms , cheeks , etc.

"girl you look busted" he said.

"right you looking dirty too..." Jaden added.

I felt like they was just dissing me to be funny (btw basketball season is over)

"I thought yall came to CHEER me up not make me wanna punch tf out of yall. BOTH."

They gave eachother a weird look.

Jaden nodded to zo and he grabbed the bag and dragged me to the bathroom.

"boy what are you doing?" I said laughing cause he kept making ugly faces.

"helping you look good again cause ya look musty" he said pulling wipes out the bag. He was right I did look musty I had run down makeup EVERYWHERE

as he wiped the mascara from under my eyes he cupped my face close to his..

he was focused.. hard.

now lets be real. I am in a very bad GREIVING place right now so whatever I do isn't really my fault 🤭

Our eyes locked together and he stopped wiping near my eyes

He then proceeded to take a wipe and clean my lips

what was this man doing?? Im getting hella anxious

"you know.. when you said you rather cheat with gelo than me it kinda had me thinking.." he said as he got closer to my face.

our noses were basically touching- this man had me wrapped around his damn finger. The look he's giving me is making me freak !!

"zo.. what are you.." my breath trembled through each word I let out

"you're different" he said getting even closer

atp this nigga needs to kiss me cause im getting fed up

" I can see why melo was scared you'd cheat" he smirked and placed his hand on my thigh

oh . my . god

I was practically shaking. I knew this was wrong in EVERY WAY POSSIBLE but melo did me dirty so.. it wouldn't hurt to just give him a peck....

I LIED-

Instead of a 'peck' I wanted a full blown make out session. what? I haven't had one ina while 🤧

I grabbed his collar and pulled him into me making his lips smash against mine.

IT . WAS . GREAT

He placed his hands gently around my waist pulling me closer to him

I wrapped my arms around his neck and deepened the kiss.

He was about to move down to my neck before jaden came BANGING on the door once again thinking she was the police-

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Me and Jada basically mouth fucked. I just made out with her and I dont know what to feel-

Yes I liked it but I didn't like her.. That's the thing I dont know what to do. I wanted her before hell yeah but those feelings went away once I saw her with melo. I cared more about my brothers happiness than anything so I forced them away.

Jaden came knocking like she was 12 so we had to stop. Luckily she came cause I would've showed Jada how a REAL MAN fucks.

We both walked out the bathroom laughing.

"wha'ts so funny??" she asked

"and why are yall lips so wet?!" she said trying to piece two and two together .

She's too slow cause Jada got on ha ass

"why you so worried about what's on my mouth when you have 5 different hickeys going down ya neck"

DAMN-

I busted out laughing cause I didn't expect that.

Jaden rolled her eyes and we all sat on the couch

We enjoyed the rest of the night and lord was Jada happy

I think we made her feel a lot better..

had to cut this one short because I didnt wanna jump into some more crazy shit

well this was unexpected but whatever

hope yall enjoyed