After the game I was super tired and drained. My father let Scar stay the night, this will be our first sleepover together. I told everyone in my family the news about Scar and I being official.

Everybody was happy for us but my mom was the most happiest. She was basically jumping outta her seat, that women really likes Scarlet. I mean what isn't to like about her? Scar is literally everything I would want in a girlfriend. She's my dream girl.

Certainly we in the van on our way home, Scar was sitting right next to me with my hand in hers. I had my beats on one muff, I turn to look at her next me. She had both her earphones in, scrolling through instagram. I start rubbing her the top of her hand with my thumb, she turns herself away from her phone to look up at me.

"what are you listening to?" I mouthed at her.

She smiled at me and reached over to put the earphone in my ear. 'So Many Tears' by tupac was playing, I never heard this song before.

But I just started bumpin to it, Scar just put me on forreal. When I start listening to this song in my own she finna keep telling me that she put me on to this. Scar moves closer to me and puts her head on my shoulder. I rest my head right on top of hers and close my eyes.

90s music plays through the both ear phones, I reached my hand for hers to in twine our hands together. The whole plane ride I didn't let go of her hand, I felt at ease.

She makes me feel at peace, happy, and on top of the world. I never felt like that with Ashley. I cant believe I thought love was Ashley but I was wrong. Ashley never loved me or supported me.

She would start petty arguments with me, never come to my games. Always come over when she know the tv crew there, that's why I never talked about her on that show.

I ain't finna give that hoe screen time. Scar does things Ashley didn't do as a girlfriend. I was blinded by love, I thought ashley loved me. She didn't love me, she was using me. I was in denial and didn't want to want to accept the fact that the love was one sided.

But I eventually got over that, boss up on my shit, and broke up with Ashley ass in front of the whole school. It's wasn't my intentions for having a big ass break up in front of everybody but obviously Ashley had to make a sense. Trying to make me seem like the bad guy but everyone knew Ashley ass was a hoe.

I finally realized I deserved better.. And that better is Scarlet. She makes me feel better. She makes me feel safe and cared for. She makes me feel loved.