I'm sorry it had to end like this.

My heart

My soul

My body

My mind

All of them

Are

Disappearing

To a

Nonexistent

Dark

Abyss

Red leaves? Black trees.

Beauty?

Who knows.

NO STOP GET AWAY FROM HIM

HEY MOVE IT

OH MY GOD

ARE YOU OKAY

Please answer me

I can't lose you again

The vivid noises.

It's so loud in silence

HEY ARE YOU LISTENING

GET UP BASTARD

your going to be okay

Hey can you hear me

I didn't mean to...

Wake up

Please

Please

Don't leave me

Be

Please

Please

Please—

It's not true

Is this how it ends?

Maybe

Am I forgotten?

I can't see anything

Edd?

Matt

They aren't here... nobody is here.. to help you.

Call all you want they won't respond.

It's just you and me.

Remember it's only the truth here.

The real hell is inside your head.

Hey don't give up on me now.

It's only just begun.

What's wrong wake up!!

YOU CANT BE SERIOUS!

Don't forget you only had one chance.

You blew it, well more like I blew it.

Goodbye for now.

Things don't always end up how you want it to.

Shhhh- don't talk.

I see you're crying.

Hush it'll be over soon.

Just accept the demons in your head.

And let your hell go to peace.

Is that so?

I walked through the forest I called home. Of course the eyes were there they always are! I looked to the side it's as if I'm always being watched but then again I am. The judges see all, with their watching eyes. I want to see him may I?

Oh you're asking me now?

Only because you're being good.

Go find Tom I won't interfere beware it won't be the same.

I ignored the last statement and felt the joy, excitement the rush of insanity leave my body. I fell to the ground shrieking in pain as the heavy weight on my head got heavier and heavier until it stopped. I was left gasping for air in a sticky scarlet substance.

How disgusting in laying in someone's blood! I look to see who it is, is that Edd? I rubbed my eyes and took another look. No it's just the first one I killed Josh or whoever. I tried getting up but my legs gave off. Ugh I leaned on a tree rubbing my head.

Let's go, come on me. I encouraged myself and it seemed to work. My adrenaline kicked in, I'm gonna see him! I'm going to see my beloved! The rush, the feeling had me running no sprinting out of the forest and into the road.

Is Tom even worried about me? Of course he is, he was just telling me to kill those people for him! I ran through the streets until I found a familiar alley way. I was panting and my chest was screaming. I needed air I couldn't believe I ran 2 miles in 7 minutes! Is that even possible?

Of course it is I just did it! It's an honor to be Toms executioner I cant wait to tell him how many I slaughtered for him! I sat down in the alley way and watched a rat run by. Should I kill it? I could paint another triangular eye. No let's let it live I can't be all dirty for my tommy right?

A girl walked into the alley way and screamed looking at me with wide-eyed. What's wrong with her? She yelled something and I assumed it was asking if I was okay, why would she a—- RIGHT my clothes are stained with blood. Hm maybe if I tell her no she could bring me to a hospital and maybe Tom, Edd and Matt will find out and visit me!

Then I can tell Tom how proud he should be! "n-no h-help" I muttered. I was about to smirk until she looked at me hesitantly and picked me up. I got a closer look at her face wait is that Tom? She yelled to a few other girls one in green, one in purple and another in red. This reminds me of my friends!

Why does she look so much like Tom? Is she Tom? Wait why does that red girl look like me. I'm too tired to question anything.

I thought you were going to find TOM not THEM!

You know them?

NO.

Oh but they might know him!

Absolutely not you're going to pay.

Please no—-

My thoughts were interrupted by a painful sensation in my head. I felt a sticky substance rise up my throat. I tried choking it back and the girl holding me was panicking as I coughed up a black liquid. I've never done anything like this what's happening. I saw dots in the corners of my eyes as they grew larger and larger and then suddenly I was back in the black abyss.

The only color seen are the red leaves on the black trees.

(Bad picture but I tried to make it as non realistic as possible and more hallucination like)

Stop lying.

I really didn't— you can read my thoughts!

No

Not

You

Him

Her

Him

She

He

They

What are you smoking—-

I woke up in a white building. I felt dizzy but I realized where I was and looked up as fast as possible. Nobody... there's no one here... ha.

That's so funnnyyy nobody is here! Wow to think I put my hopes u— suddenly the girls from yesterday walked into the room.

"Hey h——" I can't understand ANYTHING they're saying but the one girl in green was shaking me "HHHAHHSDHDHFIEDN STOTOTOTOTPTP SOTOFI" I couldn't say stop wow. She looked at me and raised a brow. I looked at her in embarrassment and she let go the girl started talking it reminded me of my sophomore year where I was actually popular and girls wanted to date me.

It was when Tom and I were the closest but then. Junior year happened and it all went downhill I can't remember why. All I remember is this symbol that has some sort of horns and reminds me of violence and sadness.

"~~~~Tom!~~~~" the one girl in purple yelled. I turned my head directly to her in the blink of an eye. They all looked at me "Do you know who Tom is?" I can hear them clearly. The red one has a Norwegian accent, the blue one a heavy British one and the other two I assume they don't have any accents like Edd and Matt. "Tom you know him? Where is he I was trying to find him! Why do you look like him and why does she look like me?" I asked maybe too many questions at once. "First of all I have no fucking idea why we look like them we met them three days ago, yes we know Tom. We can take you to him and that's Tori." The girl in blue said so the one in red is Tori? "Weird my name is Tord." She raised a brow and said "looks like we found your doppelganger." I shrugged it off.

Tori doesn't have a bandage over her eye though. She doesn't have any of my scars. There goes one of my theory's. "So let's go? We can sneak you outta the hospital." I nodded my head and followed them. We got chased by a few doctors and I died of laughter. I had a few conversations with Tori and she is relatable! Probably because she's literally me in a way but yeah.

My legs gave up on me and I had to be carried by Tori. Am I really that pathetic where I have to be carried by girls? I recognize these streets were almost here! I giggle in excitement an Tori looks at me weird but concentrates on running. They ring the doorbell. How will they react? I've been missing for a year maybe two.. I can't remember.

I suddenly got nervous and started shaking. Tori per my hair in a way to comfort me. "Tom get the door!" Edd shouted so loud we could hear him from outside. The door flies open "What now fucking Jami— HOLY SHIT IS THAT TORD?" He pulled me away from Tori. "WHERE HAVE YOU BEEN ITS BEEN 2 YEARS YOUVE BEEN MISSING!" I chuckled a little bit and he had tears in his eyes. Edd walked over sleepy and bags over his eyes. He rubbed his eyes "what's all the rucku—- oh my god MATT!" Edd called for Matt and he came running down "this better be good I was doing my daily beauty yog—- oh hey Todd." Tom looked at Matt with an Is-that-all? Face. I laughed a bit "yeah sorry I went missing kinda got kidnapped by your crazy ass ex and wait— Tom can I talk to you in private." He nodded "You guys wanna come in we might need some info on where he's been the isolation could have made his condition worse." They raised a brow and nodded. Well besides Matilda she can't raise a brow but she tried pffft.

We all stepped in and everyone sat in the couch. Tom carried me to his room. "So what's up?" I felt excitement rise up my spine I can't wait to hear what he says! "Tom I did what you asked me to!" I chuckled he tilted his head. "What do you mean?" I frowned "In the forest remember? You told me to kill that guy and those other people too!" His face turned form confusion to pure despair and fear. His eyes became cold as he looked at me and I shivered.

"Commie tell me you're fucking joking what are you talking about." I stated stuttering in fear "y-you a-asked me t-too, oh r-right and t-this!" I moved my hair a bit and showed the triangular eye I carved in the forest. He looked at me with pure white eyes and rushed me downstairs. "EDD, MATT WE HAVE A PROBLEM!"

We hard sirens outside they must have seen Tori carrying me! I felt numb and all the emotions in my eyes faded. I got out of Toms arms as he screamed for me to come back. He told everyone to stay away as I grabbed my switchblade and faced the door my eyes clouded with bloodlust.

Gotcha let's do this.

Put on a good show and I'll reward you.

Now let's go.

I was breathing faster and faster as the pleasure and excitement took over. "HANDS UP!" I didn't notice the police kicking down the door. I smiled and laughed. "What noooosodoif he told me to kill the people I did it!" I laughed tears forming in my eyes. "COME ON CANT YOU HEAR IT? The constant ringing in my ears and the painful screaming of the people I killed for him? Oh, how their bodies flailed and them defying death. I painted it red!" I looked down "it never worked though.. it never could no matter what I did the agonizing pain never stopped but isn't it lovely how the world works!" I slowly pulled my other bandage off exposing my other eye. Emotion faded.

My mind screaming

My heart pumping

My soul begging

My body ruined

Its time.

I laughed a bit and walked over to the policeman slowly. He motioned for them to step back. "Come with us willingly and we won't give you a death penalty, you can't kill us all you won't win this and I'm sure HE won't be happy." Those last words struck me. The black liquid trickled out my eyes into my cheeks down to my chin and into the floor.

Hey what's wrong?

Come on he'll be happy!

Stay positive!!

WAIT NO STOP.

I grabbed the knife and looked at it. The liquid was clouding my ambition to kill and please my dearest. The urge for violence. Killing other was enough and now it's time for the big finish. My last victim, myself. "sorry I was such a failure I didn't want to come back I wanted to die in that hill right?" I said as if it were a question.

"GOGOGO" they rushed me trying to get the knife but before they could get close I did it. I finally ended it. I felt the screaming of my inner demons as the red liquid splattered all over the floor, is this my release? Tom ran over to me holding me and trying to stop the blood. "Stop, thiiiss is the end, donnntt try." I looked at him.

He was crying as well as the others. They all looked at me in pure shock of what I did. The police just stopped in their tracks and called the ambulance. No not today I weakly grabbed my knife out my chest and stabbed myself again. Laughing as I did it over and over again. Until I made my final breath.

"Sorry Tom I'll meet you in the other side, I finally made peace with my hell inside my head." I reached the black abyss with the white figure. He looked different smaller and holding a blue balloon. Guess this is the end.

He faded and the trees became white with yellow leaves. I walked forward and saw my mother. "Come on let's go." I grabbed her hand and embraced her and then walked into the blue light.

Spread your wing and forgot your past, there's

No pain here.

I spend my days watching Tom, he hasn't been himself lately cutting, drinking talking to

Himself. He doesn't come out his room anymore either... He talks about him wanting to join me but he doesn't want to leave Edd and Matt.

I smile at the thought of me and him being together in the afterlife but I'd never want that. I play with a glowing yellow circle above my head and watch Tom, Edd and Matt. They all hugged each other and I tried hugging too. They looked around as if they felt me and just cried hugging each other and telling themselves I wouldn't want them sad.

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