Contains suicidal thoughts uh, alternative personality and strong language if you get offended by these words I suggest you don't read this chapter. (Gonna start making the titles and songs relate to the story it's making me mad now lmao)

I can't decide, what's wrong.... something is making me feel sick. If I really suffered from severe brain trauma wouldn't it be worse? Maybe I'm just lucky? I heard a voice ha what you think you're lucky? You're so funny you disgusting excuse of a human. I looked to my right, nothing. I looked to my left, nothing. Suddenly I saw an eye, it looked triangular and sharp. It opened and looked directly at me. I was about to say something but was interrupted by.

Don't even thing about talking you fucking shit. You're hilarious I bet you're trying to gain their trust just so you can break them again, who's next edwardo? Who will shoot the harpoon next, Edd, Matt or Tom again? Hopefully it'll hit you again and put you out of your fucking mis— no you don't deserve that. You don't deserve the sweat release of death do you? I hope you get horribly crippled and end up in a mental hospital where you spend your years in pain. Maybe then your friends would like you. T h e y o n l y l i k e y o u w h e n y o u r i n p a i n .

I could feel something warm running down my cheek and instantly knew I was crying. I felt a hand on my shoulder and saw myself but taller and more muscular, he looked at me smiling as he through me into a lake of blood. I opened my eyes as the icy water burned my throat and eyes. I deserve this... I completely gave up hope.

I suddenly was thrown on land by the water or so I though, I felt myself falling through the sky and instantly felt a harpoon go through my chest. I looked down at it and suddenly my eyes flew open.

When did I get in bed? Wasn't I just telling Matt what my name was and arguing wit Tom?

Not like I care, I looked at my wall and saw a black marker. I smiled instantly knowing what I should do. I-I can't believe how beautiful it is! It's watching me oh no. That's funny I'm watching it too right? It doesn't blink though?? That's funny. "sooo coOL" my voice cracked.

(I drew this horrible picture btw lol)

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I heard snickering and sobbing coming from Tords room. I walked to his door and opened it. Tord was sitting on the corner of the room with his banadges taken off one of his eyes. He has his hands on the opposite arms while he had his knees covering his face as his eyes were looking all around the room. He was laughing and crying. He drew triangular eyes on his walls all facing him.

"Oh my god Tord what happened?" He didn't respond I walked to him snapping my fingers right in front of his eye but he was unresponsive. I started shaking him and called for Edd. Edd ran into the room and gasped, he pushed me aside hugging Tord and telling him he was okay. After awhile Tord calmed down.

"Hey Commie what happened?" Tord looked up at me and sighed. "I-I heard voices I think I'm going insane.. I couldn't stop laughing it was horribly my chest was hurting it had been 30 minutes of constant laughing.." he started crying as Edd rubbed his back saying comforting words like 'it's okay' and 'your fine'. Tord had calmed down as Matt walked into the room rubbing his eyes asking what happened. Edd rolled his eyes and said "Matt let's go outside for a bit, Tom make sure Tord is okay."

Now I have to babysit the commie? At least he's not a screaming two year old and I don't have to change him. Maybe I coul- nope not even going into that. Not right now "Hey Tom do you hate me..? I mean do you STILL hate me..??" Tord interrupted my thoughts luckily. "No, I don't Edd and Matt forgave you and I took my anger out on Susan.

He obviously felt guilty you can read him like a book, then again he did make me break Susan. I need some Smirnoff. I walked out of Tords room and grabbed a flask.

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I'm still worried about Tord. Well I always worry about my cinnamon roll. I walked to Toms apartment and knocked in the door. "hooolld *hic* onnn." I heard Tom say. Of course he's drunk. I banged on the door and heard footsteps going towards the door. Tom opened it slowly and said "Heeeeeyyy youuu?" I sighed "Can I see Tord?" "Wh*hic*oooo??" I pushed him aside and went to Tords room. Tord was sitting there talking to himself.

"Hey buddy you okay?" He looked at me and started laughing "Worms like to slitttghhwe does that means they're sneidugjfkes??" Two of the words I couldn't make out but he was just laughing and looking my direction. I pulled some pills out my pocket and told him to take them. "ohHhH DFyeurugss???? That's cdjchfoool." He took them and dropped them. He fell on the floor picking them up and swallowed the pills. What's wrong with him..

I watched him fall asleep in my arms. Tom bursted in "Heeey *hic* donnnttt touch the litttle cuttte *hic* shit" and snatched Tord from me. "No mine, my cinnamon roll." I took him back. He snatched Tord again and I just looked at him awkwardly. "Fine you can have him but only cause he's your future husband." Tom started blushing and just looked at me weird. I should probably go and let these two wake up in awkward positions. Wait no gotta get that juicy blackmail. I ran into the bathroom and pretended I left by opening and shutting the front door.

~timeskip~

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I woke up with a really bad hangover. I noticed Edd snickering and looked to my side. I saw Tord blushing madly trying to get out of my arms. Holy what the fuck- I couldn't let go though I was just deep in though. "Uhm Tom.." That snapped me back into reality "Oh right, sorry." He was super flustered and Edd was laughing. Wait a second if he was here did he take pictur— NO.

"EDD GIVE ME YOUR FUCKING PHONE RIGHT NOW!" I yelled he just ran out and into Matt's apartment. Matt looked confused but then he laughed when Edd showed him the picture. I just stomped back into my apartment and sat in the floor crossing my legs and arms not looking at Tord.

He is cute when flustere— just shut the fuck up. You don't negotiate with terrorists, is he a terrorist? Probably I wouldn't surprised. He committed mass murder but he's still so fucking cute. Oh my Jehovahs Witness shut the fuck up.

I still have that weird feeling in my chest every time I look at Tord it's like my hearts stops beating. Probably from disgust I wouldn't be surprised I don't think a murderous communist could turn anyone on, right..? What the fuck am I even talking about. I need to clear my head.

"I'm going out for a walk okay commie?" He looked at me still blushing and nodded his head. For a moment I got lost in his eyes but then shook it off. He's not even gay. He watches hentai and is obsessed with anime girls. I dunno he doesn't seem like the type to date girls because of his shape and body size but you never fucking know. He's probably not gay for me anyway. Even though.. I might be gay for him..

🙏thank you thank you thank you so much for reading I made this chapter about 1.5x longer then I normally do it's 1.3k words which is probably nothing but to me that's a lot in 2 days. Thank you for reading I really really really appreciate it!!🙏