ringgg

the last school bell rang for the day, and I was out of that class in .2 seconds

richie was there

but eddie was too so I just hung out with him the majority of the time

there were some occasional glances between me and richie, but nothing that made me burst out in tears...

yet

'let's go eddie spaghetti!' I yelled after eddie, who was getting his bike from the racks, I had already gotten my bike since I rushed out of class before eddie had a chance to get up

'come onnnn' I kept on saying to him,'victoria, why are you in such a rush anyways? we're only going to the library to get our science books' I shrugged, knowing that I wanted to avoid richie, as he finally got his bike out and we could leave

before we left, we met up with bill and stan,'hey guys, do you wanna go to the library with us?' I asked them. bill said yes and we all started walking to the road,

but on the way, we ran into henry bowers and his little gang,'what's up b-b-b-b-billy boy?' bill mumbled a quiet,'n- n-nothing, p-p-p-please g-g-go' before henry licked his hand and wiped it on bill's face

bill walked back in disgust, but didn't say anything

none of us did, we loved bill, but we all knew that the less we talk the less henry does to us

henry pushed bill aside and walked over to me while I looked down at the ground,

he lifted my chin up with his nasty finger, forcing me to look into his sharp blue eyes,'so, vicky. where's your saviour now? because I don't see him, and in fact, I haven't seen him the past few months other than hanging around with greta bowie,' just then, I could tell he wasn't going to hurt me physically, just mentally, but I did my best to stay strong at the moment,'you know, rumour has it that they're fucking. I bet you were his first round, but since he didn't want sloppy seconds, he moved on to greta' he emphasised the 'sloppy'.

'and, victoria, they're probably doing it right now in the bathroom stall, deeper, deeper richie!' he mimicked. I was still quiet, not wanting to let him win,'and I also heard that you and tozier had a little 'incident' on the schools football field at lunch. he rejected you for what? the tenth time now? you know he doesn't see you as anything more then some slut girl who can't handle his junk correctly'

'henry, please,' I said in a quiet tone

he didn't leave me alone, and now both of his hands were on my cheeks

why couldn't he just leave now?

'you know, victoria. I bet he hates you as much as your fucked up parents do.'

tears were lightly streaming down my face

i gave up, and tried to wipe the tears away, but instead, his hands went from his cheeks to my wrists

'oh no you weren't going to do anything to me, you sobbing slut. if only someone cared about you enough to actually give a fuck about you crying right now! how sad!'

then, an unfamiliar but oh-so familiar voice was heard yelling from the school's entrance,

'get your hands off her you pig!'

then, henry's hands dropped my wrists, and I tumbled down on the grass, as technically it was him that was supporting me while I was standing

'well, well, well. what do we have here?' henry said as he walked over to richie

i closed my eyes, not because I knew that richie was going to get beat up, even though he was,

but because I wasn't ready to see richie at all, wether he's getting beat up for standing up for me or not

i heard henry's car drive off when I finally opened my eyes after a few minutes

standing up shakily, bill asked me if I was okay. I nodded, and went back over to my bike

eddie, bill, and stanley left after we said goodbye, leaving me alone at my bike on the grass

i could hear footsteps coming closer to me, and a quiet voice that only me and the person saying it could here,'victoria, do you want to go back to my house and watch a movie'

i can't believe him. he acted as if everything was okay between us because he got beat up by henry. I shook my head no,'why not? I just got beat up for you, do you not see my glasses that are snapped in half and my bruising eye and bloody nose?! I though everything was okay between us now?' I looked back up at him while shaking my head in disbelief,'ok? ok, richie?! none of this is okay! you can't just expect that you an come waltzing back into my life and mess it all up, when you're just going to leave me again!' if this was any other circumstance, I would've been crying now,

but no, because no matter how heartbroken I was, I was still more mad at him then anything

'victoria, why can't we just talk?'

when I answered him, I said it in a whisper,'because, richie. last time i tried to 'talk' to you it ended up with me and eds catching you and greta bowie making out; and I can't take more of that heartbreak.' that last part I could only say in a lower voice, wanting him to hear it, but still not wanting him to hear it

'victoria, heartbreak? baby, it broke my heart when you didn't talk to me for three months. three months!'

baby,

he called me baby

a frown spread across my face,'it wasn't only you thats heart was breaking in those three months. do you not think it hurt when you didn't talk to me for three whole months!'

richie looked down and then back up again at me,'then let's fix that, we can catch up and be friends again, and maybe even pick up where we left off, as more then friends'

i rubbed my eyes,'no richie, it's not that easy-'

'but it is!'

'richie, you have to understand that you're with greta and we're toxic to each other!'

he ran his fingers through is dark black hair,'i'm not with greta. victoria, all I ask is fifteen minutes to talk down by the barons tomorrow at sunset after school, that's it'

'why don't you ask greta to talk' I said harshly before biking away

'victoria wait!' was the last thing I could hear richie yell after me

why am I doing this to myself?

he needs me, and I need him

but he also needs greta

no he doesn't

he just wants her to make me jealous

but he didn't want me to see them that day by the river, so maybe he doesn't just need her

maybe he actually wants her too

it's 6:45

the sun sets in fifteen minutes, and victoria isn't here

she's probably not even coming at all

i was lost in thought looking over the huge lake with my legs dangling over the cliff while I was sitting, when I heard someone say,'you have fifteen minutes. now talk to me'

i looked behind me, it was victoria

she looked beautiful

her dirty blonde hair flowing in the wind, and the sun making her bright blue eyes shine even brighter than they normally do

i smiled at her

she looked way more beautiful then she normally does, even though she's always beautiful

she sat down next to me and waited for me to say something

'victoria, whatever you do, please don't say anything,

just listen to me' she nodded her head, ready for me to say something

'three years ago, when I was in school, I saw the most beautiful girl ever

she had bright blonde hair and dusty blue eyes

and I decided on that day, that she was going to be my friend

now skip forward to three years later and there we were

she was still beautiful, even though her hair changed from long and bright to short and dirty blonde

and I knew I wanted to be more than friends,

even though her dusty eyes had turned the color of the ocean on a summer day

now, one day, I was going somewhere

and I messed up, I messed up really bad

i had assumed things, things that I really shouldn't have assumed

and it broke my heart of how I could have been so stupid that day

and then I did something even more stupid, so stupid I can't even say it without getting mad at myself

and, long story short, on that day, did I not only break that beautiful girl's heart,

but I also broke my own

three months, there went three months before I saw her again

and those were the worst three months of my life,

every day I kept on thinking about how much I missed her

how much I missed her scolding me for my inappropriate jokes,

how whenever she talked to me,

my stomach was filled with butterflies

and how, I messed it all up

how much damage I did to the person that meant the most to me out of everything and everyone in the entire world

and every day for those three months I imagined how great it would be if I ever got to see her again

and I did, but I messed it all up

i told the worst person I could tell that I was going to talk to her and she messed it up for me,

but no, I messed it up for myself

i was a real idiot and screwed everything up

i thought I had made it better, but I wasn't thinking and things stayed the same

and now that beautiful girl, that I saw on the first day of school three years ago, is sitting in front of me and looking as beautiful as ever

and I know I can't have her'

she was silent, but then

our lips crashed together

she kissed me, and I kissed her back

it was like the missing half of my heart was back in place,

and everything would be okay

when we pulled away, I saw her beautiful blue eyes staring back into mine,'rich, how about we jump into the lake'

she had that please-don't-think-i'm-crazy look on her face,

but little did she know, how crazy I was about her

so we got up, and took off our clothes so we stood there in nothing but my tighty whities and her yellow triangle top and purple underwear

i couldn't help but stare, she was so beautiful

'richie, take a picture it'll last longer, now let's go'

we laced our fingers together,

and jumped

not just into the lake, but into a whole new chapter of our young teenage lives