I don't know how to speak to people. I put up this front, being quiet and 'not distracted', feeling this urge to go silent and ignore anyone I know. But then at moments I feel carefree, wild, myself.

But how do I change so quickly?

How in one moment I feel stupid in my quiet concentrated mood but while I feel happy, I feel I speak up in stupidity?

Yet, I feel insecure in both, only in different ways.

One feeling is: I need to be louder and the other: I need to be quieter.

How do these contrast so much and how do I have these thoughts to begin with?

Maybe I'm just a little lost.

But...

Aren't we all?