I just love to dance, to feel the release by dancing. My heart beating in pride and my toes pointed in concentration.

I enjoy the music and feel my body.

But in class... I feel controlled, judged and looked at...by you.

You only point out the times I mess up and when I do good, for some reason you don't catch that.

You adjust my posture, saying to fix it in a kind voice, but I feel it's more of a critique.

When my posture was fine as I stared ahead, paying attention to my body.

I know, I'm sorry for saying rude things about your teaching. But it's true.

I don't feel seen, and when you do point out my beauty in the dance, it's only once, it's when it's the easy stuff and you say that to everybody.

I just love to dance!

Yes, you teach it in a style and the 'right' way.

But sometimes I wish you could disappear, all the people around me, so I could be in the light.

The dark all around except an orb around me, that protects me and keeps me within my truth. It's all I can see.

Safe as I dance!

I don't care if I do it the 'wrong' way.

I'm learning and I'm in my body.

Dancing in general does that for me.

And in Ballet, I could really feel my growth, awareness towards every lengthen of my body, each step.

Truly beautiful the way it works.

And this is how I feel about Dancing in your class (for now).

How I feel in this point where I play the Ballet world.

I have decided to stop worrying about what you think of me or your critiques.

I will just dance.

I will | Not |

I will let myself go into the world of self doubt.

I will no longer decide to stop enjoying myself just because of one mistake.

I will dance!

I will dance!

For me!

For me!

For me!