"The greatest pleasure in life is doing what people say you cannot do."- Walter Bagehot

"Oh God, Oh God, Oh God! Breathe Cassie, breathe in, breathe out! Hah! You can do this! Me da confianza para hacer las cosas que voy a hacer." Give me confidence to do the things I'm going to do. Chanting this while shaking my hands and arms to release some tension.

Im trying to calm my nerves and ease the consciousness I am feeling at the moment. The dress Im wearing is black sleeve less deep V necked gown that showed the small cleavage that I thankfully have, the floor length skirt also showcased my smooth but not too long legs via its see through style with a long slit at the left side. Wearing some of the jewelries I brought with me, a diamond studded black earrings and bangles did the trick of making me look elegant.

The reason I am hyperventilating, aside from the thought that I was going out, well, going out of the house with Lance, is the amount of skin exposed from this dress. Its like I am parading my soul!

"Aaaargh!" Sitting down on the side of the bed, I thought about the walk we had by the beach earlier. I still cannot believe I was bold enough to admit that I care for him. I even gave him my first kiss! Well, it is, even if only at the cheeks.

And now, he asked me for a date! Such an adonis like Lance could never be rejected for a date. I mean, Im just plain old me and he's . . . perfect! So, who am I to say no right?

Its unbelievable how fast things has been going for us but I do not see any other way. The pace he sets for our friendship or is this a relationship? is quite alarming! It's like he is on a rally race with an imaginary finish line and I as the prize?

Still feeling overwhelmed by everything, I slipped into a four inches high silver metallic leather caged Christian Louboutin sandals that probably cost a normal working employee three months of his hard earned salary.

I decided to explore the house while waiting for Lance. He said dinner will be in a hour and a half and I only took forty five minutes to dress up and do my make up. If you call applying lipgloss, face powder, and some mascara doing make up.

My shaky feet brought me to the Music Room or I think this is more of a recording studio, with all the high tech equipments inside. I found a guitar near the mic and audio interface and had an idea. Turning on the equipments and closing the door, I sat at the chair and did something that I have been carefully hiding for several years now. This is the secret that I want to unleash now that I am miles away from home.

I closed my eyes and started to strum the guitar strings as I let the magic flow from my fingertips to create music. All the nervousness disappeared as I sang the lyrics of Tori Kelly's song, I Was Made for Loving You.

As the melody and lines from the song invade my senses, flashbacks of my moments with Lance reigned on my mind.

[Our first meeting together at his room after the explosion at the cafe]

A dangerous plan, just this time

A stranger's hand clutched in mine

I'll take this chance, so call me blind

I've been waiting all my life

Please don't scar this young heart

Just take my hand

[All I can see is him and me walking by the beach, sharing a comfortable silence. We were walking together like it was a normal routine for us]

I was made for loving you

Even though we may be hopeless hearts just passing through

Every bone screaming I don't know what we should do

All I know is, darling, I was made for loving you

[Lance and I holding each other on the private plane's cabin through a restful slumber]

Hold me close through the night

Don't let me go, we'll be alright

Touch my soul and hold it tight

I've been waiting all my life

I won't scar your young heart

Just take my hand

[The way he looks at me each time we are together]

Cause I was made for loving you

Even though we may be hopeless hearts just passing through

Every bone screaming I don't know what we should do

All I know is, darling, I was made for loving you

[I imagined his handsome face smiling at me]

Please don't go, I've been waiting so long

Oh, you don't even know me at all

But I was made for loving you

[I opened my eyes, saw him standing across the room staring at me with so much emotion in his eyes]

I was made for loving you

Even though we may be hopeless hearts just passing through

Every bone screaming I don't know what we should do

All I know is, darling, I was made for loving you. . .

I smiled at him after I finished the song. I stood up to replace the guitar to its original place.

I wished for Lance to be here so I can let him hear me sing, and now that he is, I cannot utter a single word. He was dashing in his white dress shirt and royal blue suit. His mesmerizing eyes speak volumes as he approached me. I can literally hear my heartbeat as I waited for him to get closer.

"That was amazing! You're voice. . . and everything about you is amazing. . ." As he softly said the last words, he closed our gap, pulled me closer to him by skimming his hands to my waist and to my back as he engulfed me in a gentle hug. He kissed the top of my head and then looked intently at my face as if waiting for an answer to his unspoken question.

"Thank you. Music is my secret passion. Only my best friend knows this and well, now, you." I looked away from his probing gaze I said this.

He tilted my chin so I can look into his eyes again.

"But why do you have to keep this soulful angelic voice hidden? You can conquer an entire nation with your voice! For me that is how powerful it is. And believe me when I say that you are perfect."

Hearing those words from him was like receiving a surprise party and a very much coveted gift on a Birthday after feeling miserable the entire week thinking that nobody even remembered.

Beaming with happiness from his compliments, I hugged him tightly which seemed to caught him off guard as I felt him stiffen at the sudden contact.

"Cassie, I think we need to go to dinner now before I cannot contain myself." He slightly moved away from me but still held my hand as he led me to the dining area.

As I saw the room setup I cannot help but feel teary eyed from so much happiness. He remembered everything that we have talked about during our trip here.

From every small details, he gave me my perfect dream date. He may think I'm perfect but I am now sure that HE is perfect for me. Only for me.

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"Oh God, Oh God, Oh God! Breathe Cassie, breathe in, breathe out! Hah! You can do this! ." Give me confidence to do the things I'm going to do.