I am a virgin and I almost had sex with my boyfriend yesterday. I feel so guilty though. I am fully comfortable with him and he is fully comfortable with me but I just don't physically feel ready. I am scared I think and I don't understand why. And then when I think about it I feel sick because I feel like I let him down but he's told me I haven't but I just feel like it would be a kick in his guts because he must think that he made me uncomfortable but he didn't. It's just me being scared.

And we promised each other we wouldn't tell anyone it almost happened so this is the only place I can think to come to because I really need to tell someone or something.