Trey,

I hesitated my thumb over his contact name. I thought about what Alex said a month ago and she's right. I'm miserable without Chris. I'm only with Michael to make him jealous.

"Maybe I shouldn't do it. "I said to myself. I locked my phone back only to unlock it a second later and seeing it on the same screen.

"Just do it Trey, "I was edging myself on at this point. "What's the worst that could happen?"

Him not wanting you anymore after you walked out on him.

"I'm feeling bold today. Fuck it. "I tapped on the icon and placed my phone up to my ear.

Moments later I hear his baritone, raspy voice flow through the speaker.

"Um, hello?" I could tell he wasn't expecting a call from me anytime soon.

"Hey. Haven't talked to you in a while."

"No. What do you want? I know you're not calling just to talk. "He got right to the point. Well damn. I inhaled deeply and exhaled.

"I miss you." I admitted to him after a brief silence.

"Oh, okay. I guess that's good to know."

What? His reaction isn't what I was looking for. He did exactly how I feared he would and not care. Does he not feel the same?

"What do you mean you "guess that's good to know,"?" I quoted.

"Trey I don't exactly feel the same anymore. Remember I don't exactly like anyone, it's just sex. "

"Just sex? Nigga I gave my all to your dumb ass. "I yelled into the phone feeling myself get a little heated.

To say that to a person after being in a relationship that lasted for almost a year is heartbreaking. I really and truly loved Chris. I think his stupid ass just couldn't see it.

"Whatever bruh. You knew what you were getting into from the start. Don't try to come at me like that. I gotta go. Bye. "He said before I heard a dead line.

I slumped into the couch and sighed deeply. I'm so stupid. I feel stupid, sad, angry, and empty; Common symptoms of a heartbreak. Just wanting to break down and lock myself in my room sounded great right now.

"Just Sex. "I repeated, "Just my heart and time." My voice shook.

All of those dreams I had of Chris and I will never come true. We'll never get married. We'll never have kids. I will never be genuinely happy. Damn sure not in reality nor in my dreams.

Chris,

"Hold on, damn. " I shouted to whoever the hell was banging on my damn door and ringing the doorbell. If you ring the doorbell I'm pretty sure you don't have to knock on my door because I most likely heard you.

I swung my door open fiercely to reveal a Savannah in distress.

"Can I come in, please?" She sniffed through her tears. It made me feel bad because I hate and exploit her-a lot.

"Yeah. What's wrong with you, Vannah?" I was very concerned. Just because I don't like her doesn't mean I don't care. She couldn't even speak through all of her tears. She just handed me two papers.

"What's this?" I asked looking at the paper she handed me. One of them was a report card. She had two D's and a C. Mila's gonna beat her ass.

"I'd be crying too. Mila don't play that shit."I laughed. She snatched the papers from me and switched them around. The second paper was now on top. The first thing I saw was the name of a hospital. Reading a little further, all I saw was the word pregnant and positive.

"You're pregnant? By who?" I asked like a dumb ass.

"Chris! You're the only person I've been sleeping with, idiot. "She snapped on me.

"Positive?" I asked and started laughing. It's funny because her pregnancy test was positive. Wrong time to joke around. Savannah rolled her eyes at me and started to cry harder. I wiped them away with my thumbs.

"I'm sorry. Way too early to make that joke. How did you find out you were pregnant? "I say as I pull into my chest and embrace her.

"My Mom took me to the doctor after o kept throwing up. She had already flipped about my report a few days before and then she went crazy over this." She explained while I comforted her. I nodded and it got quiet.

"You're a much better step-brother than just someone I fuck with. "She sniffed.

"Step-brother? But my dad said that we were--"

"Half brother and sister. Yeah,I know. My mom told me she cheated in your dad before they got married because she was getting back at him. We're not related all. He just thinks I'm his daughter. Ask my mom, she'll tell you."

Well damn, Mila.

"On your Mama we not related?" I asked. Niggas don't put nothing on they Mama or God if it ain't true.

"On my Mama. "She chuckled.

Wayment...

"What we supposed to do about the baby? I'm not ready for any kids. " I say to Savannah.

"I wanna keep it. "

"Savannah, I'm not ready for kids. Plus if Mila ever finds out I'm the one who got you pregnant, she'll never forgive me, or bake me anymore brownies. " I frowned at the last part.

"But Chris, she wants me to keep it too. My Mom doesn't believe in killing anyone or anything so why would she want me to get an abortion? You're just gonna have to step up. "

I thought about what she said for a minute. It's obviously my child so I need to do what I have to do. Abandoning my child and not being in their life would be wrong. I have to grow up someday.

"I will. "I mutter.

"Promise? I can't exactly do this in my own. My mom said she'd help too. "

"Promise. "

"Great. My next appointment is a month from now. Bye. "She left and I just stood there in the middle of living room. I'm about to become someone's father. I don't even know what to do. Will I even be a good father? I have so many questions to ask. What about Trey if he finds out? I told Trey I wasn't really interested in him anymore, but that would hurt his feelings if he found out.

I'm fucked up...

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