Huffing out a breath, I bite the tips of my nails anxiously as I stand in the corner of the training facility.

It's loud, very loud.

The surrounding music along with the crippling sound of bodies constantly clashing together is putting me on edge. I was told to jump in at any moment, but what if that moment is never?

Leaning my back against the wall, there's six separate spars happening all at once in front of me. My eyes glancing to each pair rapidly.

When I woke up from the sleep Greyson put me in, this was the last thing I expected to do today.

Supposedly, while I was out everyone had a group meeting. They believed that if we got together all of our warriors-or anyone that was willing-we could work on our fighting skills because of the threat of Bahee rising.

So now here we are. Sebastian and Grey walking around to each group assessing their mistakes before correcting them. Part of me wants to go train, to get better at defending myself. But the more compelling side is too scared, too anxious to leave this very corner.

Some people are training in their wolf form, and others in their human just based on what they think they should improve on more.

Though the more I think, I finally realize how long it's been since I've been a wolf and communicated with said wolf. The serums and drugs they gave me, really fucked everything up.

Plus, I'm afraid what will happen if I try to transform.

"You okay?"

Jumping slightly, I look up meeting my eyes with Greyson's. He's across the building, but I can still see his eyes looking at me before they glance to the sparring group he's assessing.

I bite my nail a little harder, my foot jittering in place. "Yeah I'm fine. Just watching everyone," I say.

He says something to the pair before looking back to me, his head cocking to the side. "Do you want to go somewhere else? I can have Koda take over for me."

"Koda is working on important things inside, I'm fine."

"If you're fine why can I see your leg jittering from here, or your nervous nail bites?" Instantly I stop my leg from its endless bouncing, and crossing my arms over my chest. "That's what I thought, we're going somewhere else."

He starts walking towards me, his eyes trained on my own. I groan, kicking off the wall. "No, no stop." I point my finger at him. "I'm not leaving, I-I'll jump in like you said. Give me someone to spar."

I hate being stubborn. Why couldn't I just accept that fact that I was freaking out and needed to leave?

Oh yeah, because someone told me that I was and now I want to defy them. It's great.

Though he doesn't stop, he just keeps walking towards me until he's right in front of me. He looks down to me, his eyebrow slightly rose. "You want to jump in?"

I nod, though I know I'd be more content standing in my corner.

His eyes finally narrow, mine following his lead. Challenging him.

"Fine," he says lowly.

Shit.

"Hey everyone!" He yells turning around to address the rest. "Clear the floor! Sebastian you stay."

Shit.

Glancing around Greyson's body I see everyone doing as their told. Sebastian in the middle with a confused look.

Greyson puts his hand on my back, leading me to Sebastian. "You and Seb will spar, be listening so I can help you out, okay?"

Nodding I stand in front of Seb, who looks at Greyson uneasily. He moves his eyes between me and him, it only takes a second for me to realize they're linking back and forth.

Biting the inside of my cheek I cross my arms annoyed. "How about you say your thoughts out loud?" I link Sebastian with a sharp tongue.

His eyes look to me wide, knowing he's been caught. "Are you okay to do this?" He says quickly.

"Perfectly," I tap my foot on the ground. Partly because I'm annoyed, and also because the jitter is coming back.

He rolls his jaw before turning around and walking to the end of the sparring circle. I stay in my spot as Grey gives my shoulder a squeeze before walking away.

Instantly I feel sweat start to rise on my skin before even moving. It's been a while since I've fought Sebastian.

He's the top warrior for a reason.

Crouching slightly, I watch as Seb takes his position opposite of me.

"Go," Greyson says calmly crossing his arms.

His demeanor so relaxed, it made me question if he was actually signifying a start. Though when I heard the quick footsteps of Seb, it only confirmed that he really meant it.

I dodged just in time of a punch being thrown. My breaths heaving quickly as I look to Seb with wide eyes.

He's not wasting any time with this.

He recovers from the missed punch by directing yet another my way. I stumble back in a panic, falling down.

Seb backs off, giving me a second to recollect myself.

Flinching to surprise, Grey rubs my shoulders softly. He presses his lips to my ear, before trailing his fingers down my arms. "Calm down, and focus. Watch Sebastian and predict his next movements," he tells me as I look up to Sebastian.

It's Seb, it's only Seb.

Grey let's me recover before helping me back up to my feet.

My hands shaking as I clench them together, I take my stance again. The surrounding pack members cheering as I do so.

If I'm being honest I forgot they were here.

Once I breathe a few more times, I nod to Seb telling him that I'm ready.

He grinds his teeth together, before running at me. I can tell he doesn't want to do this. He doesn't want to rush so quickly into things, but I need to do this.

I have to start doing things that I once did or I'm not going to get back into routine. Or I'm not going to be like my old self.

My eyes look down to his feet, watching as he takes a step with his left signifying the punch he's about to swing with his right.

I dodge, swinging my own arm.

Flinching when it lands on his jaw, I shake out my hand as I step away from him.

"Good Willa!" Greyson yells.

A shaky breath releases from my nose, as I back away. My fists clenched, shielding my face just in case Seb acts quickly.

The way I still feel no presence of my wolf is putting me on edge. Why is she still not here. Not talking, not pushing my muscles.

Am I even a wolf anymore?

I quickly lose myself in thought long enough for Seb to move without me knowing. It's too late to react when his foot swings across my face in a quick motion.

Yelping, I stagger to the side.

I blink back the pain, and the memories threatening to suffocate my mind.

I look so pathetic right now, it's insane.

My eyes widen when I see Seb's leg swing again, flinching I pull my arms up defending myself against the hit.

My bones rattle with the impact, my forearms aching.

"Breathe, you're okay. It's just Sebastian. I'm right here," my eyes flick over to Greyson who flashes a smile.

My mind roaming for just a second to try an collect myself. It's better to get back into things quicker rather than later. So if I'm going to fight, I actually need to fight.

No more scared bullshit.

Seb's leg swings, but this time instead of defending myself I grab his shin.

He stiffens, hopping on one leg before looking at me. I see a fire ignite in his eyes once he knows the old me is starting to come out.

Before I can take too long to start over thinking, I swing my own leg out. It trips him which takes him to the floor.

My chest starts to tighten in anticipation. Though, I shake it off once I see him catch himself before falling completely to the ground.

"Just like that, Willa." I look up to Grey, his arms crossed his head nodding lightly.

I find Seb's fist coming into my vision suddenly. Damnit, I need to stop losing focus.

I barely dodge out of the way before he sends more my way. It becomes a vicious cycle of me either dodging or deflecting.

He's too fast for me, and I don't know how long I can keep this up.

It's like if I even blink he will have the upper hand on me.

I hate how off all of this feels, how off I feel.

That's until I Seb backs off suddenly, his eyes snapping to Grey just as he does so.

His eyes flicker between us for a second before he nods. All while I stand back, panting, shaking from the adrenaline, and sweating buckets.

Seb's fists clench before his muscles tremble, please tell me he's not doing what I think he's doing. Because we're going to have a problem if he is.

Quickly, he leaps in the air transforming and landing on all fours. His wolf looking dangerously down to me.

My eyes widen out of instinct. Worry that I pushed back, starting to creep under my skin just as quick as it left.

They want me to turn and fight that way instead. That's why Grey linked him, he was telling him to transform.

Worriedly I look to Grey, as he raises his eyebrows expecting something from me.

I don't think I can. I think that if I try, it's not going to be very pretty

Taking a timid step back from Seb I raise my arm slightly in attempt to shield myself from approaching attacks.

Though I find out it's not nearly enough when he pounces forward. His paws impacting with my shoulders, pushing me to the ground.

Wheezing out a breath, I close my eyes to the impact.

That was over quick.

"I'm so rusty," I cringe. Peering my eyes open slowly. I already know that I'm going to be questioned about the whole not turning into a wolf thing.

But I decided to make light of the situation before we dwell upon that topic.

Seb huffs out a little laugh, blowing air in my face. He gets off of me quickly so he can turn back into himself. Though that only leaves Grey walking to me, while everyone else continues with what they were doing before.

He raises his eyebrows slightly, crouching down to me as I sit up.

"You see-"

"Why didn't you transform?"

Ah, there it is.

Huffing out a breath, I put my hair behind my ear, my leg starting to bounce up and down.

"I couldn't transform while I was there. They gave me this serum to stop just that. So, I haven't been a wolf in so long, and not to mention that I cant hear my wolf either," my words come out quick and in one breath.

Looking down, the hair I tucked earlier falls in front of my face. It doesn't help that he's silent as I sit here. It always does the trick of making my thoughts go haywire.

Jumping slightly, I feel his fingers graze my forehead as he replaces the hair behind my ear.

"I wish you would've told me. I wouldn't of made Sebastian transform if I would've known." I nod softly. "But we'll figure out what's going on, don't worry. Okay?"

Smiling lightly, I nod.

My eyes then drift over to Sebastian who's walking over to us.

In the meantime, I need to keep training, develope more self defense, and gain more skills.

Tell my anxieties to fuck off.

I need to get back to my old self or I don't know what I'll do.

Grey offers a hand to help me stand. My hand lingering in his for just a second, before I smirk.

My eyes looking to Seb, he cocks his eyebrow seeing the expression in my eyes. "You up for round two?"

He looks surprised at first, though once he sees how serious I am this time, he smirks.

"Always."