Sitting back in my chair I watch the crowd flow with the rhythm of the music. My eyes getting yanked, and lured all over.

Sighing I sit forward, resting my elbows on my knees. I can't stop jittering.

I feel off.

Well, more off then earlier.

My nails click on my mask as I piddle my fingers across it.

I have all of the warriors watching Bahee carefully.

Greyson linked me earlier about the situation, and also what happened between Faye and the alpha of the Lightwood pack.

Good for her.

Groaning I sit back in my chair once again, feeling my leg bouncing up and down.

"Koda!" I hear my name being called.

Just great, just the person I want to see.

Looking up to Sebastian, he jogs up to me. His shirt flies open in the process. I have to look away from his torso quickly before I start staring.

That's a habit sometimes.

"What's going on? I was um-occupied when you linked me," he stops in front of me.

Occupied, which actually means-I was shoving my tongue down a girl's throat.

Perfect.

Clenching my jaw I look down to my hands which are in fists. Just walk away before you do or say something you'll regret.

Standing up, I push my chair back so I don't touch Sebastian. I don't dare look at him, I can't. My head is too cloudy from the drinks I took not that long ago.

Don't be impulsive, stop blaming it on the alcohol.

Sometimes my wolf can be so condescending, but he's right.

"Ask Maxen, I have somewhere to be." I tell him walking away.

Quickly I walk towards the woods which has little to no people. I just need to be alone, and away from people, away from Sebastian. I just need to cool down before I see him again.

It's been so bad lately, my emotions. I'm yearning to be loved, or for someone to return it.

And I know Sebastian would never like me how I like him.

It hurts.

Once I'm deep in the woods I start to take off my mask and jacket. My body is starting to heat up. I need to shift. I need to release everything that's pent up inside.

While I unbutton my undershirt my arm is caught, spinning me around.

"Koda, what the hell?" Sebastian hurriedly takes his mask off throwing it to the ground. "You need to stop being such an asshole."

Ripping my arm from his grasp my eyes narrow, "Excuse me?"

"You're giving me the cold shoulder. You don't talk to me. It's like I'm not even your friend anymore." He pushes me back with each sentence. Anger radiating off both of us, mingling in the air. "I know I didn't do anything wrong. So why are you acting like a dick?"

I feel my breath deepen, its infuriating that he doesn't know why I'm acting like this.

"It's funny how you think that you did nothing wrong," a mocking smile comes onto my lips. "I am sick and tired of hearing you talk about the girls you bring around every night. I'm even more pissed about the fact I can hear what you do every night." I push him back making his teeth grit together. "Oh Sebastian more! Come on Sebastian!" I mock the voice of the girl that was in his room last night.

Our rooms are next door to each other, I hear everything.

"If you had such a problem, leave your fucking room Koda." His eyes glow golden as he finally pushes me harshly against a tree. Clamping down on my teeth, the hold on my shoulders don't let up. "They're my form of distraction. It's my life and if you-"

His words stop as I lurch forwards taking his lips in my own.

I tried to stop myself, but I couldn't control it. He was just getting so close in my face.

In a matter of seconds he pushes his forearm to my neck, yanking me off of his lips.

There was no way I could even enjoy it. It was such a forceful, and invasive move. I could only enjoy it if he relayed what I put into it.

Panting I let him pin me against the tree. His hold on my neck, hard and almost painful.

I deserve it.

Looking away to the ground, my face heats up. I'm such an idiot.

I could almost laugh right now at my stupidity.

"Just let me go," I tell him trying to shake him off of me. The embarrassment is starting to become too much.

Groaning I look up to him to see why he won't let me go.

I wish I didn't.

His eyes are wide, and he looks completely terrified. I god-damn broke the guy.

"Sebastian just let me go, we can talk about this later," I tell him again. Quickly I grab his arm pulling it away from me.

His arm shakes in my grasp with the amount of force he's putting into it. His eyes flicking down from my eyes to the hand gripping his wrist.

I start to step away from the tree I was originally pinned behind. But I'm yanked back, and before I can process he pins both of my wrists to the trees.

"Sebastian what are you-" I try to scramble out. But I find lips on my own before I can finish.

He's kissing me.

On instinct I pull away.

I pant while looking up to him. "What're you doing?" I test him. I only want to do this if it's mutual.

He looks me up and down, his eyes still wide. He sighs connecting his eyes back to my own. "Testing out the water," he whispers.

When his eyes look to my mouth, his lips quickly follow.

Only then did I need the green light before I let out everything I've pent up over the years.

Hurriedly I pull his loose shirt off his arms.

His skin hot as my fingers graze it. He hisses at the coldness of my fingers.

I take my time with everything, every touch, and every movement. I want to savor this, indulge in it.

It's hard to believe something that I've kept hidden for so long, is coming into the light. That this is happening because of something I did unintentionally.

He's quick to get my shirt off as well, and I feed into it. Quickening the kiss and deepening it.

Though once I ring my fingers into the belt loops of his pants, he grabs my shoulders pushing me away lightly.

Blinking rapidly I look up to him, "Someone's coming." He pants heavily looking behind us, and I'm just as out of breath as he is.

He jogs away from me to retrieve the shirt that I threw off him. While I stand frozen, using the tree to stable my shaking body.

What just happened?

"Koda get your clothes on before someone sees us," Seb hisses shaking my shoulder.

A twig snaps a little in front of me, noticing that someone really is coming towards us. I do what he says and throw on my button up, putting my blazer on my arm.

We run out before anyone can catch us.

My mask dangles in the crook of my elbow as I button up my shirt. Sebastian deathly quiet next to me.

Sighing I glance up to him, though he's already looking at me. "What was that Sebastian?" I ask him, but not wanting to know the answer.

I can probably already guess how he's going to respond, and it's not very promising.

He bites his lip looking away. "I'm not gay Koda," he whispers.

Bingo, I knew it.

"Then why'd you do it? Why'd you make me feel the way I did back there?" My anger slowly rises. I was hopeful as it was happening, but as soon as he was scared someone was going to see us. I lost it.

He grabs my arm stopping me. I clench my jaw, narrowing my eyes at him.

He looks around making sure no one is listening or looking at us. "Because," he hisses. "It felt different when you kissed me."

"But?" I ask feeling the but coming into play.

"But, I like girls. Not guys. I can't change that Koda," the hold on my arm grows stronger. I smack it off trying to walk away, but he stops me again. "Koda, stop trying to walk away from me."

"What do you want me to tell you Sebastian?" I snap. "That I wish you luck with your love life? That-That I hope you find happiness?"

"No," he grits between his teeth. "I like girls, but-" He pauses looking up. "I don't know," he sighs out after thinking for a second.

Biting my lip I look away from him to the crowd of people. "Got it," I whisper. "It won't happen again."

Before I let him say anything else I turn around walking into the crowd of dancers.

That was a mistake. It was amazing during, but after it made me feel worse then before.

Like I said, I'm such an idiot.

Shrugging on my jacket, I skim through people trying my best to not bump into anyone.

Between bodies I find Greyson standing alone, that's weird, where's Willa? "Hey," I call out which catches his attention. "Listen, I need to tell you something." I hesitantly tell him.

"What?"

Grey is the only person that knows about my little crush on Seb. The least I can do is tell him what just happened.

"Um-Ikissedsebastian," I rush which causes Grey to tilt his head.

"Say that again, but slower," he chuckles.

Sighing my eyes glance around, "I kissed Sebastian." I whisper.

In less then a second, he smacks my shoulder. "What happened?"

"Well," I cringe which makes him frown. "He kissed me back. But then after, he told me that he wasn't gay, and he strictly liked girls. So I don't know Grey," I chuckle bitterly.

"Koda," he sighs. "You know him. He doesn't know how to express himself. If he kissed you back-" he trails scratching the back of his neck.

"I just-" I choke off my words feeling instant shocks shooting from my shoulder.

I suck in my breath, my head shooting to my left finding a foreign face.

But a face that seems so familiar in my gut.

All air is knocked out of me as the world seems to stop. My wolf howls, ringing my ears as words budge from my stomach. "Mate," I whimper.

And almost like magic. Everything that I felt, everything that had me worried about Sebastian, vanishes.

All I know is that this man in front of me, is-and will forever be-my main priority in life.