{59 Interrogation

Yoongi POV

Uncomfortably I wiggle in the backseat of the car, as soon I was able to leave work I rushed to her house. Our manager had brought us to the company in his van so instead of going with my car I asked my driver to pick me up and drive me. Even though, he is wearing sunglasses like usual I can see him occasionally looking in his rear mirror to check on me.

''Trouble in paradise?'' He asks in his low raspy voice.

''W-what?'' I ask confused I never told him I was seeing anyone.

''I might be just a driver sir, but I don't need to be a detective to figure out you're dating someone,'' Mr. Choi lifted one corner of his mouth in a mischievous smile, ''Why else would you ask me to keep these little outings to the same neighborhood a secret? You're not fooling anyone with just naming a street next to one I brought you before.''

I stared at him with my mouth agape, how long had he known? And if he knew, who else knows?

''Don't worry, I haven't told anyone and am not planning too,'' Mr. Choi said while looking at me through the rear mirror, ''You're a young guy, you can date. I'm just glad to see one of you guys is finally finding their love besides their work.''

''Thank you,'' I give Mr. Choi a little thank you smile. The situation was already difficult enough as currently is. If she took a job as an intern at BigHit, it was going to complicate things, what was she thinking? I knew her dream was to work in the entertainment industry but why of all the companies BigHit?

''We're here,'' My driver slowed down and stopped in front of her apartment block, ''Goodluck.''

''Thanks again,'' I said to the driver before getting out of the car. I sighed deeply before I turned around and walked up to her building. She still hadn't told me anything, even after countless messages she only wanted to talk to me in person. It was something so important she didn't want to tell me anything over the phone. The head editor had introduced her as the new intern so I had an idea what the conversation was going to be about, I was just wondering why?

When I came to her floor the door to her apartment was already open, I pushed the door open further and entered the apartment. She wasn't in the small hallway waiting for me like she usually would, I closed the front door, took off my shoes and nervously entered her apartment. I found her standing next to the kitchen counter sipping a glass of wine. That must have been the reason my head had started to get a bit fuzzy, she had been drinking it couldn't be a lot because I would have felt much more but still, she was drinking. I crossed my arms and stared judgingly at her.

''Yoongi,'' She softly said, ''Please don't be angry, listen to me first, okay.''

I nodded I wasn't even really angry, to begin with, well that wasn't completely true I was angry because she hadn't told me anything and decided it had been a good idea to just show up unannounced at BigHit, as an intern. She could have at least told me, why didn't she tell me?

She started explaining everything, how she found a job vacancy and hadn't been planning to apply because it was a full-time junior job, besides she just had to look op her jobs for an assignment given by the university. She had just wanted to use it for her assignment but hen she told her friends about the vacancy they had kind of pressured her in applying, shrugging she said that she had never expected to get accepted anyway. Why would they ever hire an inexperienced student without a degree? So, she applied. Her friend was right it described her dream job and at least she would get the closure of getting rejected, but they didn't reject her.

''You got accepted?'' I asked raising an eyebrow I couldn't believe she got accepted. BigHit rarely accepts interns if the head editor hired her because of the application she sent in she must have sent in something amazing to get noticed. No, she must have sent in some out of this world because she didn't just get noticed she got in.

''I did,'' She nodded in response, ''But as an intern not as an employee.''

''Why didn't you tell me?'' This was what kept bothered me, though I didn't like her working at BigHit I did understand her way of thinking, it was her dream job. Why would she not apply, but I wouldn't have stopped her from finding her dream job, would I? It wasn't a good idea to have her at BigHit it would complicated things so much. I've seen how they deal with people who find their soulmates, employees usually get to keep their job, but they aren't allowed on tour and trainees who find their soulmates are kicked out immediately. It wasn' going to be pretty when the company would find out, they would, without doubt, fire her on the spot and who knows what would happen to my career? It was already in danger without her working at BigHit, it wasn't going to be in my favor either. Why hadn't she realized this was going to affect me too? We could have discussed it, maybe I could have helped her.

''I- just-,'' She had trouble finding the right words and sighed deeply, 'I was afraid.''

''Of what?'' Did I give an empathetically expression had she been afraid of me? Why?

''Your reaction,'' She replied honestly, ''There were only two options you would either love or hate the idea and if you loved the idea I thought you might try to influence BigHit into hiring me. You know putting in a good word for me and I didn't want that I wanted to get in on my strength, I wanted to get accepted for who I was. Or you would hate it, get angry with me and maybe even made sure I wouldn't be hired.''

I stared at her confused, how could she even think that I would jeopardize her career. I would never, even if I might not agree with her decision I would never go behind her back and sabotage her career. ''I would never-'' But she cut me off.

''I know, I know, but the idea had crossed my mind and there was no way to be 100% sure unless...''

''You didn't tell me,'' This time I interrupted her sighing.

''Exactly,'' She nodded, ''This is a dream coming true and when they gave me the opportunity I just couldn't reject it.''

She was right I had told her before that I was afraid of BigHit's reaction of finding out about us being soulmates, from that she must have gotten the idea I wouldn't like her working there either and she was right, Still I would never sabotage her career. However, if she was aware of the risks why had she applied? Even with the pressure of her friends he could have said no? The job must have meant so much to her she was even prepared to risk our relationship to get the job, or was it that she didn't care as much about me as her job and she didn't care what would happen? She had said before she never wanted to have a soulmate in the first place.

''Couldn't you at least have given me a heads up?'' I asked, ''You can imagine how surprised I was when suddenly your heartbeat popped up while I was working I searched the whole building for you.''

''I wanted to,'' She looked at the ground, ''But you were away, there was no time and I didn't want to tell this over the phone.''

''You do realize how dangerous this is right?'' I looked at her with a serious expression I wasn't going to make her quit if this meant so much to her if this was her dream job, I wasn't going to be the one to take that from her. However, she needs to be aware of all the risks that go with it, ''If they find out you will lose your job I might even lose mine, this doesn't just affect you.''

''I know but they won't fire you it's not your fault,'' She gives me a hopeful expression, ''You didn't choose to soulmate bond with me neither did you have anything to do with me getting that job.''

''They don't know that,'' I replied and shrugged, she has no idea what goes on behind the scenes, ''for all they know I talked you into applying for the job.''

''But you didn't,''

''I'm aware....'' I gave her a serious expression she needed to know this wasn't an ideal situation and that there could be serious consequences.

''I know that this might not be an ideal situation, but it's my dream job!'' She pleaded desperately, ''It's everything I ever wanted. I know it's unfortunate that it's at BigHit but if it was any other company I would have applied too. It didn't do it because of you I did it because of the job, my dream job. Please, don't make me quit.''

''That was never my intention,'' I sighed, ''But honestly, I don't think it's a good idea for us to both works at BigHit, it's just too much of a risk. I explained it to you before the Idol business is not very accepting of relationships or soulmates, I have no idea how they will react when they found out.''

''They won't' find out.''

''You can never be sure of that,'' I replied strictly, ''They might find out outside of work, or maybe even deduct it because we're both absent at the same time. Sometimes they seem like detectives the managers know everything about us, it's already hard to hide everting as it is.''

''We'll find a way,'' She said determined, her eyes sparkling hopefully.

I knew the job meant a lot to her, her expression saying more than a thousand words ever could, I sighed again. There was no way I was going to take away this job from her, I can tell it means a lot to her, but she said herself that it wasn't an ideal situation. I thought for a moment maybe there would be a better solution. Then it hit me, she said herself she would have applied to the vacancy if it was at any other company! It might have to do some calls but if I could come in contact with the right people I might be able to get her a job at another company. Maybe even a full-time job not just an internship. Yeah, that's it! That would solve everything!

''Maybe I could pull a few strings and ask around to get you transferred to another company or building,'' I said to her smiling brightly, feeling proud and happy of my idea,'' In that way, you get to keep your job and our careers wouldn't interfere with each other.''

''What?'' She asked confused.

''It would solve everything, right?'' I grabbed her hand still smiling, this was perfect she would still have her dream job and my career wouldn't be in danger, ''You said yourself that is was unfortunate the application was at BigHit if you transfer to another building it wouldn't interfere.''

''No.''

''No?'' I asked confused. My smile fell from my face and I let my arms fall down my sides, wasn't this what she wanted too? Her dream job and me? ''What do you mean, no? Don't you think it's a good idea? We can't possibly work at the same company it's just too dangerous.''

"Why not? Why?" She said desperately and her eyes slowly started to water, "It's my dream, it's always been my dream! Why am I not allowed to follow my dreams?"

"Of course you can follow your dreams," I extended my hand and stroke her cheek, it wasn't my intention to hurt her, what had I said wrong? Wasn't it a good idea? "But working together at the same company, I just-"

I wanted to tell her I just wanted to help realize her dreams but she cut me off before I could even finish my sentence.

"This is why I didn't tell you," She yelled in anger and slapped my hand away, "I knew this would happen, I knew something like this would happen the moment I first lay eyes on you."

"What?" I looked at her stunned, "What do you mean?"

"I got the job without your help," She yelled angrily, "If I would never have met you it wouldn't have been a problem!"

"Y/n," It felt like my heart broke into pieces, all I had been trying to do was help her why was she getting angry I just didn't understand. What had I done wrong? I tried taking a step towards her I wanted to explain that she could keep her job, of course, she could I would have never forced her to quit, that had never been my intention. I just wanted to help why didn't she see it that way, what had I said wrong?

"No.." Still shaking her head she took another step backward, "If I would never have met you I would be happy right now."

My heart that had already felt broken shattered, I couldn't look her in the face anymore as my eyes started to get watery. It seemed like my breathing stopped and I was going to pass out right then and there. I never even meant to hurt her, but somehow I had. I didn't know what it was I did, but for her to say those words I must have said something horrible, or was I just a horrible person? Why did it seem I could never do anything right. I had let her down, just like I had done to everyone else. At that moment I wanted to do nothing else than run, run far away. To a safe and quiet place like I always did when these dark thoughts would come into my mind. The same dizzyness and nausea washed over me together with all the dark thoughts creeping into my mind. I never seemed to do anything right, I had gotten her so mad she yelled at me, I had hurt her, again. I had promised myself after turning her down to never hurt her again, but I had managed to do it again. I'm such a useless person..... That's why all my friends left me and she is going to leave me too. Slowly I felt how a tear slipped from my eyes and trailed over my cheek, quickly I wiped it away afraid Y/N would notice. I looked up and saw that Y/N was sitting on the couch with legs pulled up to her chest, hugging her knees and her head down. Even from the kitchen, I could hear her sobs, her fast breathing and feel her fast but strong heart beating inside my chest. Her heartbeat made me feel strong too, maybe it even was the reason I was still here not somewhere else alone with my thoughts. I concentrated on her heartbeat instead of my dark thoughts and I stumbled towards here. It hurt me too to see her hurt and I wanted to do nothing else than to comfort her, but I was sure I was going to do something wrong again. However, my desire to be there for her was stronger than my anxiety and I was able to push the thoughts away which made my head a little bit more clear to think. This time I wasn't going to run, no not this time. I was afraid running away would mean losing her forever. Even though we weren't even together for that long I couldn't bear the thought. So this time I wasn't going to be a coward that was going to run away to a safe place I wasn't, I shouldn't, I couldn't. I wanted to fight for her! Slowly I stumbled toward the couch and silently sat down at the far edge of the couch and looked at her for a moment. I thought of the last time my anxiety kicked in she had been the one to help me through it, she had somehow said the exact words that I had needed to hear.

''I am one of those fans I believe in you and I'm proud to say that... That...I love you.''

I wished I could find the courage to tell her those words now, to comfort her too, but I had no idea how to handle this situation. It was my fault she was like this in the first place and I still had no idea why. Loss of thoughts I put my head in my hand and couldn't help the stifled sob that escaped from my throat. I only had wanted to help her get her the dream job she wanted but ended up hurting her. Suddenly her voice resonated in my mind words she had said to me before she had gotten angry:

''There were only two options you would either love or hate the idea and if you loved the idea I thought you might try to influence BigHit into hiring me. You know putting in a good word for me and I didn't want that I wanted to get in on my strength wanted to get accepted for who I was. Or you would hate it, get angry with me and maybe even made sure I wouldn't be hired.''

I realized I had done the exact two things she had been afraid of. Not only had I told her I didn't like her working at BigHit I had also told her I could get her another job one she didn't earn on her own. A job she could get because I influenced some people exactly the two things she was afraid of. I had been an idiot, saying absolutely the wrong things. Suddenly I felt an arm sliding over my should and embracing me. Surprised I looked up, straight into her watery sad eyes, without saying anything she pulled me into a warm hug. Wasn't she mad? Why was she hugging me all of a sudden? I didn't dare to say anything and just savored the warmth and comfort, and let it wash over me to help me relax and help me think more clearly. It was scary how much effect she had on me, with one-touch she could push away all the evil thoughts in my head. I wanted to keep her close and wrapped my arms around her securely and pulled her in a little closer hiding my face in her hair.

''I'm sorry,'' She whispered in my ear, ''I- I shouldn't have yelled at you.''

She was apologizing, even though she had every right to be mad at me. I should be the one apologizing to her not the other way around.

''It's okay,'' I softly spoke to her trying to hide the sobs that were still caught in my throat, ''I'm sorry too. I know the internship means a lot to you. I shouldn't have asked you to change jobs because I wanted you too.''

''Yoongi...'' She softly pushed me back and wiped away the tears on my cheek with her sleeve, ''I didn't mean those words, I shouldn't have said them I was just angry I-''

I didn't know what came over me it must have been the soulmate bond the strong connection I felt with her heartbeat in my chest. The desire to comfort her to tell her everything was fine that she couldn't be mad at me anymore, I only wanted the best for her. Without thinking I bend forward and kissed softly on her lips.

''It's okay, '' I softly said I needed her to know it was okay, ''I know how much a job can mean and how you would do anything to get there. If this internship is so important to you I won't hold you back. It is okay.''

''Yoongi..''

She was right she had every right to work at BigHit it was amazing that she was able to get that internship and as much as I thought it was dangerous for her to work at BigHit I was also really proud. If the head editor offered her the internship she deserved it and I would support her in every way I could to get her the dream job she wanted. If that meant compromising and working together so be it, however, there are boundaries she should know. It wasn't just her career she was putting at risk.

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The majority of people wanted to read the Yoongi POV so here it is! It became kind off a long chapter because I put the last two chapters together into one. Since the conversation is the same I basically just copy and pasted it and only replaced the parts in between to Yoongi's thoughts. So only Yoongi's thoughts are new and therefore I decided to not split it and just keep it as one long chapter.

Also, I forgot to mention this in the last chapter but I really loved how everyone was not just taking Y/n side. A lot of people were also taking Yoongi side, it made the argument between them feel more realistic I think.

Ps: EGO is out!!!!! It's again something completely different it reminds me of Hope world I'm getting more and more excited for the album!!

PPS: A few chapters back I kind of gave a rant of not liking black swan but since the live performance came out and I found the violin version of the song (I love violin) I've been slowly falling in love with the song. It has been growing on me and I think I have to take back my earlier rant, haha.

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