I sometimes think how you are not the first

How I've written poems for other boys

Other girls before

You weren't my first date

I think about how you've kissed people before

Touched someone else

But there is always the firsts we do have

You're my first kiss

My first real relationship

You're the first person I've felt comfortable enough being myself around

Dancing randomly

Being weird

The first person I will

Send my bad poetry to when it's about them

You make me laugh a lot

You're the first person I really always found funny

You're not the first person I've liked

But you will always be the first person I loved

You said I love you first

I wonder if it was the first time you've said that

Maybe it doesn't matter what came before

That everything isn't a first

But that this is the first time for you and me

You're the only first that matters to me

I liked the first time we met

When I could smell your cologne

Maybe it was simple but I thought it meant you cared

Cared where this went

I liked when I first learned how funny you are

How cute you acted

I liked the first time you smiled

And the first time I heard your laugh

Did you know it was almost not our first

Because I was tired of having firsts

Did you know you were almost another first I ran away from

I was tired of meeting people

Where firsts turned into lasts

You were supposed to be my last first

And then you were

But not in the way I thought

I liked when you said you wanted our first date to turn into a second

I wasn't sure if you'd decided you liked me too

I was worried you didn't

And I liked the first time you were looking at me in bath and body works and held out a candle for me

I'm not sure why but I liked it

And I liked how you listened when I told you no one would go to Hot Topic with me

You were the first person who would

And then

I liked the first time I gave you a hug in your car

I liked the first time you said I love you

And when you ran away before I could process it

I liked how when I drove home

I wanted to drive back and ask what you said

I liked how you were the first person to give me a free duck you won at school

I have always liked each day when I say I love you the first time and you say it back

And I liked how you were the first person to give me pieces of a broken clip in a restaurant

I liked the first time you kissed me

I liked how you were the first person to play animal crossing with me

I like how you were the first person to tell me certain things I didn't know

And I liked all the other firsts we shared

I hope all the firsts have many many sequels

Madeleine