There are moments where I feel fine

These moments are when I feel happy

Moments where my mind goes almost numb

I remember the only person I can control is me

The only person who can "save me" is me

No one owns me

I should not let other's opinions of what I should do or be

Affect my life

Being with someone may make us we

But I can still be I

I can still be alone

Even if other people are not alone

It should not matter that I do not want to see people all the time

That I like the quiet

The quietness of my room

The sound of my birds

I do not need more friends

I am happy having the ones I can say anything to

Things I hide from everyone else

I feel happy writing about being sad

I feel happy writing my melancholy songs inside my heart

I feel happy dancing alone in my room

I feel happy drawing what my brain looks like

I feel happy thinking of the moments I felt my worst

Of letting them go in this way

It is overwhelmingly warm to express

Everything overwhelming

I love these moments

These moments to relish in pain

In my brain's screaming written on paper

In my thoughts drawn

In my thoughts sung

Making something out of feeling nothing

No matter the quality of it

It brings me moments of clarity

Madeleine