★彡　May contain hard topics and incorrect info.. and definitely spelling errors. ★彡

Katsuki sighed as he sat on the top of the building.. it was a common hang out area for the Bakusquad when they were together.. but when he was alone it was just his thinking area. The one place his head doesn't feel like it is in the clouds is when it's actually in the clouds.

His squad hasn't been coming up here recently or actually hanging with him at all... so he just sat there and listened to the wind and he thought about everything and anything, to get his mind away from what he hated the most... fear, insecurity, regret and all the other dreadful things that haunt him even when he is not sleeping.

So to keep him from becoming insane he sits there and tries to be the best he can be. Trying to come up with solutions to problems that aren't his.. ones to make him feel better about the world around him... even if it feels so grey and bland.

Katsuki has thought about ending his own life multiple times.. yet he would never.. not because he was scared or worried for his friends.. he didn't want his Father to be alone as he buried his only son. Nobody else would show.. Katsuki knew that but he wasn't worried for anyone else besides his father. Katsuki was his only support.. so Katsuki will stay alive as long as his body allows it. Just to make sure Masaru is still smiling. Just because Mitsuki left because of Katsuki doesn't mean Masaru should suffer.

Katsuki's eyes were closed, yet he stood up slowly as he did every day... trusting the same routine he had done for weeks on end. He was getting ready to leave but as he stood he could soft footsteps heading towards him, the wind only making it slightly harder to hear. Katsuki continued to stand, his hair blowing in the wind freely as he tried to think on who could that be.

"Kachaan." Said a soft voice.

Katsuki didn't reply.

"Kachaan look at me."

Katsuki still didn't reply.

"Kachaan listen to me! Got damn you!" Izuku said furiously as he harshly grabbed Katsuki's shoulder, turning him around abruptly.

Katsukis eyes never opened, nor did his mouth.

Katsuki could feel the anger that radiated from the green haired boy.. with such hostility that even Katsuki believed he couldn't match such anger and hatred.

"Who gives you the right to be so happy?! I take your friends, we outcast you, ignore you.. and what? You sit there happily and you think highly of yourself?"

Katsuki never felt highly of himself. Not once. Just lies that he couldn't help but spill.

"I try so hard to make you miserable. Yet you are so privileged and selfish that you don't ever notice."

Katsuki was neither.. just empty.

"You drive me insane! So much so I wanted to end it. But I can't until you suffer!"

Katsuki was suffering.. Katsuki drives himself insane. Though he didn't blame Izuku.

"So.." Izuku said as he stepped forward. "How about we just go together? Like old times?" And before Katsuki knew it, Izuku lunged forward and they both fell from the building. Izuku restricted Katsuki's arms so he couldn't save himself.

After struggling for a few seconds.. the ground closer and closer

Katsuki wasn't worried that he falling to his death.. he wasn't worried that Izuku was falling to his death.. he wasn't worried that he would be blamed for the situation... he was worried for his father who would blame himself.. when in truth Masaru was the only thing keeping him alive.

Now.. who is gonna make sure Masaru as well while Katsuki wasn't home.. Katsuki is gone with his name tainted and heart shattered.

"Good luck old man." Katsuki whispered softly, a single tear falling from his eye as his body hit the ground crunch, Izuku mangled in the torn skin and muscle as wildly broken and shattered bones missed into the bloody mess.

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"Good luck."