★彡　May contain hard topics and incorrect info.. and definitely spelling errors. ★彡

"Why do you hate Deku so much?"

. . .

"I once told him I wanted to kill myself. We were talking about our futures and how we always wanted to stay together when we got older... to live together and always have fun... we were once close. Though it's now a memory," Katsuki began his sob story, as if he was a war hero telling his tragic tale.

Katsuki sighed softly as he looked at his curious classmates and continued, "In the middle of our conversation he asked me a couple of questions that I could not answer at the time.. yet even if you asked me right now I still would not know. I told him that I didn't think I'd have a future. I didn't plan on living very long. I planned on ending it. During this I still lived with my mother. Not Aunty Inko,"

Katsuki paused and took a sip of his warm drink. The liquid warms his blue lips and ice cold heart.

Katsuki set down the beverage and continued his pathetic explanation, "After I told him that things didn't really stay the same. He seemed uncomfortable.. which was understandable. Nobody wants to be told that your best friend wants to be dead. I ended up apologizing for making him uncomfortable... I apologized and told him it was uncalled for me tk stay anything in the first place.. though after I did make him promise.. that no matter what he wouldn't tell my mom. That we could do whatever and talk about whatever. That I would even force myself to stay alive for him.. as long as he didn't tell my mom," Katsuki paused for a moment. He needed to catch his breath.. he was getting worked up for... well for nothing.

"Regardless of his pathetic promise he ended up telling her anyway. He broke our pinky swear. He took my heart and crumbled it. He told me as we were walking home from school that he happened to tell my mom.. and that she was worried for me. That she just wanted to talk. He claimed during that time that he was doing the right thing.. he was just saying that to make himself feel better about himself."

"He was just concerned though." Ochako said softly and she tried to grab Katsuki's hand in comfort only for him to pull away.

Katsuki shook his head, "No he wasn't. He was freaked out by me. He claimed I needed help. That I was crazy. Though.. that doesn't matter. He broke our pinky swear. He knew how harsh my mother could get. He noticed that she didn't believe in healing. All she knew was destruction."

"That crazy part was very rude..." Tenya mumbled disappointedly.

Shoto nodded, "Agreed."

Katsuki rolled his eyes and continued on, "I tried to run, I tried to escape. I didn't even yell at him. I just ran. He of course told my mother about this as well. She ended up finding me with his help. Thanking him so dearly she shoved me into the car.. for our sweet mother and son talk. We headed separate ways, both going back home. Except he would be in the arms of safety as I was being dragged into hell."

"A little dramatic." Mineta mumbled.

Katsuki ignored the comment, "Once she shoved me into the house.. I knew I was fucked. She screamed and yelled at me for what seemed like hours on end. Talking about how ungrateful and selfish I was. Talking about how happy I should be for the food and water she gives me. The house she provides. After her harsh words.. She beat me. She beat me for longer than she yelled. She beat me a half an inch away from my life ending. She looked at me and smiled.. She admired the work she did to me. I'll never forget what she said that night.. never."

Mineta scoffed, "I don't believe that."

"Shut up!" Kirishima growled as he and the Bakusquad dealt with the annoying grape.

"What did she say?" Shoto asked, for he was worried. Scared almost.

Katsuki smiled and looked Izuku right in the eyes, "I was laying on my stomach.. blood and bruises covered me. She had one foot on my aching and bruised back while one of her hands harshly gripped my hair so I could make eye contact with her.. even if my eyesight was blurry. She smiled so sweetly and said, 'If you really wanted to die.. you would be begging for me to finish the job.. not crying and begging for me to stop.' After that I don't remember much. My ears were ringing and my eyes felt heavy. Now I'm blind in my left eye and had to get hearing aids earlier than expected. Yet I never said I hated him. Maybe it's just my mothers genes that cause me to be so harsh and rude."

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Stunned faces all around. Izuku's filled with guilt.. as if he hadn't heard the story in court.. about a year ago when his mother was finally arrested for child abuse.

Shocked he was when he realized the kind aunty he once knew was a ruthless child beater.

After that Inko adopted him.

He was forced to stay next to someone who couldn't fucking keep a pinky swear.

Katsuki doesn't blame him though.. no matter how angry he is.. he just can't blame him. Katsuki personally wouldn't ever break a pinky swear.. or tell on a begging friend in need.. but not everyone is like Katsuki.

Maybe.. just maybe Deku was really worried? Maybe Izuku calling Katsuki crazy was just a reaction Izuku didn't mean to say.

Or maybe Izuku was scared.

Either scared of losing him...

Or scared of what he called a lunatic right in front of him.

Katsuki wasn't sure... nor did he want to know. He would just sit there and wonder.. wonder if Izuku ever thought to himself.. 'Was it worth it?'