"You exited for Glastonbury?" I asked van while he was sitting in the lounge room with me lighting a fag

"More then that man, it's sensational" he whispered smiling

My depression was getting worse, i tried not to show that to him but i had a feeling he already knew and tried his best to help me even more

"Good, good" I whispered with a weak smile on my lips i called with becky as much as i could.

She said she missed me, it's only been a week since i left.

"You look gorgeous" van said studying me

I laughed softly looking at him "why?" I asked

"You always look gorgeous like you could wake up in the middle of the night and look at me and you still are, can't help it" he said smiling

I blinked my eyes and sat on his lap

"Well, your always fit" I whispered kissing his lips but broke away "only fit like?" He said in a high pitched voice "you know how much you mean to me mccann" I chuckled softly kissing his neck he licked his lips

"Your just so good to me"

Van flipped us over so that he was hovering me on the leather couch i studied his face before he took my top off and started kissing my body

"What if one of the lads come in" I whispered closing my eyes "they won't" he whispered turning on the tv so that they couldn't hear us

Smart.

- van's pov

"She seems off" Larry said looking at Lexi

"She is mate" I sighed lighting another fag grabbing my water bottle

"What can we do?" Larry said looking her

"I just try to keep her mind off things you know" i said opening my water bottle

Larry turned his head at me "having a shag is not-" he started "Larry lad, you know me i didn't mean that" I said

He nodded "I just don't want her to go home cause last time she was home she nearly- you know." I sighed looking at her

"Yeah mate we all don't want to lose her, she is just on top lass" Larry said finishing his fag

"I know, Larry" I said standing up

I walked towards where she was sitting and hopped next to her "when are you on?" She asked brushing a hand trough my hair

"An hour" I said licking my lips

She nodded "you know who i wanna see, two door cinema club man, they're amazing" she said smiling trowing her head back.

I could manage to make that possible could I?

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"When are they on?" I asked Dan standing next to him "in five minutes" he said grabbing a piece of paper "thanks lid" I said walking over to Lexi "you coming?" I asked her

Larry smiled at her "to where?" She asked intertwining her hand with mine "just walk around and that" I said smiling

She had no idea...

"Yeah, fine" she whispered

We started walking and arrived at the main stage "what are we doing here? Aren't we suppose to be back at the bus in a few?" She asked me i made my way trough the crowd and found the security guard Dan was talking about

"Ello mate" I said handing him a piece of paper Dan gave me "loved your set this evening" the man said walking to the side stage

"Van what are we doing?" She asked me confused "thank you very much it's been a pleasure" I said with a nod smiling

"You go down the left, then right and yous see a man with a ginger beard and your there, have a good one" he said shaking my hand

"Thank you mate" I said making my way trough the black curtain "van?" Lexi said

"Yes love?" I asked smiling being nearly side stage "what are we doing?" She asked

"You'll see, Suga" I whispered seeing the man with the ginger beard "van mccann?" He asked

"Yeah mate" I said shaking his hand smiling

"Enjoy your night" he said with a smile

"Hello Glastonbury!" The lead singer said

"Shut the front door, oh my god van" Lexi said with wide eyes

"I can't believe you done this" she whispered smiling leaning in "no worries,honey" i said grinning kissing her

- Lexi's pov

"I'm off" I said after drinking and having a good time with all the lads on the bus

"Goodnight lex!" Larry yelled smiling

"Goodnight" I said to everyone

"I'll come in a bit" van whispered with a tired smile across his lips

"Yeah alright" I whispered walking towards the bunks

I grabbed van's sweater and put it on

I pulled off my trousers and lay in one of the bunks.

I looked at the ground waiting for van

"Oi Oi" he whispered getting in my bunk laying next to me

I smelled the toothpaste and his aftershave filling the bunk "hi" I whispered tiredly smiling at him "you sleepy?" He asked i nodded kissing his lips softly "thank you for tonight" I whispered after the kiss "don't thank me honestly" he whispered putting his arm around my waist i nodded "you coming to the lounge room or ya' crushing 'ere daring?" He asked me still with that typical 'van' smile on his face

I moaned "I'm too lazy to walk there" I whispered looking at him putting my hand on his cheek playing with the hairs of his eyebrow

"I'll carry you"

Before he could talk even more i fell asleep

That's how tired i was...

- 4am

I was awake the whole night after van left.

I thought about that night i nearly jumped off the building and how i was depressed.

I started crying softy.

I couldn't take it any longer.

I slowly made my way out of the bunk and walked towards the lounge room with tears running down my cheek.

I cracked the door open and saw van laying on the sleeping couch, asleep.

I lay next to him feeling him move around

"Love, are you crying?" He whispered wrapping his arms around me

I crawled into his chest and nodded softly

I couldn't help it, i felt more then weak

"I can't do this anymore, van"

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