It's been a couple of months since me and van last saw each other at my flat.

And it's been boring and weird since he wasn't in my life anymore.

"You sure you don't wanna go out tonight?" Steve asked i nodded "yeah mate, I'm just a little bit sick and that" i lied with a small crooked smile he nodded "yeah you work lots now more then after, you should take a break" he said grabbing some paper work that was laying around his desk

I looked at my hands playing with my bracelet "nah it's okay" i lied again looking up at him

He stopped doing what he was doing and nodded "alright if you says so- I'm heading home now goodnight, love" he said grabbing his bag "goodnight, Steve" I said as he walked into the lift.

I sighed looking at some photos i took at some gigs from last night

"These are class."

I turned around with wide eyes "Christ man, becky you scared me you know" I sighed turning my head to look at my laptop again "what ya' doing tonight then?" She asked sitting down spinning around

I closed my laptop and sat back in the chair

"Nothing."

"Why, everyone misses you"

"Cause i have lots of work and i don't feel like getting hammered every single night." I huffed

"Right, so what is it really?" She asked

She knew me too good.

"I want to start again" I said standing up

"What you mean?"

"I want a new start, i want to move, meet new people, say goodbye to the people here." I said putting my coat on looking at her

She knitted her black thick eyebrows together and opened her mouth to talk

"To me?"

I nodded slowly grabbing my bag and laptop

"To you also." I said walking to the lift

She stood up and followed me

"We're fuckin' best mates since kindergarten, mate we are Lexi and becky, can't leave me here" she said with a confused expression

"Where are you when i really need you then mate? No where to be seen- all you do these days is going out getting pissed and fuck random guys at a bar becky, i don't really know you anymore" i said she walked closer to me

"I fucking helped you with your drug addiction and booze addiction and now you start all over again, you know what's that like for me becky? You even realise that ? I went trough fire for ya' and-" I started

"Alright alright-"

"Nah mate, I'm not finished, i worked till ten in the evening and after that i went to your home and picked you up and dried your fuckin' tears becky! And after that you didn't show up for months at mine, and now when you are a fuckin' addict and a alcoholic-" I started but cut myself off by sighing "I'm moving becky, There's nothing you can do 'bout it" I said

I turned around "what about van huh? What about Steve?" She yelled stopping me

I turned my head to look at her and chuckled

"We weren't together." I said walking into the lift.

"So...your just leaving?" Steve asked

I sighed looking at the ground

"Well it's just not leaving isn't it? I have been talking 'bout this for a while now" i said

He nodded "well you gotta do what you gotta do innit? I'll miss you like hell but i understand you, can't be mad at ya' love" he whispered hugging me i smiled snd kissed his cheek

"I'll miss you too"

"So? We gonna do a big party at your or what?" He laughed i shook my head "I would love to just have a drink with only you, you know? I don't like those big party's and that, just me you and-" I started but cut myself off

I thought of Becky at that moment

"Just me and you" i chuckled standing up

"Right now?" He asked "well I'm leaving tomorrow aren't i?" I said he nodded standing up

We walked to my favorite pub that night talking about everything "and van?" He asked "Christ mate we haven't talked 'bout him in like what?" I said pulling my coat tighter around my body "I'm sorry i just- don't know you don't miss him?" He asked me as we walked in the pub "I don't know to be honest Steve, on the one hand I can't stop thinking about him and on the other i don't even want to think about him mate, I'm slowly gettin' over him"

- van's pov

"What's next?" Bob asked Dan

"Glasgow." He said standing up

"Man i love Glasgow, it's always dead sweet over there innit?" I said with a big grin on my face they nodded

Bob's phone rang as he grabbed it out of his pocket "yes, love?" He said

"Becky." Bondy said smirking

I swallowed as i heard her name.

It made me think of Lexi.

"Leaving? Why?" Bob said with a confused look on his face

"You can't stop her then?"

"Right."

I stood up grabbing a water bottle

"Nah i won't be there till next week, honey" he sighed

I opened the bottle "who's leaving?" I asked Dan who was sitting next to him

"Can't hear" he said knitting his eyebrows together "she wants to speak with ya" Bob said handing me his phone

I grabbed the phone and coughed "yes, hello?" I said sitting down "Lexi's is leaving." She signed "to where?" I asked with a confused expression on my face "I-I don't know, could be a different country I'm so scared I'll never see her again" she sobbed "listen lass, this may seems hard or anything but me and Lexi aren't together if it was on me i would fly over now and make her stay in Leeds but she won't let me and we haven't talked in months" i whispered looking outside

"Yeah, i- uh i understand" she whispered

I stood up and lighted a cigarette "can't you make her stay?" I asked "I'm afraid not, she doesn't want to see me or Steve or anyone" she whispered

Steve?

"The guy who fancied her?" I said walking outside "yeah that one." She whispered

I sighed "I'm so sorry love"

"Glasgow Oi Oi!" Mike chuckled as we entered the city "I'm so buzzed mate" I said rubbing my hands together with a grin on my face "who's not?" Bondy said smiling

"How later are we on?" I asked looking at Dan who was stepping of the tour bus

"Seven, van" he said grabbing his bag

"Right so in five hours"

-

"Mate I'm running out of ciggy's" I sighed

"How much do we need?" Bondy asked

I pointed at bondy, mike and Larry.

"Three packs mate" I said standing up

"You buying some then?" Mike asked

"Yeah man, I'll see yous in a bit" I said hopping out of the bus "alright lid" Larry said

I made my way to the city walking around for a bit before buying some fags

When i entered a street full pubs restaurants record shops and what not i saw a small 24/7 shop across the streets and walked into it

"Hello mate can i have two pack of lambert and butler, one pack of Marlboro" I said with a nod

"Sure mate, your not from here are ya?" He asked scanning the packs "no I'm from ... But i moved with my mate to Chester a time ago and that" I said with a small smile

"Ah I can tell" he chuckled looking at me

"How much is that?" I asked "15 pounds and 30 pence please mate" he said i grabbed the money and handed it to him "enjoy ya' day bye mate" I said walking out of the shop

When I walked out of the small shop i saw a girl with half long black hair coming out of her flat

Lexi.

No it couldn't be Lexi she was out of the country right?

When the girl faced me my heart sped up

It definitely was her.

I lighted a fag and studied her

She haven't changed much only got a bit longer hair she closed the door and walked down the street.

Nah, I didn't gonna let that happen again.

"Lexi!" I called crossing the street

She didn't turn around and kept walking like she didn't recognize me

- Lexi's pov

Of course i knew who it was it was van.

How could i not recognize him?

"Don't walk faster, I gotta talk to ya!" He said

I turned around "you should've when i called you a couple months ago, van" i said

He opened his mouth to talk but shook his head dropping his cigarette on the ground

"I couldn't answer-" he started "yeah i figured" i said shaking my head turning around

"It wasn't like that you know, i loved you, still do but you broke my heart Lexi" he said

I knitted my eyebrows together and turned around "oh right cause you weren't busy shagging ya' ex right?" I said

"What are you talking-"

"Van you know what I'm talking about I've been pictures!" I yelled

He shook his head "it wasn't like that Lexi come on, we were just catching up nothing more" he said walking closer

"Why are you here anyways?" I asked

"Cause i have a gig here, I honestly didn't know you were here" he said

He didn't know? Of course he didn't Lexi.

"Oh i uh- but you wanted to say?" I asked

"I want you back."

I shook my head

"We can't just- we can't go back together van"

"You know i love you and i know you love me and we both know that it was the wrong time but right love" he said walking even closer

"I can't fuck up my life again van! That's why i am here in Glasgow to start again a new start" I said his eyes suddenly changed

"Well then" he said offering his hand

I knitted my eyebrows together

"My name is van, nice meeting ya" he said

I looked at the ground "this is ridicu-" I paused and looked up at him taking his hand

"Nice meeting you van, my name is Lexi" i said with a small grin on my face

I suddenly forgot about it all

Maybe this was a new start?

"You have a gig in a few hours?" I asked

He nodded opening a door of a pub

"In less then three hours" he grinned

"Can tell your exited" I chuckled

"I actually am" he smiled

I sighed when i heard my phone ring

It was becky again

"Shouldn't you be picking that up?"

I shook my head placing the phone on the table

"It's becky, we don't talk anymore." I whispered

He nodded "you should though, cause even though she isn't by your side anymore and isn't next door yous were mates since kindergarten and I know your two relationship isn't like mine and Larry's but i can't imagine living without that lad you know what i mean? Just because we've been through so much and that, i think you should call her and say that your alright, she's just worried 'bout you even though she didn't show it when you left and that but you should call back" he said

I sighed and nodded

He was right

I picked up my phone and called her

"Christ mate where are- you alright?" She asked with a sigh i looked at van then at my hands "I am now" I whispered "that's all i wanted to hear really, so you got yourself a nice apartment or house and that?" She asked

"Well I already bought this new flat it's amazing really i- uh I'm coming back to Leeds to pick up some stuff i left in my apartment so erm- I'll maybe see you there?" I shyly asked

"Christ I'm already missing ya mate can't wait to see your face" she chuckled

"Alright I'll see you then"

Van looked at me

I placed my phone on the table again

"Doesn't it feel better now?" He asked

I nodded "yes it does, thank you" I whispered

He smiled at me

I missed that smile lots

-

"I'm going home now" I said grabbing my coat

He nodded standing up

"Pleasure to meet you, van" I joked

"Will i see you again?" He asked smiling

I had a small smile on my lips

I slowly nodded and looked up at him

"Perhaps" I whispered and paused

"when the time is right for us" i whispered

He nodded with a smile that said that everything was okay again.

It was though we talked about life and the future and everything seemed be okay.

I walked out of the pub and turned around to look him one last time in his eyes.

It was the best for both of us...

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