He looked.. incredible.

I don't think I had ever seen him so dressed up. His black jacket perfectly fitted with a light pink tie peeking out. I couldn't help but smile, knowing that he had definitely done it on purpose. And then my stomach dropped as Katie closely followed him into the venue.

Of course, if he was going to pick anyone, it was going to be Katie.

Katie lived down the street, and everyone knew how much she's been in love with Josh our entire life. So if he was going to pick anyone to try and make me jealous, why wouldn't he pick the one other girl that would be hanging all over him all night.

"Well, that's sweet." I heard from behind me, feeling Jake slide his hand into mine, pulling me closer. I turned around to see him motioning towards Josh and Katie, and for some reason.. it made me feel even worse.

"So.. I'm gonna go check on our room." He said softly, gently kissing my cheek. "Don't go too far. I'll be right back."

"Okay." I managed as he went over to the concierge desk. I watched him for a moment before seeing Josh make his way over to the bar, surprisingly alone.

I knew now would be my only chance for us to talk without anyone else interrupting.

I could feel my heart beating faster as I got closer. I had never gotten nervous around him before. What was happening now? I gently tapped his shoulder, moving in next to him. He turned to face me with wide eyes, his lips eventually curling into a smile.

"You brought Katie, huh?" I asked, before he could say anything. He was quiet for a moment, holding his stare on me.

"She asked me." He finally said, turning back to the bar. I nodded, not having expected that answer.

So.. maybe he wasn't trying to make me jealous?

"You look beautiful, Jaime." He said, keeping his eyes forward, now motioning towards the bartender. I loved when he called me beautiful.

"So do you." I whispered, leaning back against the bar, facing out towards the party again. I carefully watched Jake from across the room, not wanting to upset him either. But.. Josh and I were still friends. We were still allowed to talk.. right?

I could see Josh peeking back at me from out of the corner of my eye.

"Thank you." He finally said. My heart jumped as I felt his hand gently brush against mine. I quickly looked down at it, but didn't pull away, my eyes moving up to his tie.

"Pink?" I asked. He bit down on his lip, trying to contain his smile.

"Katie picked it." He said simply.

"I'm sure she did." I sighed, rolling my eyes. I heard him giggle to himself before feeling him slide a glass into my hand. Red wine.

"Did you two get a room for tonight?" I forced myself to ask, knowing that if I didn't, it was just going to drive me insane all night. His smile grew as he took a sip of his drink, keeping his eyes locked on me.

"Did you?" I looked over at Jake who was still standing at the counter. Josh nodded, looking away again. I heard him sigh.

"No.. we didn't." He finally said. "I didn't think we would need one."

I suddenly felt bad that we had.

I just.. wanted to talk to him. About everything. I knew right now wasn't the time, but.. I felt like things just hadn't been the same with us, or as good as they could be.. considering. But that didn't change the fact that I missed him.

"Josh, I just think that we-"

"Have fun tonight, Jaime." He finally said, grabbing his drink. "But.. not too much fun." He gave me a gentle smile before heading out back, where Katie was already waiting for him. My heart sunk as she eagerly reached out for his hand, pulling him in closer, leading them towards their seats.

Why was I so upset? This was what I wanted, right? I was happy with Jake. Josh and I, we tried it and.. it didn't work. So.. I should be.. fine that he was with someone else.. right? We were still.. best friends. And I was okay with that.

"Oh, good, you've already started." I heard, quickly snapping out of it as I felt Jake wrap his arm around me. "Here you go." I looked down to see him slipping a room key into my purse, now suddenly unsure about this whole thing.

"Jake, I.. I don't know-"

"Hey, it's okay. Don't worry about it. There's no pressure. If anything.. we can drink however much we want and not have to worry, okay?" I bit down on my lip, nodding.

"But.. I think the ceremony is going to start soon. So.. if we want a good spot, we should grab our seats now."

He seemed so excited, it was hard to really think about anything else when he looked at me like this. I nodded, intertwining our fingers as I followed him outside.

The ceremony space was beautiful. A snowy white runner leading all the way down to the alter, the chairs along the aisle covered in purple flowers in all shades and sizes. You couldn't help but be happy at a time like this. It truly was the perfect day.

As we made our way down, I could see two seats open next to Josh and Katie. Of course. He finally turned around to face us, waving us over. I hesitated for a moment, looking for any other possible seat that wouldn't make it so obvious that I would be avoiding him, but it was no use. I could feel Jake's grip on me get tighter once he noticed where we were going.

"Funny seeing you here." I muttered, sitting down in the seat closest to Josh. He smirked over at me, his cheeks burning red. I couldn't help but smile until Katie peeked out from behind him.

"Hi Jaime!" She said cheerfully. I forced a smile, giving her a subtle wave before turning back around to Jake.

"You okay?" He mouthed, reaching over for my hand. I nodded, smiling back up at him. Tonight was supposed to be special for us, so why couldn't I shake the feeling that it was going to be anything but?

Josh had every right to be with whoever he wanted, but I guess deep down.. despite the fact that I was with Jake now, I had always seen Josh as mine. I could never picture him with anyone else. Whereas, my entire life, I was forced to see Jake with what felt like everyone and anyone.

But Josh..

Josh was always mine.

"I'm just.. I'm gonna run to the bathroom quick, before everything gets started." I said, getting up and hastily making my way inside. I don't know how I was going to survive an entire night of this, having to see him with someone else. Was this how he felt? Seeing me with Jake?

Maybe it was just the wine, or having to see him at a wedding with anyone other than me after I had spent what felt like my entire life mentally planning our own wedding, but all I knew was that I had to get out of there.

Looking in the bathroom mirror, I barely recognized the girl staring back at me. Her face caked with makeup, and hair glued together with more hairspray than she's ever used in her life. I just wanted to wipe it all off and go home. It took everything in me just to keep from crying, knowing I'd never be able to fix it if I did.

Why was everything so complicated? Why couldn't I just be with Jake and be happy? I had had Josh and it felt.. wrong pushing it that far, so why was that what I wanted now? Was it only because he was with someone else? Would I have been fine if he showed up alone? Whatever I decided to do, I had to make up my mind before anything happened.

Finally, I pushed open the bathroom door to see Josh standing there, waiting for me.