I had never gone into shock before, but I could only imagine this is what it felt like.

I felt frozen in place, unable to breathe, terrified I was just hallucinating and that any sudden movements would drag me right back down to Earth. I had dreamt about seeing these two lines my whole life, just like any other girl, but now that they were finally in front of me.. now that it was finally happening..

My mind was racing a mile a minute and all I could really think about was the fact that I hadn't even told my dad that I was engaged. We hadn't spoken since I left. How in the hell was I ever going to tell him I was pregnant?

I was pregnant.

I hadn't even said it out loud, but just the thought of it.. I couldn't believe it was real.

If it even was real. False positives happened all the time and I didn't want to get my hopes up until I knew for sure. I don't think I could take another disappointment, not to this magnitude. Part of me was also a little dissatisfied with the fact that I was finding out alone, in the bus bathroom, all the while everyone else was having their own celebration for Jake right outside.

I felt my heart jump again. Jake.

He had been with me during every other upsetting outcome, so part of me felt like I robbed him of this moment.

But it was finally happening.

He was going to be a dad.

And I was so excited that I would finally have the opportunity to give him the grand gesture that he always deserved. After everything he had ever done for me, he deserved nothing but the best.

And then I heard the entire bus erupt in screams and cheers.. and I knew.

He had won.

Now in every sense of the word.

I couldn't help but smile, tears filling my eyes as I took the test, quickly putting it back into the box and hiding it away in the cabinet. This would have to wait. Tonight was going to be about him.

As I reached for the door, it instantly flew open and I was now face to face with Jake who was staring back at me, teary eyed with a huge grin, spreading from ear to ear. I sighed, staring back up at him as he reached out for me, holding my face in his hands, pulling me into a passionate kiss.

"You won." I sighed, as he backed away, leaning his forehead against mine. He nodded, giggling to himself. He was adorable.

"I won." He whispered. "Sorry to barge in but.." He laughed. "I had to celebrate with you first." I gently pushed him out of the bathroom doorway, wrapping my arms around his neck, pulling him into another kiss, his lips instantly curling into a smile, backing away as he laughed in excitement.

"I am.. so happy for you." I sighed, staring back at him, smiling so big my face began to hurt. "I love you so much, and no one deserves this more than you." He held his stare on me until we were interrupted by Josh jumping on his back, his drink spilling onto the floor. I couldn't help but laugh, backing away, letting them have their moment together.

Leaning up against the doorway, I happily watched as they hugged him, wrapping their arms around him, messing up his hair. There were loud pops from bottles of champagne, clanging of glasses as the cheers and boisterous singing continued.

I felt my heart swelling in my chest, more tears coming to my eyes as he finally looked back, reaching out for me again. This time I didn't hesitate to go over, hiding my face in his chest as he tightly wrapped his arm around me, pulling me close, kissing my forehead.

"I am so happy you're here with me, Jess." He whispered, leaning in close.

"So am I." I sighed, staring up him, getting lost in his eyes.

"You never doubted it.." He said, gently caressing my neck, holding his loving gaze on me. "You always knew." I nodded, feeling my cheeks burning.

"Of course I did. You're amazing." He bit down on his lip, trying to contain his wide grin before pulling me back into a long, passionate kiss. I felt my heart beat faster, my head start to spin.

Seeing him so happy made me happier than I could ever imagine; he was glowing, and I felt lucky just to bask in the brilliance of his light, to be embraced by his warmth that melted me from the inside out.

"But how are you? Are you feeling okay?" He asked. "You didn't get sick did you? You were.. in there for a bit." I shook my head, my smile growing.

"No, I'm.. I'm fine. I.. I feel better, actually."

"Oh, good! Do you.. want anything to drink? I'm sure there's still plenty that hasn't ended up on the floor." He went over to the fridge, pulling out a new bottle.

"Oh, n-no. I'm fine. You have fun tonight." I laughed. He shrugged, putting the bottle back, pulling me up against him as he leaned in close.

"I just want to be with you tonight." He whispered. "Then we can really celebrate." My heart jumped, my body feeling like it was on fire. I tried my best to contain my smile, so desperately wanting to tell him but knowing he deserved his own moment. What was one more day?

"I'm sure they'll all be passed out soon." He laughed, wrapping his arm around my waist, pulling me up against him. "And then I'm all yours." I bit down on my lip, wrapping my arms around his neck, pulling him closer.

"You know once word gets out tomorrow-" I started. He brought his hand up, placing his finger over my lips.

"Let's not think about that, okay?" He said. "I know that everything is about to change so.. I just want to enjoy this last night with you.. before shit hits the fan." He laughed, gently touching my cheek. I nodded.

"Okay."

It wasn't long until the floor of the bus was covered in empty bottles and tired bodies that couldn't manage to find their own bunks before passing out wherever they fell. I heard Jake giggle to himself as he began gathering the bottles, placing them on the kitchen table.

"I already feel like a parent." He laughed, rolling his eyes. I felt my cheeks burn, my heart beating faster, trying my hardest to contain myself.

"You know.." He added, finishing up and making his way over to me. "Maybe.. maybe it's good nothing has happened yet, you know, considering how crazy it's about to get. I.. I know we said we weren't gonna bring it up but.. you know.. I want to be there with you every step of the way and.. I don't really see that happening right now with all the press I'm going to have to do." My stomach dropped.

"W-what.. are you gonna be doing?" I asked. He shrugged. "They told me a little on the phone but, honestly, I kinda blacked out after they told me I won. So, they're gonna email me tomorrow with all the details but.. from what I did hear.. it sounds like a lot." I nodded, feeling my heart beat faster.

"But it'll be okay. For now, it's just you and me." He said simply, kissing me on the top of my head before making his way into the bedroom.

As he started to get changed, he noticed me hanging back, leaning in the doorway.

"You sure you feel okay? You've been a little.. I don't know.." I nodded, forcing a smile.

"Yeah, I'm fine. Just.. just tired. It's been a long day." I smiled. He nodded, giggling to himself.

"You can say that again." He sighed, plopping down onto the bed. He rolled over, patting the spot next to him, staring up at me with dazed eyes. I couldn't help but smile, crawling into bed next to him, cuddling close.

"Jake.." I muttered, wrapping my arm around his stomach as I lied my head on his chest. He wrapped his arm around me, gently running his fingers across my back.

"Yeah?"

"Despite that..maybe we can.. can we.. talk about it again?" I asked, feeling my body get hot. He turned over, propping his head up onto his hand, flashing me a wide grin.

"Oh good." He sighed, flashing me an excited smile. "Yes, I've been dying to."

I lied there in complete bliss as he rambled on and on about how our kids would start music lessons right away, because that's how he learned. They could try anything and everything, but he would push them in the right direction, which of course would be guitar. They'd learn from "the greats," and he'd eventually pass down his record collection to them when it was time, when he felt they could really appreciate it.

I was hypnotized, completely captivated by his enthusiasm as he unloaded all of his worst fears and craziest dreams, hoping he would be just as good of a parent to our children as his parents were to him. And in this moment, my heart was full, knowing his plans were merely hypotheticals, but all the while having no idea just what was in store for him tomorrow.