Jealousy

The morning when I woke up, Rafael was no where to be found. Strange but this happened already. I turned to my side and got out of bed as I went to the bathroom to do something morning routine and then walked downstairs to check if Rafael was there.

So when I was near the end of the stairs, I heard a voice whispering...

I peeped and to see that it was Rafael, sitting on the couch looking tensed and he was talking to someone on the phone.

Actually whispering on the phone so I leaned closer and silently trying not to make a sound, so I could hear what they we're saying.

Rafael was laughing, happily and that causes my heart to drop on the floor as hear him like that. "You made me the happiest man alive that night, Gianna. Thank you." I clearly heard him say that making my chest to tighten badly. What does he mean by that?

"Yes, of course. She almost caught us last night too. I'm sorry for my wife reacting like that." He continued and each word he says are like stabbing me.

He sound so happy .

Why is that? Is this the reason why he suddenly felt bored these past few days on me.

He's cheating on me?

No, I refuse to believe that.

Fuck, what is that night? Don't tell me he went to that girl just to have sex with her because I can't give him that yet. Fuck, fuck fuck!

No! Rafael is not cheating on me. He loves me! Only me! He will never ever do that to hurt me.

"Alright, see you tonight at the Crimson Square. My wife might come down in a few minutes now, I don't want her to know about this. I can't wait to see it too. " he again replied, happily then ended the call already causing me to retreat and go back up the staircase and pretended that I didn't hear anything.

So what I did is I made my steps on the stairs loud enough to hear until I reached down. I saw him putting a suit on, oh so he is already leaving?

"Are you leaving?" I asked, fighting not to cry.

"Yes, I have an emergency meeting in an hour so I have to leave early and go to the office immediately" he replied then walked towards me to place a kiss on my forehead. "The breakfast is already served. I will just call you later" he stated before he walks out of the door and leaves me completely.

When the door closed, my knees just dropped on the floor. I know our conversation did not go well last night but I was too tired and I was unable to have a talk with him when he came to our room but is this his payment for what I did?

I kept on rejecting him and he got bored then look for another woman who are willing to give it to him anytime. Is this what he is doing behind my back? He just fall out of love? Could that be it?

They are meeting in Crimson Square tonight.

I must go there to find out why they are meeting and why does it have to be behind my back. I have to find out.

But anyway, I also have to go to the shop earlier today. Need to finish all the clothes for the magazine thing so I quickly got up and head to take a bath and dressed neatly.

When I arrived at the shop, Cole was already there and everything comes smoothly after that. I immediately start on the clothes I haven't finished last night and somehow I still feel bothered.

I don't know why. Maybe because I still haven't received a single call or text from Rafael and its already been two hours. He should be texting me now and asking if I already arrived at my work. I kept on checking my phone every minute and it is affecting my designs and my work. I am so not freaking used to this.

"Belle-"

Maybe he's just busy, Belle. Rafael can't just ignore me.

"Belle?-"

My husband can really be a little forgettable sometimes too. He must have forgotten to call me because he had so many works in his office. I was absent mindedly cutting a cloth as I think of reasons.

"Um...Belle-"

Or maybe he's not holding his phone right now because he is in a meeting and he can't be disturb.

"Yes, that's it! He is in a meeting!" I suddenly exclaimed.

"Belle?"

"What?!" I slammed the scissors I'm holding on my desk as I turn to my left to see who was that who kept on calling me.

I suddenly jerked when I saw that it was not only Cole that is standing in front of me but a middle aged man in expensive suit stood behind him causing me to gain my posture and hid both of my arms behind me.

Cole cleared his throat before speaking "Mr. Walter, this is the Mrs. Isabelle Knight, the owner of Golden Belle and the brain of all designs." She introduced and I just stood there looking at the man.

"Oh, Mr. Walter!" I jumped and shook hands with him. "Hi, it's nice to finally meet you." I smiled at him to avoid the embarrassing greeting I did.

"Very nice to meet you too, finally." He stated in a very low and manly voice. His hair is a little grayish, his eyes we're blue and his face is almost covered with his beard but still looks extremely rich. "Mrs. Isabelle Knight? Are you somehow related to Rafael or Roberto?" He asked.

Jeez, thanks for making me remember him again.

"Rafael is my husband, Sir." I replied, keeping my smile.

"Oh, so you're the lucky girl that everyone was talking about." A wide smile appeared on his lips and laughed loudly. "My daughters are so in love with that man and nearly killed themselves when they found our that he already got married, secretly."

I let out a small chuckle "Yeah, I received so many death threats when he introduced me to the public." I halfly lied and then tried to change the topic and out of the Rafael thing. "So, um...thank you by the way for trusting us to make your outfits for the charity ball."

"I knew I could trust Cole and his men but then when I heard that he will be working with you, the new famous designer, I just snapped and want the both of you because I know how amazing you two are." He replied looking so sure of us.

Cole laughed "You can count on us, Mr. Walter. You can trust Belle and I and we're sure to never disappoint you."

Mr. Walter smiled once again "Good." He said, "I just came here to check you up and I saw that you are working on some clothed to sell to so...are you two okay this Monday? For the measuring of gowns and suits to me and my family?"

Cole and I looked at each other before replying together "Of course."

"Great. So I'll see you on Monday, dear one." He told me, placing a hand over my shoulder and then shook hands with Cole again before he then to leave the working place with Cole escorting him out.

He seems to be a nice guy, doesn't he? Well, he put some of the money he owns to the charity and help people who are dealing with cancer.

Tsk, that is so far greater than spending them in an auction.

Damn it, here I am again.

Can I just move on from that topic? Rafael and I are fighting right now because of that and because of that stupid ex girlfriend he got. God, it irritates me so much just remembering the conversation last night with her. She talks to comfortable to me like we were some friends and heck, she had the guts to laugh with my husband in front of me. Uh, my blood is boiling in anger. And why do Rafael had that smile in his face while talking to her?! He is only allowed to smile like that in front of me! Damn, that bastard husband of mine.

He's lucky, I love him.

"Hey Belle." I heard Cole's voice.

"Yes?" I arranged myself and tried not to look bothered.

"Are you okay?" He asked, worried in his tone as he stare into my eyes.

"Yeah" I avoided eye contact because I don't want him to know about my situation right now. "So, shall we start our job? I have a few of designs here I want to show you if you agree to it" I told him and invited him over to my desk to show him what I was doing.

He likes the dresses that I have done so what we have to do is to bring those drawings alive and make them some amazing clothes that I will be proud of. Cole said that this will be enough for our collection, because we had made enough clothes and we will start making it. We have to do this how so we can take care of the things to the Walters.

Well this is good. I have something to distract myself from my personal problems. It should not be affecting my job.

Wake up, Belle.

I tried my best in the whole work hours and concentrate on my works. Luckily, I've been doing well, we finished all the clothes we designed and they are all placed in a mannequin. Finally, after all the hardship has paid off. I can't help but feel proud of the works that I have done. God, this feels amazing.

We decided to call it a day and then tomorrow are the photoshoot for the magazine that are gonna feature our clothes. I checked my phone that was inside my office if there is some text from Rafael but sadly, nothing.

The heck!

He carry off this da without even asking how I was doing. Why? Because he has his Gianna now. He had someone that will entertain him that should be my job and not her. I was gonna hop in my car when my phone vibrates and I quickly looked at it if it is from Rafael...

False alarm, it's not him but Catalina.

From Catalina:

Hey Amiga, I'm finally in the city today! Lets meet up? The usual favorite place? :)

I can't help but the text and the thought of my friend in the city makes me so happy. I just want to see her right now and hug her. I just need her warming advises.

God, I so badly want to see her again!

I quickly drive to the cafe shop that we always hang out when we we're still working together because it is so near our apartment but they do have the best coffee that was ever made. I wonder, what does the apartment looks right now? I haven't seen it since the day I left to study out of the country.

Well, whatever happens to it. I don't care anymore. That place is so unfair to the boarders. But also, who cares? I'm happily living in our penthouse and don't want to remember anything from the past including this.

I arrived to the place and I entered the restaurant as I search the entire room to look for Catalina. Then my smile widens, seeing her on the table at the window and she also saw me causing her to grin and stood up from the table and opened her arms for me to come.

I wasted no time, I ran to her and hugged her with everything I can. I don't care of my surroundings, if they are looking at us and saying that we look idiots. I just want to hug my friend right now and show her how I miss her so much.

"God, Belle you look so different from the last time I saw you before you left to study." She was astonished.

Well me too. "Me? Its you who is so beautiful. Love made you so radiant." I told her.

"Love made me happy, Amiga." She spoke smiling, and I can see in her eyes how happy she is. "And now I can feel what you felt before. How you fight for Rafael."

"Yeah. Love really is the best feeling that I should really hold on to " I spoke quietly "I'm really happy that we meet tonight, my friend. So much"

"Me too, sweetie. I can't take it. I have to check my best buddy how she was doing." She said, as we finally sat down. "So, how's life going on? Oh Congrats on the success of Golden Belle. I'm so happy for you"

"Thanks, Catalina. But I couldn't do it without the help of my sister and Rafael. They had pushed me for this" I replied, chuckling "How about you? Are you working on something right now? A job?"

"Actually, my husband doesn't want me to work yet. He only wants me to stay in our house." She crinkled her nose "And like fuck, I would agree on that. I don't want to rot in there while he goes practicing for his basketball games."

"Maybe he only wants for the best for you. For me, I think it is very sweet of him. He doesn't want to stress you."

She just rolled her eyes, disagreeing. Then the waiter came and gave us the menu list but I don't need that anymore. I've been eating in this cafe since the day I started to work as an entertainer "I'll have your blueberry cheesecake, chocolate lava and your cappuccino, please" I ordered with a smile.

Catalina was telling her order to the waiter, my phone vibrates and I took it immediately, hoping that this is Rafael.

From: My Hubby

I'm in Anderson right now and it was an emergency meeting. I'll call you later. You don't have to wait for me.

Anderson? Fuck, that is almost miles away from here! He went there without even telling me? This is getting absurd. But I thought he'll be meeting with that Gianna tonight in Crimson Square. Could that be a change of plan? No, I don't think so. But why not answer my calls and not even bother to call me back? He just gave a three sentenced reply and does he really think I will be satisfy in that reply? God, if he is really cheating on me then he got to be better than that. But fuck, he is not cheating! I know how much he loves me and I trust him with all of my heart.

"Belle? Are you alright?" Catalina broke my thoughts.

"Yeah." I snapped out "Were you saying something?"

"Nothing. You just suddenly starts staring at your phone." She responded, with her eyebrows frowned. "Is something wrong?"

I quickly shook my head "Nothing is wrong, Catalina. I promise."

But she doesn't look convinced but she raised an eyebrow at me then he sigh "Okay, tell me what's wrong" she murmured, softly and placing her hand on the table.

"What?" I asked, pretending like I don't know what she meant.

"Something is wrong with you. Tell me, sweetie." She said "I know you, Belle. Lonely, afraid, scared, bothered or depressed are all clearly shown in your eyes and right now, I see that you are tired and kind of scared of something."

I blinked and looked down on my hands that was on my lap "Actually, I'm gonna be honest with you, Catalina." I sigh before I continue "My marriage life with Rafael has been the best thing that ever happened to me in my entire life and as a married couple you do experience ups and downs..." I paused.

"Did you two get into a fight?" She guessed.

"Yep. But just an argument and a little misunderstanding." I replied, chuckling weakly. "But these past few days I kinda felt him a little distant and always bothered. In someway he is gonna be sweet and lovable then the next day, he will just be a boring guy who drowns himself at work so...I don't get it."

"So you're sexually frustrated?" She raised an eyebrow.

My eyes widen in surprise and shook my head. "No! Of course not."

"He spend a lot of time in work causing for him to forget that he has a wife waiting for him to open her legs" her dirty mouth is on again and she just laughed loudly.

"No! Catalina stop laughing!" I pouted. "Because...nothing is still happening between us" I mumbled silently but she suddenly looked at me shock.

"You're kidding me, right?"

I shook my head "Nope. I'm still a virgin wife."

"What the fuck?!" She just blurted out causing everyone to look at us and she just ignored it. "You clearly became selfish to the poor guy. C'mon, Belle. Sex is the most important part in a marriage love."

"Wait! Not sex but love is" I corrected.

"Yes that too. But if a married couple is sexless then there is a lot of changes that the guy will...try another one." She raised an eyebrow.

My mouth suddenly shut. "Y-you mean, he will cheat on me?"

"Yes. There's a huge possibility."

"But he said he will wait for me." I responded.

Then she scoffed "Honey, all men do that to the woman they love if they are still teenagers...not in married couple. He's your husband, for crying out loud!" She gasped. "The poor guy might really wait on you but do you think how long will he can to wait for you?"

I didn't know how to answer that.

"Belle, listen to this...in a men's life, they will survive as long as they have three things." Catalina leaned closer to the table "Home, clothes and sex. They are not men if they don't have those."

"But..." I softly mumbled and my shoulders dropped, feeling a little guilty. That could be why Rafael choose to go to Gianna. Because she must be game on to activities like that. "I'm scared."

Catalina sigh and looked at me, sincerely "Honey, I really believe Rafael loves you to the point that he is gonna wait for you. He gave you so many things and he has given you all you need. Why not give him what he needs, eh?"

Damn, I can't believe I'm talking about sex here in my age. This is unbelievable and so terrible of me.

"And I'm sure that Rafael won't cheat on you. That man loves you with his whole heart and he is ready to sacrifice everything just for you so...it's also up to you." Her voice became softer. "Think about it and hold on to your husband. You're strong and don't just get your fear get to you. And if you are remembering all the bad things happened to you when you're a kid, forget it all and move on. That is in the past and Rafael is your present and future. Remember that. Be strong, Amiga"

Every word that Catalina says went to me directly. I really feel guilty. I only think of myself in my little fear and totally forgets about Rafael. I'm so stupid.

"Thank you, Catalina. Yours words always helped me." I smiled at her and chuckled.

"No problem, Belle. You know that I can always be your family." She smiled back and that exact time, our foods arrived.

Now I only have to deal with that Gianna for messing up with my man. She must ready her hairy butt to me because I'm kicking it.

~~~~~~

When we finished, I was searching my wallet inside my bag and I noticed it was not there. How could it not be here?

"Amiga, don't bother. I was the one who invited you here so I got you here." Catalina told me as she handed the bill to the waiter. "What's going on?"

"I can't find my wallet" I said, as I searched my bag again. Then I stopped when I suddenly think of the place where I last used it.

It's in my office when I told my assistant to buy some foods that I will share for my crews since all of them did a great job so I just give them a little break and bought some pizzas, fried chickens and salads. But I didn't even took a bite because I'm still not in my right mind that time, worrying about Rafael the whole day.

"Did you left it somewhere?" She asked.

"Yeah, I think I left it in my office." I replied, taking my phone to call my secretary but at the exact time that Cole's name appeared in my phone. "Hello?" I answered.

"Hey Belle, sorry to bother you but your secretary handed me your wallet. She said you left it in your office."

"Yes! God, thank you so much." I sigh in relief making me palm my forehead "So careless of me. Do you have it with you?"

"Yes, I have it with me. Do you want me to give it you there in your husband's hotel?" He suggested.

"No!" I quickly answered "I will come to you. Where are you?"

"I am actually on my way to Crimson Square to pick up Gianna." He replied.

So she is in Crimson Square right now. Could that mean that she meet up with my husband? But he said that he is in Anderson. But only one way to find out.

"Okay, I'll be there in ten minutes" I told him then ended the call.

"Who was that?" Catalina asked as we both stood up and ready to leave the cafe.