I joined his school in grade sixth. I did not start liking him all at once. He was good looking but I never thought about him.

But after a few months I was made to sit just behind him and I just couldn't help staring at him doing everything. I just could stare at him the whole day.

We had small talk often cause he asked for my pen, notes, homework at the last moment (but he was slightly better in academics than me). Whenever tests results were out he would ask me about my marks and I did the same. He scored more than me at most subjects but he would praise me at those in which I scored more than him.

After that year I was too lucky to sit either behind him or in front him. I loved watching him and I found him staring at me too, only he would remove his gaze instantly.

I was never sure if he had the exact same feelings for me. I thought he liked me beacuse I was better in academics than most of the girls in our grade.

Then comes the complicated part.

One day my best friend told me she had a crush on the same person. I felt weird that whole day. I hadn't told her about my crush. She also told me that their parents were close friends. She also visited his house.

I learnt her love was deep. I don't know if that can be compared to mine.

And I also wanted to get rid of my crush once and for all (to pay more attention in studies) so I tried to move on and leave him with her (also maybe I thought childhood crushes don't last).

In ninth standard my best friend calls me up during summer break and tells me that she had proposed to him. I loved my best friend so much 'cause she chose to be friends with me out of all the students. But I was angry at her... I was sad and heart broken.. I wanted to move on and I thought I'd had. But no. This was love (I was sure).

After Summer break on the inside I was happy to learn that he didn't react to her proposal. I was becoming a bad friend . I hated that. But things just went that way.

One thing didn't change in all these years (from grade sixth to tenth) - he never failed to praise me. He'd always praised me. He woulkd crack jokes and would make me laugh. He was so good.

Finally he left the school after tenth. My best friend was so sad and so was I (only I never showed it).

In the beginning of eleventh grade I felt so empty. I'd just wanted to reach home from school as soon as possible. There was no place i could see him. He had no social media... Not even Whatsapp. I never called him as he also had strict parents.

By the end of that year he was out of my head. Not completely. And I had started getting poor grades. It was like I had no inspiration. No one to compare my scores with.

I heard from my best friend who was still madly in love with him, that he had a Whatsapp account. I took the number somehow and I couldn't stop my fingers from texting him.

I thought he had forgotten me but the way he talked it didn't seem so. Soon we would talk hours at night...he told me about his new school ...he cracked jokes while texting too. I was so happy until he went offline very soon.

I never told my best friend that we chatted. I just could not. It was not right.

In the beginning of twelfth grade she left the school too and just disappeared suddenly. That was the time I stared feeling lonely... So lonely that i scored bad. I felt I was losing interest. I was left friendless.

I made several accounts on instagram and just wanted to talk to people.. Just random people. I found wattpad and I was so happy.

He had almost stopped texting. And i just didnt want to bother him. I did not want to disturb him while he was maybe studying hard.

But one day out of the blue he texted "How are you??"

And I typed him a big paragraph telling that i wasnt feeling good at all. I had nobody to talk to etc etc I was feeling lonely.

He suggested me in a funny way: "Maybe you should have a boyfriend!!"

And then i thought he wanted me to confess him my feelings for him . Because by the way I texted him it was pretty clear I liked him.

So I told him after two hours I read his text, "Will you be my boyfriend?"

No reply for two days. He did not yet read my message. My heart beat like for two days continuously. I couldn't sleep, breathe properly.

But I did not regret confessing.

My best friend was nowhere then and I was angry at her for leaving me without a goodbye.

Conclusion: He told me that he did not want relationships at this time. He wanted to study well. He told me I was nice but all I know is he rejected me in a good way. I thought maybe he liked me a little.

I dont want to talk to him but out of the blue he sends me memes and jokes and "Heys"!!!

I try hard not to reply but I do that anyway.

When I reply he just reads and never replies back. I get angry. I delete his number. Delete the chats. And out of the blue he sends me something or the other and I do the same things.

And it continues.

Good news : I talk with my best friend these days and I told her everything. She was not at all angry at me. Infact she said that she would be happy if he loved me back.

So I need you to tell me how do i move on...? I want to tell him something bad because he changed and I want to remove him from my mind...

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Funny thing. The first advice that came into my mind when reading this was that you should definitely try to explain everything to your best friend and be honest with her. Then I realized you did it.

I thought you should talk to your crush and confess your feelings as well. Then I saw you did just that.

So congrats, girl! You did what so many people out there feared. And you're not regretting it, which is simply amazing.

Now, you asked him to be your boyfriend, and he "rejected" you. He said he was not looking for a relationship at the moment and even though I've been leaning towards the idea of him actually liking you back before, the way he phrased this answer just doesn't seem quite right.

I've heard more cases in which people gave this particular answer when they actually weren't interested in that other person at all.

One of my former friends went through a similar experience with one of my current friends and he gave her the exact same answer. She waited around for him for about a week more, but nothing ever happened between them. So she moved on.

I'm not saying this is neccesarry your case. For what it's worth, I hope it's not. Your crush might indeed be having some other reason he's literally not interested in a relationship right now that might not even have anything to do with you. I'm giving him the benefit of the doubt and say he might've gone through some unpleasant past experiences before and is not ready for a commitment yet.

But the fact that he didn't respond to your text for two days is definitely not a good sign. I'm sorry, but I think he was simply unsure how to reply.

I have a feeling he's in a relationship with someone else. And it might be with your best friend. I know you said he rejected her, but I don't know, if it's not with her, then it's with someone else, but he's kind of low-key about it.

Also, I think he didn't respond to you for so long because he didn't know what to tell you and how to let you know he doesn't feel the same. I don't think he sees you that way. At least, not anymore. He might've felt something before, but right now you're just a friend he cares about enough in order to keep texting you. But that's all.

I'm sorry. Honestly, the only thing you need to try, like you said, is move on from him. Try and distance yourself from him. Don't reply to his texts as often. I know it's hard to control this, but there's no point in keeping on doing this as long as you know it's only going to hurt you more.

I have the same opinion. The fact that he keeps texting you indicates that he might reach out to you as a person he can have a laugh or two with and nothing more.

I don't know, it's weird because he did show some signs that he might like you back, but I suppose things change.

Distract yourself from him. Make a change of pace in your life. Find new hobbies. Try to meet new people. New crowds and new places are a great way to make you think about him less. Plus, you never know when you might find someone else. You just need to pay attention and want this to happen. To move on.

If you want it and you're doing your best, it will happen sooner then you'll expect. You just never know what or who life might throw at you. ;)

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I'm really sorry this happened to you, and we hope you'll find someone else soon. Start with baby steps. I'm sure things will get better with time.

Good luck!