Hey, awesome book. It's really sweet you're helping people like this.

Anyway while ago I moved schools and started getting the same train as this guy (he goes to a different school) he's super shy and hardly ever said a thing. I got this sort of crush on the shy guy and didn't say anything. We wouldn't say anything to each other and I'd just talk to his friend who was way less shy. So yeah two years past and the summer holidays arrived. I went away and then when I got back I actually really missed him. I would think of him every night and sometimes I would feel stupid for even liking him. I was ready to go back when I was told he switched to get the bus.

I haven't seen him in a long time. I think of him at the very least once a day and haven't told anyone. It's just a few weeks ago I was thinking of him, then went to the bathroom and realised I had been crying. Last week I was eating lunch thinking of him and all this nothingness and the fact I couldn't think of what his eye colour even was anymore.

My friend looked at me and said 'are you crying?' And I tried to say no, but this lump came up in my throat and I started to cry. I feel so worthless and stupid. He would be so creeped out if he knew :( I'm starting to think suicidal thoughts.

I've searched countless sources to try and figure out how to forget about someone that doesn't like you. I feel sick and so stupid for doing this.... I'm so weak for crying over this every night all summer, my pillow is really wet now and I can't really see my keyboard because of stupid tears.

Do I have a problem? How do I forget him?

Dear Feelings,

You're not stupid. You don't have a problem. You're not creepy. You are definitely not weak.

Crying is a normal thing. I cry all the time. I over think things and make up thing with my imagination in my head. But guess what. It's going to be okay, I promise. You've just got to believe it.

I understand what it's like to think of someone 24/7 when you hardly know them.

It really sucks.

Maybe you should find out who he is, or found out what bus he takes now or do something to see him again. Maybe ask his friend.

Maybe when you see him, talk to him.

Ask him how he's been. Make small talk.

Suicidal thoughts are okay.

can really help and I've been sent hate for telling someone who is in a suicidal situation to pray, but prayer can do AMAZING things! (It helped them) (Check out the link in my bio for examples of what prayer can do.)

A way to forget him: Find someone else. (Prayer can also help this)

Find someone that makes you happy and you know will be there for you.

Maybe it's someone who you've know for ages, like best friend or boy next door type guy, that you know well but don't see that way.

Or maybe it's a guy you just met at school/work that you think is cute.

Just look at your options. Don't settle for this guy.

Hope this helps and I'm sorry for the late update. Life is hectic.

-Abby