there were hundreds of months passing through my head- the village hidden in the mist was particularly eventful with a full blown war beginning for the leading position as kage.

there were images of a red haired women using lava and a beast of a man walking out through the snow villages with a weak young child. there were ninja from the sand village saluting me- there were men in red cloaks - a long yellow haired red cloud, face planting a red haired red cloud and spluttering beat red- there was an image of purple ripple eyes- there was a old white haired man with red stripes on his face- and a pet pig with a monstrous blonde lady. there was a hideout that was in the middle of being staked out- there was the red haired kid-Gaara with his new tailed beast seal.

I did so many things in the span of a month it was hard to decipher what happened when i had hundreds of different versions of the same month.

my head was a constant scream of pain however it was slowly calming down- i was subconsciously aware of being lifted however my mind then slipped back into inky darkness

blissful darkness where the pain can't find me- where the nightmares and bad memories lay-where its somewhat more dangerous - in the darkness ~kate

I lay there for a long time before I decided to get up off the black silk bed and floated over to the cage where rama lay her ears were pressed tightly against her head and she only looked up when i curled up into her tails for comfort.

getting the rest i needed allowed my chakra reserves to replenish and as they did it became apparent that my reserves had grown to almost double what they were before.

the chakra was a constant slight burn inside my skin sort of like when you get taste dishwashing liquid or bubble solution- with an acidic burn that you can't get rid of no matter what you do.

it felt like that under my skin and uncomfortably hot too.

my mind was slowly sorting itself out and i discovered that the man who left the snow village was one of the seven swordsmen and the child was a kekki-genkai user of the late snow village.

i became friends with them zabuza was a sensei off mine and was teaching me how to use my katana better- when i disappeared i was in the middle of training and all i left behind was a sheet of paper explaining that I was a clone of the original and that i had been out with around 100 others for a month and eventually i would disappear.

the young boy haku was only six years old and nearly froze to death. we were best friends and i had explained to him one night that i would disappear one day soon and that when it happened i would be sure to meet them at the falls on the 20th of september with zabuza sensei.

I felt sad until a memory of the red cloud cloaks came to mind and an image of a sickly looking man with long greasy black hair and purple lines around his yellow slitted eyes.

my eyes widened as i discovered his involvement in a group called the akatsuki-Orochimaru!

it was another week before all my memories had finished sorting and i could hesitantly lift my head fro the confines of rama-chans tail to meet her worried gaze she then gently nudged me out of my mind scape.

my body felt heavy, well more so than my weights which were considerably lighter as rama-sensei took off her contribution of weight on my seals.

it hurt to move and the acidic feeling under my skin was more pronounced and felt more like a burning itch under my skin- sweat rolled down my forehead and i lifted my eyelids to look around.

the first thing i noticed was the sheets bundled up at the end of the bed.

then itachi and shisui cam into focus there heads laying on the bed next to me both holding hands and itachis other hand was then discovered to have been in my hand.

my burning body was soon discovered to be gently shaking. my body was so hot i was sure if i got any hotter i would start to melt . 

i gasped for breath trying to cool my lungs down my voice caught in my throat as i realised i was stripped down to my boxers and singlet the scars across my arms & legs were clearly visible.

i self consciously flinched away when the hand i was holding started moving- unsure of what was going to happen now that I've spoken to them.

looking at itachi-san i flinched as he looked over at me and smiled i hesitantly smiled back- albeit a little strained.

he lifted his hand up to my head and a flash of concern crossed his features, i was still gasping n air as he gently shook shisui awake and they both looked over me before itachi took my legs and shisui took my torso.

the took me out of the bedroom and into an adjoined bathroom where they put me on the tub. my singlet was stripped off and the water was turned on- i could see small amounts of steam coming off my skin as the cold water hit it.

i sighed in relief the water cooling down the burning sensation under my skin- unconsciously pouring my chakra into the bath water.

finally after what felt like years he could think clearly again even if he had a small headache.

turning his head to his two teammates he smiled shyly at them and spoke.