Chapter 8: Crush

Np: Crush by David Archuleta

You know I can not sleep since I gave that post it to Mr. Ceo.

Maybe you are wondering why I kept calling him Mr. Ceo. I'll explain it to you.

First: Mr. Rosen-Hower is to mouthy. So many letters!

Second: Mr. James is too informal.

So I chose Mr. Ceo it is concise and easy to pronounce.

Back to the issue at hand.

I don't really know what came up to me to write that note. It has been 3 days.

I went out to the living room to distract myself and luckily Scar is sitting at the couch watching TV.

I throw myself at the couch surprising Scar at my action.

I cling to her right arm and lay my head on her shoulder.

"Scar..."

"What"

" I can't sleep"

"Why?" She is still watching Tv while answering me.

I explain to her what has happened 3 days ago.

She looks at me looking like she is analyzing something.

"So to sum it up you can't sleep because you have a longtime crush to your boss and you made your move 3 days ago and you can't accept that you made a move and you are just now realizing you have a crush on your boss."

"Me? What? I have a crush on my boss? How? When?"

"Maybe you really is attracted to him but it is mask because you are afraid of him and afraid for your job. Then when you became slightly comfortable with his presence your fear turned into appreciation or crush. "

I saw Scar in a new light. She's like a resident councilor/love advisor.

"You really think I have a crush on him?"

She looks at me "I don't think Ella I know so."

Thinking about all the things I 've done for the past 9 months Scar is somewhat right. For the past 9mos I am doing my best to avoid him. Everytime he makes his inspection I went to the bathroom or just conviniently deliver on other floors when he is on my floor.

This past 3 months is a game changer because for the 5 min interaction we did everyday I can see that behind his stoic mask that he present everyday there is another person behind that mask. I don't know if it is just me but when he sees me he always looks amused but I can only see it in his eyes.

His eyes. Those eyes of his are deadly.

I avoid looking at his eyes because I might get suck in and never comeback.

Thank goodness he is on a business trip and will be back on monday.

It is friday today. I have two more days to prepare myself. I can do this. It's just a crush. No big deal. It will go away.

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I am wrong. So fudging wrong.

Even Eric and Mark are asking me what is wrong because according to them I look like a worm that is thrown with salt because of how restless I am. I can not concentrate the whole day.

I told them I am okay. Everything is fine. I just need to go up to Olympus to deliver some files. It is already 5pm and I really intended to deliver this files after work so there is a lesser chance that I'll meet him.

Because of the nerves I can not eat. I might throw up if I tried to eat.

I press the elevator button and wait for the car to arrive.

Teddy already gave me the passcode which is 3825968 and he told me never to tell anyone the passcode. As if. I can barely memorize those numbers.

I arrive at the Olympus and of course there is no one on this floor becuse it is 5:10pm already.

I hurried my way to the granite desk when suddenly the glass wall became transparent. I froze on my spot and Mr. Ceo is looking directly at me.

The door in his office opened and that is a silent command from him that I should enter his office.

I grudgingly entered his room.

Stopping in front of his desk I greet him.

"Good afternoon sir."

"Good afternoon. Why are you running?"

He asked me.

" Me? Running? No I 'm not"

He's just looking at me and he gave me his

I-don't-believe-you-look.

So I fess up.

" Fine. You're right. I was running because I thought no one is on this floor since its past 5pm."

He is still just looking at me.

"Its the truth promise!"

"I did not say anything Ella why are you being defensive."

"Because you are still looking at me."

"Is it wrong to look at you?"

"No but it is making me uncomfortable"

"Why?" He rebutted

"I don't know it just is"

"Why are you blushing then?"

"No I am not blushing its just hot in here!"

" You are being defensive again."

"My gosh what is wrong with you?!"

To ruin the moment my stomach made a sound that I never imagined exist.

"That's what is wrong. When is the last time you eat Ella and stop lying." He scold me firmly.

"Uhm..8am"

And all Hell break loose.

"What the fuck?! 8am??"

He looks at his rolex and scolds me some more

I should have tell him 3pm. Ella why so stupid??

"That's almost 10 hours ago! Are you not oriented that taking a lunch break is mandatory in this company?"

"I know but I am not in a mood to eat because I am restless the whole day."

"Its not even a valid excuse. I told you didn't

I that if you have a problem don't hesitate to tell me?"

I want to shout to him that his very existence is my problem.

But I can not do that. So I just kept quiet.

"I am sorry."

"Why are you apologizing?"

"Because I broke one of your rules." I just bow my head afraid of what he will do. Can I be fired because I forgot to take my lunch?

"I apologize because I raise my voice. But really Ella that is a stupid decision to not eat. What if you get sick?"

"I heard we have excellence health insurance so I can just avail it!"

I joked to lighten the mood but it made the opposite effect.

So I just shut up again.

He dial something in his phone and put it in his ear.

"Sit down on the couch now."

I just follow his command to not trigger his temper further.

"What do you want to eat?" He asked me while calling someone on his phone.

You.

Joke!

Of course I did not say that. I don't want to go to jail for harassment.

"I don't know"

"Do you like sushi?"

"What is sushi?"

He did not answer me but I hear the words sushi, maki, sashimi, tonkatsu.

Whatever that means.

Then I realize something.

"Are you ordering food?? Its not necessary! I'll just eat at home!"

He just glares at me.

Ok just what I said a while ago I'll just shut up.

Since he is ordering food maybe coke, fries and nuggets is available.

"Sir?"

"Yes? Do you want something?"

"If you don't mind maybe there is a fries, coke and chicken nuggets on the fast food delivery you are talking with. I want those. I'll just pay for my half."

And again I think I did say something he doesn't like cause his mood darkens again.

"You want fries, coke and nuggets?"

I nodded.

"Okay. No problem."

He tells someone on the phone my additional orders and drop the call.

He stands from his desk chair. He unbotton his suit jacket and sit beside me on the couch.

"The food will be here in 10min"

"That fast?"

"Yes. And you need to eat as soon as possible. You will eat all of the things I ordered."

"okay"

You know what?

My main goal is to just place the files on the desk of his secretary and go home but why am I in a situation right now wherein I am sitting so close beside him and apparently will be sharing a meal in his office?

My plan is simple but it backfired big time. Anyone who is in my situation will be ecstatic because they are sitting beside their crush but for me I just want the ground to swallow me up whole.