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"Sir, do you need anything? Something like coffee or tea? " Jimin's manager asked as he stood straight in front of his desk. Looking up from the files, he sighed. "A cup of coffee please. " he stated and the boy nodded his head.

"Alright, Sir. " he said and walked out from his office to make him a cup of hot coffee.

When his manager had left, he heaved a sigh and rested his head on the desk while breathing heavily. He was so tired after the 3 hours of meeting with a company from Scotland.

After he felt all his muscles had relax a bit, he straightened his back again and waited for his manager to serve his coffee. "Here's your coffee, Sir. " the boy said as he handed him the cup.

But then, his eyes suddenly saw a tuna sandwich that the boy was holding. "What is it, Jae? " he asked.

"Hm? Oh, you mean this sandwich? My girlfriend gave it to me for lunch. Do you want some? " he offered.

Jimin stopped and stared at his sandwich. When he looked at his sandwich, he remembered about the moment when Aera made him some sandwiches for breakfast. But he refused to eat it and even scolded her for cooking.

"Sir? " his manager asked, making Jimin to blink his eyes. "Do you want some? " he was still with the same question. Jimin cleared his throat and nodded.

"Yeah, give me one of it. " he said and reached for the sandwich. "It's just a simple sandwich. But I hope you enjoy it. " he smiled before walking out from Jimin's office.

"I hope I could turn back the time so I could fix what I had done wrong to her. " he sighed while staring at the sandwich.

I headed back home and took off my shoes. It was already 8 O'clock and my bedtime was 10 p.m.. Taking bath is the best thing to do before going to bed.

But I was stopped by Mrs Song who came to me with a bowl of hot soup noodle. "Sir. You come home late again. You must be so hungry, right? Here. I've made you noodles to eat. " she handed me the bowl.

"Or you want me to put it in your room? " she asked.

I stared down at the noodle and sighed. "I'm not hungry. Thank you " I rejected and was about to walk away.

"But Sir. You haven't eat in awhile. Please eat it. I don't want to see you starve yourself again. " she pleaded.

I sighed and gave up after looking at her sad crinkled face. "Okay. " I said and took the bowl from her. She smiled brightly after I took the bowl from her.

"Glad that you want to eat. I'm expecting to see an empty bowl tomorrow. " she said to me, just like what my mom used to say when I was still a kid.

I turned to her and smiled. "Alright, mom ".

I didn't know why I said that but I know she was surprised hearing that. But I didn't mind since she had take a good care of me since the time she started working as my maid. She's kind.

"Where's my necklace?! " Jimin yelled in mad as he failed to find the necklace he kept in a small box in his secret room. It was impossible for someone to get in it because he was the only one who has the key.

He groaned and threw the box to the wall till it crashed a bit. Ruffling his hair aggressively, he sat on the chair and tried to make a conclusion of what was happening. He was clueless and depressed by all the pressure his surroundings gave to him.

Everything passed so fast that his brain couldn't even process them.

"Why all these shits need to happen in my damn life?! " he hissed and breathed heavily. The necklace was significant to him. It was the only thing that would remind him of Aera. Even she left him, he still had hopes on her come back.

As he was frustrated by the lost of his necklace, he noticed that the wounds on his arm were already disappeared. Shocked, he pulled up his sleeve and stared at his bare arm. He gasped, "It couldn't happen ".

"Why do all of this need to happen? "

"Sir, where are you going? " Uncle Seon tried to ask Jimin who was rushing towards his car.

But Jimin didn't have enough time to answer him so he just ignored his question and ran towards his car. Taking out his car key, he started the engine and speeded to his destination.

"Where's Park Junghwan's ward? I want to meet him now! " Jimin gestured the nurse that works at the hospital. The nurse was shocked when Jimin suddenly came and yelled like a mad man.

"I'm sorry Sir. What's going on here? Why are you yelling here? It's hospital. " a man with white coat said. Probably the doctor who works there. Jimin looked at the man and asked "Where's Park Junghwan? I need to meet him now! "

The doctor furrowed his eyebrows, "Are Park Jimin? His son? " he asked. It was hard for Jimin to admit that he wanted to meet his dad so he just nodded his head as response.

He sighed, "I'm sorry. I didn't notice it was you," the doctor apologized and looked at the nurse who was standing behind the counter. "Bring him to his dad. " he said.

"His blood pressure is unstable now so I hope you won't make him angry or anything that'll make his blood pressure become more worse. Besides, he's really sick and weak. He can't talk too much. " the nurse said and leave him in front of his dad's ward.

Seeing the nurse finally left, Jimin looked at the figure laying on the hospital bed through the window. He was still doubting about his decisions.

But he had determined to do this so whatever happens, he needed to meet him. He clenched his fist and tried to throw every grudges he had been keeping on his dad before.

He didn't want to seem rude or disrespectful at this moment. Besides, his dad was already weak and unable to talk much. His blood pressure may raise if he talks to him rudely. Even he didn't love his dad, at least he didn't want to be the cause of his death.

Doubtfully, he held the doorknob and tried to pull it slowly. He didn't want to just barge in like a low mannered person. Then, he finally managed to open the door by his own.

The first thing he noticed about his dad was his body. He looked so much skinnier than he used to. Plus, the tubes that the doctors use to help him breathing seemed to put so much burn on him.

He sighed and forced himself to step closer to him. His dad didn't notice his absence yet.

He shoved his hands into his pockets and sat beside his bed. His eyes slowly looked up at the figure laying in front him, he sighed. "Hey, I'm here. " his voice filled the whole room.

Then, his dad finally looked at him in the weakest way. Once his gaze met his son's face, his heart thumped more faster than it used to. Jimin could see it by the machine beside his bed. He sighed, "Yes. I come here. Finally. " he said, as if he could read what his dad was going to ask.

"I heard you're sick and want to meet me. So I come here to see your condition. They said it's your last request " Jimin said but his face was blank. He didn't know what reaction he should use in this situation. He hadn't talk to his dad for years but now, he did.

He lowered his head and looked back at his dad. Scanning his condition, he knows this time, he didn't fake his disease. He looked so sick and weak. Then, he tried to talk again. "We're not that close as we should. But I come here to ask for your apology. "

"We've been apart for more than 10 years. I only grew up with Uncle Seon, the man you hired to be our driver. He was the one who watched me grew up. Not you. I don't really know how does it feels getting loved by my own dad because you were so busy with your temporary world. So, you can't blame me for treating you rudely. Because you're the reason I become like this. " Jimin said as his face was flat. Not even a single emotion was shown by him. He just looked at his dad emotionlessly.

Meanwhile, the old man who was looking at him didn't say anything. He was very surprised to see his son finally came to visit him even he knows Jimin was mad at him. He missed his son so much that he couldn't even utter a word. He was speechless and touched when he saw his son. The boy who shares the same blood as him.

Feeling emotional, Jimin's dad started to cry silently. He tried his best to not crying but he did. He honestly didn't want Jimin to see that he was crying because Jimin might think he just wanted to create another fake drama. But the truth is, he was just so happy to see him.

He just let the tears rolled down without making any face reaction while hoping Jimin didn't notice it. But Jimin noticed it. He just acted like he didn't see it because he didn't want to make everything becomes awkward. Sighing, he continued his talk.

"Even so, I realized that how bad and how cruel you treated me and mom, you're still my dad and mom's ex husband. Because of you, I born into this world. " he sighed.

"But, you also need to remember that— because of you, I will suffer for my whole life. Because of you, I hate being me and because of you, I lost the person I love the most " he wanted to blame his dad for Aera's sudden lost. You may not understand why he blamed his dad for all of this. But you will know soon.

"You gave all the burden on me. Because you're selfish! You have always been so selfish all the time. Even since when I was still kid, " he was mad but he kept his voice low so that his dad wouldn't get a heart attack. He knows his limit but he still wanted his dad to know how he felt and think about him. He had been keeping this thing for years. But now, he had the chance to tell everything.

"Why do I need to suffer like this? Do I deserve all of this? What had I done to you? Is it wrong to be happy? " he asked but his dad still remained silent. He didn't know what he should say at the moment.

"Jimin " he spoke after waiting for his strength to come back. "I'm sorry " his tears that were rolling down made his cheeks wet.

"I've sinned a lot to you. I neglected you. I didn't be the dad you deserve" his voice cracked.

Jimin stared at his dad's old crinkled face and turned away. The old face that used to be so young and handsome is now all crinkled and older. His dad was tall, has a broaded shoulders and black hair. But now, he's just an old man who was fighting with his disease. He became shorter as he was aging everyday, his hair became white and slowly losing his health. It proves that nothing is permanent.

Good looking? Ideal height? Ideal weight? Popularity? They're permanent. When you're dead, none of them will help you and you can't bring them together with you when you're dead. They're nothing and temporary.

The longer Jimin stared at his dad, the more thing he realized about the world. His mom had always reminds him that nothing is permanent. Now he knows why.

"It's okay. I understand. You were too busy chasing for everything in this world. I don't blame you, the world is just too fascinating that it makes you forget everything. " he chuckled bitterly.

"And, I just want you to know that— I've forgive you. " he spoke.

"Yeah, it was pretty hard for me to forgive you but.. I know I've sinned a lot to you. So I hope you can forgive me. Just like I did to you."

"Besides, I've finally accepted the fact that you're my dad. And I'm your son. The blood that's flowing in my body is your blood. We share the same DNA and how hard I tried to deny the truth, I still can't run away from it. Because what matter happens, I'll forever be your son. I'm Park Jimin, the son of Park Junghwan. That's what I need to remember and keep in mind. " he smiled gently.

He looked back at his dad who was focused on him, then patted his hands. "I hope you'll have a better life after this. Just know that I've forgive you. Goodbye " he stood up and looked down at the floor. He didn't know whether he should stay or leave. But his inner self asked him to leave. He sighed, "I need to go now. Goodbye " he said and turned away. But before he could walked out from the room, his dad stopped him.

"Aera " he said the name of a person Jimin had been searching for. Jimin stopped right on his spot and turned back to his dad. "What did you say? " he asked.

"Aera— Kim Aera—"

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