The next evening, I was alone in the house since I decided to take a day off. I didn't want to go work because I felt my body was damn fatigue. I might get sick if I continue working at this time.

Aera was currently working right now. I didn't tell her that I was off from work today because I knew, if she knows that I was sick, she'd starts nagging at me. I know she's just concern, but I find it a bit annoying because I hate when someone talks too much to me.

On the other hand, Uncle Seon went out to go to the pharmacy nearby because I asked him to buy me some pain killers. My head had been aching a lot lately. It's not a normal ache. It was so hurt that my face will turn to red sometimes.

I held my heart that was beating so fast as if it wanted to go out from my body. Not only my head, but my heart hurts too. I literally had no idea why it happens to me. Do I have a serious disease? Probably. But I hope I don't because I can't die now.

I still have so many things to archive in my life.

I heaved a sigh and walked to my desk. But I stopped when I realized that I was standing right in front of the mirror. It had been awhile since the last time I looked at myself in the mirror. It's not like I didn't want to, but I hate to see my own reflection.

But this time, I didn't want to be the same. My hand curled to a fist and I turned to the mirror.

My head slowly turned up itself and I looked into the mirror, where my reflection was. I stared at myself for a pretty minute and turned away directly. I can't bare to see my own self. It disguise me.

Other people might adore me by how I look. But none of them know how much I hate to see myself.

I looked at my dark eyes, the cold beast look resting on my face, pale lips—

How do Aera even wanted to stay with me? I'm a totally disgusting monster. I clenched my jaw and hissed silently.

What's the point to be alive?

Aera was busy decorating the new clothes she designed. It took her 2 weeks to satisfy the customer. She had to deal with a picky customer so it was quite tiring but knowing they love the results really give her satisfaction.

But now, she just needed to add on some decorations like labucci, high class pearl and so on.

Her hands carefully put the decorations on the expensive clothes to make sure she didn't make anything wrong. Suddenly, her phone rang, pulling her out from the hot sensation.

She heaved a sigh and looked at her phone that was placed right beside her sketchbook. She put down all her things and answered the call.

"Hello, Jimin? " Aera asked, somehow confused because Jimin suddenly called her.

"Aera—" he coughed up.

"Jimin? What's wrong? You sound sick" she said.

"I, I'm alone " he stated without giving any clue about what was happening on him. Aera raised her brows, "What are you trying to tell me? Why are you alone? Where are you? " she asked, concern about his condition. He can't be alone when he's sick because he'd act out of control sometimes. It'd put himself in danger.

"I'm home— alone. No one is with me right now. Oh wait— there's someone in my room. Myself " he sniffled and ended the call. She bit her lower lip as her brain couldn't process what was going on. He was talking nonsense and it makes she became more worried. Ignoring the fact that she needed to get the dress done, she took her handbag and rushed home.

Aera arrived at the house 15 minutes after Jimin called her. She looked around and make sure everything was safe and rushed upstairs, where Jimin's room was.

On her way to his room, she heard a breaking glass sound. She stopped on her spot and gasped silently. She was doubting whether she should continue her steps or not. She worried Jimin will hurt her but at the same time, she didn't want him to hurt himself.

She shook her head and continued her step to Jimin's room. Her feet slowly stepping to his room until she saw Jimin who was already on the floor, staring at the broken mirror.

She gasped in shocked and made her way to him. She looked down at his bleeding hands and kneeled down in front of him. "Omg Jimin, you're insane " she said, taking his hands and placed them on her laps.

"You're hurting yourself! " she yelled a bit as she tried to not bursting into tears. "What make you think of hurting yourself, huh? Do you want to be dead so badly?! " she hit the floor with her shaking hands.

Jimin didn't respond to her but he just stared at the broken mirror. He looked down at his hands and laughed bitterly.

"Finally, I know how to satisfy myself " he blurted out.

"It's by destroying myself " he added and clenched his jaw madly. He was mad, but sad at the same time. So tears started to get down from his cold eyes. It was the first time he cries after a long period.

He didn't wipe his tears even he knows Aera would see it. But he didn't care because his heart hurt so much. Aera, who was wiping the blood on his hands stopped when she noticed that he was crying. It was tears that was rolling down his cheeks. A true tears.

She gasped and stuttered as she didn't know what to do. Should she be mad at him for hurting himself or should she comfort him because he was crying?

She sighed and blew his wounds gently. Then, she placed them on his lap back and pulled him into a warm hug. Her thin arms was enough to make him feels warm and loved.

"I hate myself " he spoke as Aera was rubbing his back gently. Aera knew he was having a breakdown so she just played along with his confessions. "I hate everything about me. Why do I ever born as me? " he asked and Aera smiled at his answer.

"It's because of fate. We will not meet each other if you're not the you now. And you wouldn't be the strong man like you now if you weren't born as you. You should be grateful, you know? There's a lot of people who wish to have a life like you " Aera said to make him feel better.

Jimin tightened the hug by pulling Aera closer to him and sniffled. "That's because they never know how much struggles I need to face. If they know it, they'll never ask to live my life " he said

Aera was shut up by his words.

Jimin found that he was so comfortable getting hugged by Aera so he just remained silent. Aera caressed his hair softly, "You know? Everyone has their own challenge in life. It's either hard or easy but what's matter is; it makes you tougher. " she smiled.

Jimin sniffled and pulled Aera to sit on his lap. Her eyes enlarged a bit due to the sudden body interactions. She never been this close to him. He make her turned to him and looked at her. Aera was sitting on his lap and got to see his face very close. She blushed and tried to stay calm.

"You're so comforting " Jimin commented as he pulled her into a hug again. But this time, the hug was more tighter and warmer. Aera could feel the atmosphere got more sensation yet it was so nice She loves their position secretly.

Jimin placed his head on her shoulder closed his eyes. "I want us to be like this for awhile. " he said and Aera nodded her head slowly. She wrapped her hands around him and rested her head on his chest. Their position got more comfortable when Aera did that. She likes it so much—

His touch, his warmth, his absence

Everything about him is perfect for her. Jimin finally found his peace. He could feel their souls intertwined with each other. He finally felt warm, and not cold.

The warmth that her soul sent to his— it makes he forgets how cold he used to be. The only thing he felt was; warm.

"You can take off your cold hearted mask now. It's just me. Kim Aera. Just break down, cry as much as you want and fall apart. I won't go anywhere " Aera said, patting his back so that he would know that it's okay to cry.

It won't make you look weak. It shows how strong you are for facing all the difficult times by yourself.

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But sometimes, the more you cry, the colder you get. Idk, I'm just saying what I think.