i bite my lip to keep me from smiling like a maniac. at least parker likes my glasses. "thanks," i rush out. "so are you ready to swim?" i try to change the subject. "i sure am. i brought my trunks and everything." he pats his backpack.

"what's everything?" i look around to make sure that my brother wasn't in front of the school. "just some things i thought would be cool to do while we hang." parker smiles. his dimples pop out and i admire them.

how on earth are you even real? and why are you talking to me? "you like what you see?" he says and i realize i was staring hard at him. "no i was just looking at the toothpaste by your mouth." i mess with him. parker stops and his eyes widen. he wipes his mouth repetitively. "is it gone?" he asks and i start to walk. "it was never there."

i look straight and walk a little faster. i hear him sigh. "very funny dweeb."

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i made sure to wear a one piece instead of a two piece. i didn't want to reveal much of my body. also my mom would kill me. i grabbed two towels then i walked downstairs. "how do you like my rubber duck trunks?" parker holds his hands up. holy shit. i looked at his trunks but only for a split second. what i really was looking at was his chest and abs.

i would like to thank god and puberty but mainly god. you sure did spend your time on this motherfucker. "they're... nice." i say walking up to him, still staring at his bare chest. i look back at his abs, i wonder what they feel like.

i have a strong urge to reach out and touch them. why are you like this?

"you have a little drool coming out of your mouth right there." he reaches towards my face but i throw his towel at him. "shut up." i walk outside without him. "damn." i say to myself. i inhale then exhale to calm myself down.

it's freezing out here. i run to the jacuzzi and i basically jump in. the warmth of the pool warms me up immediately and i start to relax. "i brought uno." parker holds up the card game and i slightly laugh. never in a million years would i've thought that parker grey and i would be playing uno in my jacuzzi.

"where are we going to put the cards?" i ask then he looks around. "here." i watch him reach for one of our coffee tables and put it on the side of the jacuzzi by me. "wow you're so smart." i say sarcastically. "i know right." he matches my sarcasm.

"okay you shuffle, i don't know how." he hands me the cards out of the box. i grab them carefully, trying not to drop them in the water. "this feels amazing." he sits down and the water rises to his neck. i put the cards on the table and i start shuffling.

"you really don't know how to shuffle?" i ask looking at him. "no. i'm not really coordinated."

i laugh. "believe me, neither am i." i shuffle again. i learned how to shuffle by watching how actors do it in the movies and youtube videos. "if you didn't get your hands all wet i would've taught you how." i shuffle one more time. "you can teach me afterwards." his voice sounds closer.

i watch him swim right next to me. "dry your hands." i start giving us both seven cards. parker shakes his hands making water fly on my face. i look at him like he's crazy. "they're dry." he holds his hands out. i hesitate before i give his cards to him. i put the stack on the table then i grab my cards. i laugh to myself when i see them. i am so winning.

turns out i was right, i won the first game by saving my plus four card last. that's how i always win. "redo!" he demands and i nod. we end up playing three more games and i still won all of them. "you're cheating!" he frowns. "how am i cheating?" i say offended. "i don't know... maybe you're saving all the best cards for you while you're dealing."

i gasp. "i am not!" i hand him the cards. "here, you deal then." i lay my head on my crossed arms as i watch his horrible attempt at shuffling. i swear it took him five minutes to shuffle. "okay prepare to lose." he says confidently and i go along with it. we start playing and i can already tell that i'm going to win.

i laugh as parker puts down a yellow card. "that was too easy," i put down my last yellow card. "uno." i let myself sink in the water for a second to feel the warmth again. parker stands there with his mouth open. "tell me your ways." he drops his cards on the table and swims next to me.

"well, i noticed that you always start off using your special cards. maybe if you saved them for last and didn't start off so strong you would win." i smile as i swim around for a little bit. when i swim back to him i notice he's just staring at me.

"what?" i ask feeling nervous. he starts to swim closer and before i know it, his lips are on mine. i kiss him back for a second then i push him. "oh!" i cover my mouth. parker just kissed me. "i'm sorry." he stands there frozen. why did i push him? parker aka the man of my dreams just kissed me and i pushed him. my freshman year old self would kill me right now.

"i'm so sorry, i don't know why i did that." parker looks just as shocked as i probably do. and i don't know why i stopped it. i just sit there in shock. "no it's okay, i just...uh i think i'm going to go inside." i make my way out of the jacuzzi and i grab my towel. "yeah, okay." he stays in the pool.

i wrap myself up in my towel and forget about wetting the floor as i walk back inside. i just needed to get out of that situation. "parker? bri you didn't tell me you were having people over." i look up to see my mom in the kitchen. shit. "hi, mrs. williams." i hear parker but don't look at him. this is so awkward. why am i being so awkward?

"i was just talking to your mom, it's been a while." my mom says making my mouth drop open. i knew she would talk to his mom about what i told her. there's silence as i glare at her. "you guys were swimming? in fifty degree weather?" she questions. okay maybe that wasn't a good idea. "we were in the jacuzzi." i say looking at the floor. "playing uno." parker adds.

more silence. "okay then. dinner is almost ready, you're more than welcome to stay parker." i finally look up and freeze. she notices but just smiles. "i'm pretty sure parker has to g-" i say but he cuts me off. "actually i would love to stay." i am dreaming. i have to be. this has to be some crazy ass dream.

i slowly turn my head to parker. i look at him. he fake smiles and i look back at the floor. and there's more silence. "i'm going to change." i say and i start walking towards the stairs. "yeah me too."

i literally run for my life upstairs and when i get to my room i close my door. i let go of a deep breath i didn't even know i was holding. "no way." i start to smile when i think of the kiss. "no way!" i jump up and down like a girly girl.

"hah! take that riley!" i skip to my closet. just kidding, i'm just kidding!