I looked at him. "We kissed. Or, he kissed me," I explained. Wyatt sighed as he rushed his hand through his hair. "He kissed you?" Wyatt asked, looking deeply into my eyes.

"Yes," I said, my voice shaking. He didn't look angry, he looked more disappointed. "Well, did you feel anything?" he asked. "No, Wyatt, I didn't feel anything," I lied.

"Liar," he whispered.

"Wyatt, what makes you think I'm lying to you?" I asked. "I can see it in your eyes," he said. He could see straight through me. I just shook my head, tears filling up in my eyes. He sat closer to me, looking at me while biting his lip softly. "It's okay,Aurelia you love him," he whispered as he looked down in the ground.

"I love you, Wyatt," I said.

"I know, but there's a difference. You don't love me like you love Finn," he explained. "How do you know?" I asked. "You don't look at me the way you look at him," he whispered. I felt tears starting to stream down my face. He put his arms around me and pulled me into a hug.

"Shhh," he whispered. "I'm sorry," I sobbed. "Shh, it's okay. I understand," he mumbeled as he kissed the top of my head softly. "You should go tell him that, because I know he's still crazy about you," he whispered. "Wyatt, I don't want to hurt you," I whispered. "Don't worry about me, Aurelia. I just want you to be happy," he whispered.

"Just remember that in the end, I'll always love you. And if he hurts you, I swear to God I'm going to kill him," he whispered. A small laugh escaped my lips as I hugged him tightly. "Thank you," I whispered, kissing his cheek softly before letting go of him.

As he stood up, he looked at me. "I guess this is goodbye for now," Wyatt said while turning around. "Wyatt," I said as he reached the door. He looked at me. "I love you," I whispered.

The corners of his mouth formed themselves into a smile. "No you don't. But I love you too," he said. "Bye Aurelia " he whispered before walking out of my room, maybe even out of my life.

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The day after, I couldn't stop thinking about what Wyatt told me about telling Finn I had feelings for him. After spending hours just wondering if I was going to or not, I decided that I was.

I was going to tell Finn Wolfhard I still had feelings for him. I was going to Macy William's party tonight and tell him.

I stood up and walked over to my closet. I put on some mom jeans with a blue bandeau and white nike air max,As I felt I was looking okay enough, I smiled at the mirror before I went downstairs and walked out the door.

As I walked, I felt my stomach twist. God, I was terrifyed to do this. I mean, I just told him I didn't love him - and now I was going to tell him that I did. Maybe he moved on? Maybe he didn't care anymore? Well, no matter what he was going to day I couldn't turn away now. He needed to know.

As I inhaled a deep breath of the cold air, I pulled the sleeves on my coat a bit down. "My God," I whispered to myself as I stopped outside the building where the party was going on.

When I got inside, I started to look around for Finn. The clock was just 11PM, but I needed to find him as soon as possible, so I didn't back out on this.

After about hald an hour, I still couldn't find him. And I'd been looking all over the place. Where could he be? A sigh escaped my lips as I let my gaze slide over the room several times, before my eyes landed on Clarity in the other end of the room - talking to Jack.

I felt the corners of my mouth forming themselves into a tiny, hopeful smile. Maybe Jack knew where Finn could be. As I walked over to them, I put my arms around Clarity from behind - earning a giggle.

"Hey babe," I smiled as I let go of her and walked up beside her. "Hey," she smiled. I looked over at Jack who smiled slightly at me. "Jack, do you know where Finn is?" I asked. "I have to tell him something," I explained.

He shrugged. "I don't know, but I think he said something about getting some air," he said. On the roof, of course! "Okay, I think I know where he is. Thank you so much," I said. "I'll see you guys later?" I asked as I looked at both of them as they both nodded.

"But Aurelia,I don't think it's such a good idea to talk to him. I mean, whenever you two are together, it always ends up with one of you getting hurt. And I don't want that for you or him," Jack explained.

- he was right. "I just want you to make sure that you're both willing to give this a chance. I want you to make sure that you want to be together with Finn, that you can trust him a 100%, and he can do the same thing about you. Are you sure you want to do that?" he asked. "My god Jack, that was deep," I heard Jaeden say, earning a chuckle from Jack.

I took a deep breath as I pressed my eyes together to keep the tears back. As I looked at him, I nodded. "I'm sure. Finn is the guy I want to be with," I said. He smiled. "Then go for it," Jaeden smiled. "I will. Thank you all," I said as I turned around to run upstairs and to the roof.

As I opened the door to the roof, I felt the cold breeze around me as an icy cold blanket. I let my gaze slide over the roof before I laid my eyes on a person sitting at the edge of the roof, looking over a beautiful city.

A smile started pulling in the corners of my mouth as I let my gaze slide over him several times. I just stood there, looking at this beautiful boy for a little while. He was dressed in this white shirt that suited him so well, and a black pants. His hair was messy, and he leaned forward. God, he was the most beautiful, amazing and perfect human being on this earth. Standing there, just looking at how peaceful he was made me believe even harder that I did love this boy. I rushed my hand through my hair and let my tounge slide over my bottom lip before I walked over.

I sat down beside him, looking over the city.

"Beautiful, isn't it?" I asked, feeling him setting his eyes at me. "Almost as beautiful as you," he mumbled.

I looked over at him with a blush appearing in my cheeks as I smiled at him. "Why are you sitting up here?" I asked.

He shrugged, looking over at the city again. "I just needed a break. Sometimes it just feels good sitting all by yourself, looking at everything and just let your thoughts fly around," he said with a low voice.

"I agree,"I whispered. He looked at me again, making me shiver. "Why are you here?" he asked, biting his lip. "I needed to talk to you about something," I said. I could feel his body tensing beside me. "What?" he asked. "Um, I broke up with Wyatt," I mumbled. "What? Why?" he asked, sounding pretty confused.

"Well, after Christmas Eve, after we kissed and Wyatt came home, I just felt that it wasn't right. There was no spark when Wyatt and I kissed. I don't feel the same way kissing him as I do when I kiss you. It's different. When I kiss you, my head goes all messy and my stomach twists - in a good way. You make the blood rush through me ten times faster, and you make my heart beat like crazy. When I kiss you, I feel something special. Something I've never felt with anyone else, something I'm never going to feel with anyone but you. You were the first guy I fell in love with, and a first love will never change. When you fall in love with someone for the first time, it stays with you forever. And you, Finn Wolfhard. You will stay with me forever. No matter if I want to or not, I just can't stop caring for you even though I might have to let you go. But that's the thing, I don't want to let you go, Finn. I want to have you in my life, I want you to be my boyfriend. My boyfriend who kisses me in public, holds my hand, laughs with me and creates memories. But I mean, I can't do that whithout your premission," I said.

I could see a smile appearing at his beautiful lips as he heard what I said. "But whenever you and I try to be together, it just ends up with one of us getting hurt. A healthy relationship isn't like that. I want a love that's real, Bambi," he whispered.

"You know just as well as I do that our love is real. And I don't give a damn about if I get hurt or not, because we don't know what tomorrow wil bring. For what we know, one of us might be dead. So I suggest that we take every day as it comes, and that we just enjoy every day we're together," I said.

Tears started to run down my cheeks. He smiled as he wiped away the tears with his thumb. "So you're saying you're willing to give this - to give us a second chance?" he asked. "Because I am if you are," he continued. A smile spread across my lips. "I definetly am, because I am, even though I sometimes don't want to, truly, madly and deeply in love with a stupid boy who sometimes doesn't think before he does. A boy who can be an ass, but at the same time he can be the most amazing person on this earth," I said. "Wyatt?" he asked. I giggled as I punched his arm playfully.

"3.." all the people underneath us downstairs were yelling.

"So what are you saying?" he asked.

"2.."

"I'm saying that I love you, Finn Wolfhard.

"1.."

"I love you too Aurelia Piaz Esme."

"Happy New Year!" everyone shouted, and as the fireworks was shot in the sky, I pressed my lips against his. Fireworks everywhere, and I mean everywhere. It felt so good, so real. And Finn and I were real. We were meant to be, I'm sure. As we let go, he looked deeply into my eyes. "Mine?" he whispered. "Yours," I breathed.