Past is something that needs to be buried but how can it be when it is a life within every bone of mine.

-Rain

I looked at my feet to see I was still wearing my fuzzy slippers. I groaned, man I went to the hospital in them. I know it wasn't something to be embarrassed about but still I couldn't stop myself from turning red.

I looked at the bed to see Amber tossing and turning. She had slept way too much today and I know full well that she will keep me up tonight.

I went near the bed and touched her forehead. I couldn't help the frown that got plastered on my forehead. How can her BP suddenly go down? To be truthful I was completely and utterly terrified when I heard Amber fainted. But by god's virtue she is fine and with me.

Soon Ms mischief opened her eyes. Her eyes were sparkling. A kind of spark that as a mother I want to see each and every day.

A yawn left her mouth making her all more adorable.

"How much do you sleep?", I cooed her as she sat on the bed. She passed me a sheepish smile as she stood up on the bed and made her way to me.

She threw her arms around me as she buried her face in the crook of my neck. I pressed my chin over her head as I softly rubbed my hands at her back drawing circles.

I felt extremely guilty today. Today was the first time I shouted at my baby and I knew she has already forgotten it but I couldn't. How could I be so reckless? Damien was right maybe I am thinking way too much.

I looked around the room and then I realized I have not checked my phone today. I let go of Amber and made my way to the nightstand where my phone was kept. I picked up the phone.

I again groaned as I looked at the screen. Thirteen missed calls from Nanu and twenty five missed calls from Nana. I am so dead. I called Nana ready to be bombarded with questions.

"Hello Nana.", I said softly.

"Rain Carrington you have a lot to be explain.", Nana stated directly. You know what, this is what I like about Nana. She is damn straight forward. I sighed as I started explaining her everything.

"Oh my poor Amber, do you want me to come there? ", Nana asked but I shook my head. Fool, how can she see I have shooked my head so said a no.

"How is everyone in the house Nana?", I asked.

"Well everyone is moaning at Lila's loss. You know I never liked her much but still she was my grand daughter so even I am feeling bad that she got murdered. Well but your Nanu is on a full moaning mode.", Nana stated. I felt bad for Nanu. Just like me he dearly loved Lila.

"I will be there tommorow on the funeral.", I stated.

"Alright take care of Amber and yourself. Also don't let the words of the cop intimidate you. I know Damien is going to be there with you but still.", Nana stated and I just huffed and muttered I am grown up but she just chuckled and stated that she knows it before the line went dead.

I turned back to Amber as I picked her up and placed her on the floor.

"So Amb...."

Before I could complete the statement there was a knock on the door.

"Come in.", I said and Heather, one of the maid I have got acquinted with came in.

"Good evening Ms Rain. The cops are here.", she stated and I just nodded my head. Once she left the room I looked down at Amber and debated for a moment. Should I take her or not? But after mornings episode I feared leaving her alone so I decided to take her with me. I gave her my hand that she readily took as we left the room. As I neared the staircase, I saw Damien standing there already. But his aura it wasn't.... how do I put it, it wasn't good.

His face was emotionless but as he turned around in our direction and made eye contact with me, I could see the raw flames in his eyes. His stance was predatory. His fists were clenched making his knuckles turn a awful shade of white. His jaw was set and I knew something was troubling him. He may not show it but I knew and this is something that scares me. I have know him for no more than one and a half months and I can read him.

He is like a puzzle, a very difficult jigsaw puzzle but I feel like maybe I will be able to solve it. Not today, not tommorow but some day hopefully.

"Ready?", he asked me but his voice was strained. He looked down and his eyes fell on Amber. He raised his eyebrow at me.

"She is coming down with us?", he asked.

"Yes. I don't feel like leaving her alone.", I stated and he nodded his head in understanding.

"Come here princess.", Damien stated as he bent down at Amber's level. Amber swiftly let go of my hand and tied her arms around Damien's neck as he picked her up.

I don't know why but my heart felt serene at this side. Amber had someone who could hold her unlike me and maybe soon she will have someone she could call Dad.

Damien held Amber with one of his arm and he passed the other hand in my direction. I was hesitant at the beginning but neithertheless took it.

It surprised me how my hand perfectly fit in his big and warm one. It was the first time I was holding his hand and it felt good. I felt safe and sheltered.

We descended the stair together and as I got down from the flight of steps, the cops came in view. They all stood up seeing us. We made our way to them and soon Damien let go of my hand. He asked or more like ordered the cops to sit and they complied.

The cops introduced themselves and Theo, Ruse and Russell. I greeted them politely and they also passed me genuine smiles. There smiles eased my anxiety. The cops I have been with in the past lets say were not that good. I shudder at the horrific memory.

"I hope your daughter is fine now.", Rude asked politely.

Before I could reply Damien coldly stated,"Do the work you are here for, then take your sorry a*ses and get lost from my property."

The three officers gulped before they proceeded.

"So shall we start?", Russell asked and I simply nodded my head.

"So what relation you share with Lila?", Theo asked me.

"She is my cousin sister.", I stated.

"How is your relationship?", Ruse asked me while noting down my first reply. I opened and closed my mouth. I was debating whether to tell them the truth or not.

But I even knew that even if I don't tell them the truth they will get to know it from one person or the other and that would put me in more problem. So I decided I would tell them the truth.

"We weren't on good terms.", I stated. My voice was losing its confidence. I still don't know that was it the right move or not.

"Why was that?", Ruse asked me.

"In the will my grandparents wrote everything in my name and she didn't get any property so she was... umm maybe, I am saying maybe jealous and this ruined are relation.", I told them.

"Are your grandparents alive?", Theo asked me and I nodded my head.

"Why is that they didn't write anything in her name?", Theo questioned.

"I lost both my parents when I was fifteen and just to secure Amber and my future they wrote everything on our name.", I stated keeping the details aside.

"How did your parents died?", Russell asked. I paused for a moment I never liked this question because it brought back memories both good and bad equally painful to make me cry. I looked around not willing to answer.

"Tell me one thing.... "

Damien started as he placed Amber on his lap and cracked his knuckles and I knew full well he was trying to intimidate them and it was working.

"How is Rain's parents death related to this matter?", he asked and his voice was sharp making the officers gulp. I fought the smile that was coming in my face.

"If you aren't comfortable with this question I will ask you another question.", Theo suggested and I nodded my head.

"Can you tell us in detail about your last meeting with Lila?", Ruse asked.

I nodded my head and started telling them everything. I just kept the detail about him out of the discussion so that they don't question me about that. Ruse continued to note everything down as he asked me the next question.

"Do you have doubts on anyone?"

I looked at the side to see Damien has stiffened. Doubt, do I?

I shook my head.

"Alright Ms Rain that is all for now. If we will need we will contact you again.", Theo stated and the cops left the mansion with that.

I looked at Amber who was there in Damien's arm from the last half an hour. Didn't he get tire? I thought to myself but then I remembered he eats bricks and cement.

"You don't want to ask me anything?", I asked Damien as he put Amber down who immediately went to wander around. I was curious that why he didn't cross question me.

"Don't be angry but I have a CCTV camera in the living room.", he said as a matter of fact and my mouth hung low. So all this while he could see everything. Wait that also means he has a camera in our room.

"No I don't have a camera in any room.", Damien answered my unasked question or did I say too loudly in my mind?

I frowned but ultimately nodded my head.

"Thank you for saving me from that question.", I said and Damien just nodded.

"Sir should we serve the dinner?", Marie asked and Damien muttered a yes.

"Let me go catch Amber before she runs away.", Damien stated while getting and soon he was back with Amber in his arms. We went to the dinning room to eat our dinner. The dinner went by quietly without any talk but the atmosphere wasn't heavy like in the car, it was light.

We got up as the help came to get the plates. Damien carried Amber to my room before bidding us good night.

His movements were quick as if he was in a rush but I didn't question. I was no one to question him.

I forgot that Amber's night wear were in her room so we went back to Amber's room. I picked out a tee and a pair of shorts and changed Amber's clothes. Them we went to my room. I placed Amber on the bed as I went inside the walk in closet to change in a black color nightie. I decided not to take another bath as I was tired.

I went on to the bed and held Amber in my arms. I started to sing a lullaby with the hope that Amber would sleep. I don't know if Amber slept or not but I definitely fell asleep. It was way to easy today to surrender to the dark.

I felt someone tapping my cheek. I groaned as I turned around but even then I opened my eyes to see Amber looking at me. I looked at the nightstand to see it was two a.m.

"What's wrong baby?", I asked and Amber rubbed her tummy. I sighed, I thought she wasn't feeling well. I got up from the bed and put her down on the floor.

I looked at the clock again. A mid night snack won't be that bad of an idea, I thought. We both quietly descended the stairs as we made our way to the kitchen. The whole lights of the house were turned off but due to today's advance technology which I am not going to be acquinted with anytime soon, as soon as we entered the kitchen the kitchen lights turned on.

I decided to cook mac and cheese and started gathering the ingredients. It has been three days since I last cooked. I went to get the boiling pot to boil the macroni but due to my clumsiness it fell on the ground but thank god I didn't have water in it. I picked up the pot as I looked in Amber's direction.

"Will you help momma?", I asked and Amber nodded her head. I picked her up and placed her on the counter top.

I turned around and I felt someone moving and my heartbeat picked up. I tried acting courageous and I went in the salon and saw a person came in view but his face wasn't visible due to dark. But I could easily make out he had something in his hand and it looked like a gun.

Oh Lord!

And the only thing I knew at that moment was to scream so I screamed at top of my voice...