It's been a couple of months since Sky and I had our talk, our relationship has been good, we're moving forward, things between us and the kids have been phenomenal. Things with the band are awesome, the music we're making is the best we've ever done, the guys seem to trust me, I mean when I say we're in a good place.

What has been tough is seeing the drugs and alcohol at the studio. It's not like I've wanted it or been tempted, in fact, when I see it I head the other fuckin direction. Some of the party players have been hanging around more too. Girls I don't remember, but I know for a fact that I've fucked, girls and guys I've never seen before, or maybe I have and I just don't remember. It doesn't really matter. Usually there's a bunch of people hanging out, some of them are other musicians that are working with us, sometimes just other people recording here. There's always the party people though. The thing that is kind of fuckin with me is seeing my old party friend Nolan. He was a the closest thing to a friend that I had for a couple of years, but we really don't have anything in common anymore, I don't party, smoke, drink or drug, so what do we talk about now? I feel like an ass, I was so fuckin shallow, I hung around for years with a guy that I don't really know, and don't seem to have much in common with.

We had fun together, he wasn't a bad guy, not any worse than I was. We partied and did a bunch of shit that I just am not ever gonna do again. I see him, I say hi, but I keep my distance. I feel kind of bad about that, but it's not like we were close, fuck I was always so wasted that I wasn't really close with anyone. It's just kind of messing with my head, he knows more about what I got into than I do. its fuckin weird to know that a big chunk of your life is remembered better by others more than by you.

We've been in the studio for hours now, looking at my watch, I see it's almost the kids bedtime. Ducking out of the studio, I catch Jakes eye, so he sees that I'm heading for my nightly good night call to the kids.

"Jake, you guys bringing food in? I'm fuckin starved, order me double of whatever you're having you vegan health freak." I smile, he knows I'm fuckin with him, he is the healthy eater though, fuck that shit looks good, but it always tastes like dusty cardboard.

Scrolling through my phone, I see the pics that Sky sent, the kids look so fuckin happy, they're all laughing and it looks like they're baking some kind of cookie. They and the kitchen are covered in frosting and sugar, I wish I was with them.

"Hey Sky baby, I'm sorry I'm calling so late, did I miss the kids going to bed?"

"You got us just in time Tuck, hey kids, come over here, Tuck is on the phone." I hear a boatload of giggles and talking in the background. The screen flips to a FaceTime request, and I see three shiny, smiling, sleepy looking people. Three people who are my fuckin world.

"Tucky ! We made cookies! We used frosting and sprinkles, and we made so many that you can have some when you get home!" They are talking so fast, and over one another, that I start to laugh.

"How's your music going Tucky? Are you having fun? We miss you. Will you make banana pancakes tomorrow morning? Mommy says we have to be healthy, but if they have bananas in them, then they're healthy, right?" Nellie thinks she's so clever, and she is, because if she wants banana pancakes tomorrow, then I sure as fuck am gonna make them for her.

"Yeah baby, if mommy says it's ok, we'll have bananas for breakfast." I smile, knowing what is coming.

"No Tucky! Nellie said banana pancakes, not just bananas!" Colt talks over Nellie, he always has her back. Our kids are fuckin amazing.

"Ok, ok, time for bed guys, say goodnight to Tuck and we'll go finish our story." Sky is trying to be stern, but I know there are going to be at least 3 stories read tonight.

"I love you guys so much, and I miss you. I'm sorry this recording is taking so long, but I will kiss you tonight while you're sleeping, and i'll make you breakfast tomorrow. Love you monkeys!" I smile at my happy family, I'm so fuckin lucky.

"I'll see you later Tuck, have fun, I miss you!" Sky barely gets the sentence out of her mouth before I see a small hand head towards the phone, and then the screen goes black.

Turning around I bump into Nolan and a couple of girls.

"Hey man, how are you? We haven't been able to catch you alone, wanna party later?" Nolan smiles, his arms around the girls. The girls are both beautiful and throwing off 'fuck me' vibes, and I want no part of this invitation.

"Things are great Nolan, no thanks to the invite though. I've got a girl, a family, and I'm not partying anymore, but you guys have fun." I smile and start to walk away when one of the girls grabs my arm and slides up against me.

"I'm Dasha, Tucker, do you remember me? We met at a concert in Vegas, and then a couple of other places, we've always been really good together, want to recreate some of those fun times?" She smiles, she seems nice, genuine, not a total bitch, but I have zero interest, and I notice that my body is as uninterested as my heart and mind.

"Sorry Dasha, I don't remember, I was pretty fucked up the past 5 years, and I'm not into the party scene anymore. You guys have fun, maybe I'll see you guys around." I take off just as she tries to kiss me, her lips trail over the side of my cheek as I duck around her.

As they follow me back into the studio, I am greeted with the curious eyes of my bandmates, Kell stares me down, then he and Jake head over to me.

"What the fuck was going on in the hallway Tucker? We saw you on the monitor hanging with Nolan and some girls? Kells questioning voice isn't angry, but it is suspicious.

"What the fuck is the lipstick on your face Tucker?" Jakes voice is way edgier than Kells was.

"Jesus guys, I went out to call Sky and the kids, we talked, I said good night to them, then when I started to come back here Nolan and the girls stopped me. They told me about a party, that kind of shit, I told them no, then one of the girls, who I apparently hooked up with before tried to kiss me. I moved out of the way and she caught my face. I appreciate you guys looking out for me, but im not gonna fuck it all up. I finally have the life I always wanted, im not gonna hurt Sky and the kids. I'm never gonna fuck up my life or anyone else's like I did before." I head over to the table where the food is being delivered, grab a seat and sit down. The guys sit with me, some of the hangers on are at the table, along with Nolan and the girls. A couple joints are lit and shared, I just pass it on when it's offered to me, I don't even think about it, I'm not interested in it. Now that my head is clear, I know what is at stake if I fuck up. Smiling to myself, I fuckin love my life now, no way in hell will I ever endanger it.

It's after 2:00 am by the time I pull into Skys house. I'm only here to make sure the pancake stuff is stocked for tomorrow and to give a kiss to Sky and the kids. I can't wait till we are all in the same damn house, but Sky wants to wait till we live together as a family, and her judgement is a fuck load better than mine, so she's the boss.

Pulling the blankets up over the kids, moving the stuffed animals and books, giving them kisses, I look at their beautiful faces, and again for the millionth time, I wonder how I ever got so lucky.

Opening Skys door, I see her sound asleep in the bed, curled up in the blankets. I kiss her lightly on the cheek, trying not to wake her.

"Tucker? You must be so tired, climb up here and sleep with me, you don't have to go home, just stay tonight. You ok? You look a little stressed." She looks at me with tired eyes, a questioning look on her face.

I look at her ,smile and kiss her lips. My fingers softly caress her cheeks.

"Sky baby, I am tired, I was stressed, but everything is god damn perfect when I'm with you. Thanks for letting me stay in the house with you tonight. Love you baby." My eyes are closed before the sentence is finished, I nestle up next to her, pulling her tight to my body. One of my arms is wrapped around her, my fingers stroking her cheek. Th other hand is near her neck, wrapped in her hair. My face nestled in her hair, I inhale deeply, the scent of her skin, shampoo, whatever the fuck it is, it starts to lull me to sleep. I swear to the stars and moon, this woman is my world, I will never fuck her over again.

"Love you big spoon." Sky sleepily says.

"Love you too little spoon." I kiss her head, and I'm out.