Sexuality.

It frustrated him, it so deeply frustrated him. As if being a mutant, overly smart, a nerd and just plain odd wasn't enough, he had to add gay to the list. And worse? He was gay for the guy he had been competing with..for a girl.

God. It hurt just to imagine how much teasing he would get just from the hockey player, let alone his brothers and April. Atleast, he felt he could tell Mikey, if he was better at keeping secrets that is. Mikey still has the mind of a child,he either wouldn't understand, or he would find it fascinating. Leo,he wasn't sure, it was hard to read him. Raph,he figured would tease him alot, and may even feel awkward with him. April would shun him,over the time they've known eachother she's made slightly hateful comments about gay guys, making fun of them and other such things. And Splinter? That scared him most. What if he couldn't accept him?

What about Casey?

Well, could you tell your possibly straight frenemy about your gay crush on them?

He had to get this off his chest though, it was crushing him and eating him alive. All he needed was one,one person who accepted him, one person he could trust not to blab to his family, one person who could support him through this, and then he realized;he has a not too straight sister, with a badass gay friend. Even if they teased him,it wouldn't be like it would he with his brothers, girls are nicer with feelings, or, most are. He gathered his thoughts and raised from his pervious position on his bed; his head in his hands as he stared at the floor in the dark. He didn't bother to grab any of his gear, or even his mask for that matter, nor did he remember he didn't have it on. He quietly opened his door and snuck out of the lair. It was late, maybe 1 or 2 a.m. by now, but he had to get this off his chest and calm his mind even slightly. Luckily everyone was in their own rooms so his leaving didn't draw any attention.

When he finally got there he felt dizzy and numb with all the senerios and possibilities playing through his mind. He went through the window on the roof that for some reason, was always cracked open. He leaped down and looked around the mostly dark room,only to suddenly be surrounded by foot soldiers, causing him to almost scream.

"Stand down, this is not an enemy." Came a booming voice, making him stand up straighter. He watched as the soldiers drew back their weapons and returned back to the shadows, then his eyes went to where the voice came from, relief washing over him when he seen Karai and Shini-

Correction, a very tired and angry couple of girls.

"What are you doing here Donatello?" Spoke Karai, her voice loud and threatening as always, her snake tongue slithering out of her mouth for a moment; gee, he really did make her mad.

"I-I I need to talk about something that's been bothering me and I don't know what to do about it a-and I can't tell my brothers or my friends or even sensei and I can't let it drown me any more-" he said so quickly the two tired girls could barely understand. Karai raised her hand to silence him

"Slowly now." Her voice was quieter, her gaze shifting from angry to concerned, but still a little angry. When had they gotten closer? They were almost directly in front of him now. Donnie let out a slow sigh

"I..I've been having feelings for..for.." he paused,his throat feeling as if it was swelling shut. Shini raised an eyebrow at him, but Karai spoke instead

"That April girl, no?"

"No" Shini answered for him,looking at him for confirmation. When he nodded she nodded as well

"I can tell, there's a thing called gaydar" she had a teasing smile on her face, but obviously meant no harm. He mutely nodded. Karai looked surprised, before letting in a small gasp

"That explains alot." She finally said,nodding a little to her self. For a moment his attention turned to the arm that was wrapped around Karai's waist, but when she spoke he looked back at her. This time, she had a smile, a real smile, a loving smile

"How about we get some blankets and some hot chocolate and we talk about this?" The two girls smiled at him, and something in him decided this would be a new safe place for him.

After following them to an area of the hide out he didn't know existed, they gathered on the large bed in Karai's room; he didn't know they made beds so large, and part of him wondered if it was for her to sleep comfortably as her snake form. The two girls in front of him, all of them wrapped in blankets with hot chocolate, or atleast, they did, he had coffee. After at several fails of starting the conversation, Shini decided to try

"Hockey boy?" Was all she said, a knowing look on her face, while Karai had an eyebrow raised. He gave a mute nod, he took a large sip of coffee before letting out a sigh

"And he's straight." He hung his head

"No"

He raised his head and looked at Shini confused, Karai having the same look he did. Shini just raised an eyebrow

"Whaat? You didn't know?" She seemed genuinely surprised. Donnie just responded with an 'are you fuckin kidding me' look, to which she shrugged and sipped her hot drink

"Definitely not straight, but also not as gay as me" she seemed a little amused when she said this, but lost the look when Karai nudged her

"What the hell are you talkin about? He flirts with all of us girls, to the point I want to poison him just to shut 'im up"

"No, well, yes. " Shini shifts the way she was sitting

"He flirts with us because he's comfortable with it and it's 'normal'. But I see the way he looks at the guys. Ever wondered why he doesn't watch them train like anyone else does?" Shini had a smug, knowing look on her face, while Karai made an 'O' face, nodding. Meanwhile Donnie felt more confused about anything ever before

"..what?" Was all he could say, his mind starting to feel like it was in a fog again, Karai leans towards him slightly, whispering

"Boys so gay watching you train excites him"

This caused a wave of emotions, mostly embarassment

"What the shell-" he wheezed, backing away from Karai. This caused Shini to laugh and pat Karai's shoulder

"Although it's true, that's not all. Have you noticed that he's gotten friendlier?" She tilts her head

"W..well yeah..and then he'll suddenly lash out and leave"

Both girls nod, humming, causing him to become confused again

"Gay boy in denial" Karai says, sipping her drink, causing Shini to hum and nod in agreement. Donnie let out a whine and face palmed

"I came here for help and now I'm even more confused.." he whined, then sighed and sipped his coffee, almost startled by the looks the girls were giving him

"Do it. Confess." Karai spoke, shini nodding

"W-what? R-right now?" He internally panicked a little. He wasn't even sure what was goung on any more

"Right now." Shini adds, starting to push him up so he'd stan. He stood and looked confused

"B-but what if-" he was cut off by Karai

"Go little gay boy go!" She says, grabbing the mug from his hands while Shini shooed him out. He made a panicked noise and rushed out of the room, the door closing behind him. He just, stood for a minute, puzzled. Then he decided it would be best to go home and get some rest, or atleast, that was his plan. Instead he spent most of the rest of the night making a custom hockey stick for Casey, giving it all kinds of new features, then put it in a box and messing taped it shut, putting a poorly done bow on it. He barely made it to his bed, passing out there, his caffeine boost running out.

The next morning he woke up to shouting and being shaken, pretty violently. It took him almost a whole minute to blink away the blurriness and focus his eyes and ears. That's when he realized it was Casey, yelling about something 'totally metal'. Donnie could only mutter a tired and confused

"Wha?" Casey finally let go off him, showing him the invention he had 'found' while snooping. Donnies eyes went wide as he snapped awake. He wasn't supposed to have that yet-

"It's so cool! It's awesome! Thanks dude!" Casey yelled, looking excited and pretty happy. Donnie could only give a nervous laugh

"A-about that-"he started, only to be interrupted

"Whyd you make it?"

"Huh?"

"Why'd you make it? I didn't ask, and I doubt any of your bros would ask you to make somethin for me. So why?"

That made Donnie go quiet for a solid minute, he opened and closed his mouth a couple of times to try and speak, but didn't make any noise. Finally he looked away from the male in front of him and looked at the ground, mumbling and stuttering out a few things. That's when Casey started to piece it together, but waited to hear it before he reacted.

"I..I like you okay? And..wow this is difficult..." Donnie was almost whispering, he took in a deep breath and raised his head to speak, only to he caught off guard as something touched his lips, but was gone a moment later. He just kinda sat, stunned

"As much as I'd love to stay, April will tear my head off if I miss school today" Casey grinned at the flustered and confused turtle, his cheeks a faint pink

"See ya later! And thanks for the new hockey stick!"he calls as he walks out of the room, leaving the confused boy alone, and for the second time ever he said it

"I am..so confused."