We've been here for 3 days and the weather has been constantly kicking my ass. I thought Texas' weather was dramatic, obviously, I hadn't been to Florida. But here I am. Completely and utterly annoyed with the bipolar weather. 

Luckily, we were heading inside The Florida Aquarium, which meant A/C. My luck with avoiding Mrs. Evans was slowly running thin. She almost caught me this morning, luckily Jasmine had just exited the room and was rushing me to bring her snacks. If she hadn't come out at the time she had, Emily definitely would've had my ass.

I sigh as we enter the aquarium. Once everyone has what is needed we're allowed to roam around with our designated teachers. A few of us agree to go see the sharks first. Not one of my favorite animals to ever see, but would beat looking at octopuses. 

We get to the section and almost immediately my eyes meet green eyes. The woman smiles, greeting us. "Good afternoon, I see you all are interested in sharks this fine afternoon."

I notice a small circle in the middle of the shark exhibit. My eyes widen as I walk closer to it. "Be careful, these sharks are trained but they might react to your beauty" the woman flirts openly. I smirk and glance at her, appreciating the compliment.

Jasmine and Desire roll their eyes, not impressed by the woman's flirting. We all gather around the circle, a few baby sharks swimming up to the surface. A boy jumps and moves away, "Baby sharks I can do. But that one is too big. He might eat me."

"Rest assured, the only thing these cuties crave is love and affection. Here I can show you."

She grabs my hand causing me to blush. She reaches our hands out and a shark comes up causing me to pull away slightly. Her green eyes land on me reassuringly causing me to relax a bit. My hand meets the rough skin. I cringe, "It feels like..." I trail wondering what it resembled. 

"Sandpaper" the woman smiles. She releases my hand and I smile, petting the baby sharks. "They're actually kind of cute" Duke agrees reaching out to pet the baby shark as well. Pretty soon every teenager around the circle was petting the sharks, enjoying not being eaten.

The woman moves away, "I can show you guys more if you're not bored so far."

I raise my brows and turn to face her, ready to move on. My eyes land on Emily, who looks displeased with the two of us. She rolls her eyes and glances away, allowing the woman to guide us.

We discover a lot of things about sharks we didn't know. Stereotypes about these creatures really make us think so illy of them. They're honestly kind of cute once you look past all the teeth they can puncture your flesh with.

"I'm Catherine by the way," the woman says and my flirtatious smile immediately drops. I glance at the woman. Life sure has a fucked up way of making you remember things. She didn't look anything like the name I was associating her with. Her eyes were a different color from what I was used to staring at for hours on end. 

Her smile was different from what I had fallen in love with and loved to see at any hour of the day.

She wasn't Kathryn, she's Catherine. A totally different name and spelling. Different environment. A different life. A different heart. Noticing I was just staring, I offer her a kind smile. "That's a pretty name. I'm uh..."

"Hey, let go to the Octopuses. They look cool" a kid interrupts us. The woman smiles at me, knowing I had to part ways from her. I nod my head and walk away with my group, not bothering to give her my name. It wasn't necessary. I wouldn't see her again anyway.

All I could think about now was my ex-lover. The woman I wished I never broke up with. The woman who owned my heart and still does despite our relationship ending. I wanted to give her the benefit of the doubt, maybe she was just having a moment. She would call me and we'd sort through all of this and get back on track like nothing happened.

I wish nothing happened. I wish I would've kept my mouth shut and just let her abuse our relationship however she wanted to. Because I was in love. I am in love. Kathryn would be the first love I would never truly get over. The one who rests in the back of my mind and appears in my dreams when I'm in doubt.

I should've just trusted her. Trusted that things would go back to normal. She would stop being so gloomy and she would light up my world like she always had. Even before we got together, I knew Kathryn was going to be everything I wanted in a lover. 

I feel a nudge in my side, bringing my eyes away from the random glass of fish and to my best friend. He eyes me sadly, wrapping his arm around me and pulling me into him. "Casey, you know I'm here if you want to talk. Don't bottle anything up, please. I don't want you to lose yourself."

Offering a small smile, I hug him. "I did something stupid Edwin. Something I can't take back. What do I do?" I ask hoping he knew the remedy to a broken heart. 

"I wish I knew Casey. I wish I did."

- - - - -

"Fuck yeah! Thank god for fake I.D.'s" I cheer, downing a bottle of patron. The liquor burns my chest and makes me forget my worries. Jasmine quickly takes the bottle from my hands, "At least mix it with something. Straight patron is not good for you."

I roll my eyes, already feeling the buzz. Actually maybe more than a buzz. Desire shakes her head as she hands me a cup. I smile thankfully at her and take a sip. I throw the styrofoam cup to the floor. "It's water" I complain to the dark-haired girl. Her eyes land on me sternly as she nods her head.

"Yeah, you could use some right about now. If you're not quiet Mrs. Evans might hear us and tell the boys to go back to their room."

"Fuck Emily! She's not going to do shit" I slur.

Just as those words fall from my lips we hear knocking at the door. Desire groans and eyes me hard. The only thing I can do is smile at her apologetically before hiccuping. She makes her way towards the door, taking a deep breath before opening it. Luckily for us, it wasn't Mrs. Evans. It was a few students. 

They enter the room with smiles. "We saw you guys sneaking back with bottles of liquor. You 5 sure know how to have a good time, now let us join you."

I nod my head, "Hell Yeah Man" I cheer. One of the girls bites her lips, eyes landing on me playfully. "She has the right idea."

We all drink, playing a little music to entertain us as we danced around in the crowded room. I hold my drink in my right hand as the other explore someone's body. I dance, grinding into the beauty, not really caring who it was. Just as long as it wasn't a dude. 

I never going to be drunk enough to ever grind on a dude. I take a swig of my drink before turning the girl around. To my surprise and hers as well, Desire stares at me with wide eyes. "I'm sorry, I thought you were one of the other girls."

I quirk a brow and bite my lip. "Don't be sorry baby. Just keep dancing."

She nodded her head and did as told, not having a care in the world. After a few more minutes of grinding, I'm extremely turned on. I pull the girl through my friends and push her into the restroom. I close and lock the door behind us and set my cup door. "Casey, we shouldn't do this" she presses her hands against my forearm, keeping me at bay.

Smiling, I glance at her lips. "Sure we can. Just trust me." The girl hesitates but sure enough, she allows me to kiss her. I try to enjoy the feeling of our lips dancing around together, but in the pit of my stomach, I knew this wasn't right. Ignoring my gut feeling, I slip my hand into the waistband of her pants. 

I bite her lip as my fingers tease her cl-t. She moans into my mouth and I smile, pulling away. I quickly unbutton her jeans and tug them down a bit, ready to let her experience the best night of her life. My fingers find her cl-t again, rubbing and teasing the sensitive bud. 

I tease her a bit longer until she's begging for me to enter her. I stuff my hands into her panties, enjoying her wetness against my fingers. I clench my jaw as I insert two fingers, causing her to let out a deep moan. I bite her neck as I thrust into her.

Feeling her walls close around my fingers, I open my mouth. "Cum for me Kathryn" I hiss before biting her shoulder. However, my fingers are pulled away from the girl. I groan and glance at her. She sighs and pulls her pants up. "I know you just got out of a relationship with Kathryn but Casey it hurts if you call me her. This wasn't a good idea. I like you, I do but I can't be fucking you when you're thinking about her. I can't be in this situation when I know deep down all you want is her. I have come to respect her more and I can't do this to her."

I groan and roll my eyes. She leans in and kisses my cheek. "Casey, please don't hurt her. I know you're broken up but this break up was your idea. Don't fuck up the chances you have to get back with her by sleeping around." She unlocks the door and goes back to the small party brewing in our hotel room.

I stay in the restroom a bit before grabbing my cup and leaving the room. 

Desire is right. I didn't need to sleep around. I didn't need to hurt Kathryn. I head to the elevator and down to the lobby. I wave at the receptionist before heading outside. The humid air hits my skin, but it manages to sober me up just a bit. I groan and pour my drink out into the grass before throwing the cup away.

I take a seat at one of the benches. I need to relax and sober up. I need to think clearer. I stay seated for an hour before standing and turning to go back inside the hotel, but I come face to face with Emily Evans. I sigh and sit back down, knowing I wasn't getting out of this one.

She takes the seat on side of me. She doesn't say anything for a few minutes. We just sit in silence, admiring the scenery around us. 

Eventually, that silence fades. "At first I thought you were just joking. But right after you told me I called her, finding out you were serious."

My eyes remain on the ground. "I have never felt this kind of pain Casey. I'm not even in the relationship but finding out it was real was almost as equivalent to me getting divorce papers from Sophia. I was mad, livid really. And when I talked to Kathryn she didn't get upset with you she didn't speak any bad about you, she acted as if she deserved it.

And I guess hearing her say it hurt more. I gave you advice and you completely went the opposite way. I thought Casey Kings was the one person who would make my best friend happy, the one person who would put that dopey smile on her face and it would remain for weeks. The one person who could take away all her misery and understand her and love her."

She sighs. "I want to scream at you, hit you, ask you what the hell is wrong with you. But I trust you. I trust you know exactly what you're doing. Just because you and Kathryn broke up doesn't mean I don't still consider you my friend. I mean I dislike you a tad bit but, I'm still rooting for you Casey."

My heart breaks more with every word that leaves her lips. I turn towards the woman, her glass blue eyes already on me. I clench my jaw and move closer to the woman. Her eyes follow me in confusion. "I'm drunk and trying not to think about it."

She furrows her brows in confusion. I don't wait for her to get what I mean as I stand, losing my balance a bit. 

I look down at her. "I don't know what I am right now. Broken, confused, stupid. It's a lot that I'm not sure about. I regret breaking up with her and I was avoiding you because I was already beating myself up about it, I didn't want to hear you verbally beating me up too. I fucked up I know. And when we get back, she is the first person I'm talking to."