It was dark in my room, but I could still make out the silhouette of my girlfriend making her way back to me. I try to act sleep, but I find myself rolling over and facing her. "Important phone call?" I question. The woman doesn't budge, she keeps her back to me as she sets her phone face down on the nightstand. Something she never did.

"I guess you can say that. Why are you up? You have the senior trip tomorrow. You guys are leaving before 10. Shouldn't you be getting some rest."

I didn't need to see her face to know that it didn't match the tone of her voice. She was masking a lot from me, a lot that I could possibly help her with. I sigh and sit up, placing my hand on her shoulder. "Tell me what happened."

The woman only lets out a breath as she shakes her head, trying to ignore this event. But I can't let it slide. Not this time. She's been acting weird since the pep rally. Being jumpy, secretive, and most of all distant. I couldn't wait any longer. "Kathryn," I groan scooting closer to her.

She shrugs my hand away from her and stands from the edge of the bed. My eyes follow her to the living room. I roll my eyes and follow behind her. In here our facial expressions were no longer shadowed by the dark. In here, I could see and feel her fear and sadness. "Tell me" I hiss softly, sure not to scare her.

Her once warm soft eyes land on me, broken, tired, boring. It broke me. Seeing her like this hurts me so much. "Who did you call? Who have you been sneaking around with? Are you cheating on me?"

Hurt was seen all in her eyes before she masked it. "Why would I cheat on you Casey? You know I love you."

I shrug my shoulders, "It's the only thing that makes sense! I thought maybe Rai was back but you would've told me. Just tell me what's going on with you! You're so jumpy and scared. What happened Kathryn?"

Kathryn averts her gaze and anger takes over. I grab her shoulders roughly, "What aren't you telling me?"

"Casey, you're hurting me." I quickly let her go and take my anger out on the pillows of my couch. I throw one across the room and glance at the brunette. "A healthy relationship is built on trust and communication. Kathryn, I'm trying, do you not trust me? Why are you shutting me out?"

Tears welled in my eyes as I glare at the woman. "A relationship consists of two people and lately it feels like it's just me here. Why are you dating me if you're tired of me? What did I do to you? Do you hate me so much you rather just sting me along making me think you still love me?"

By this time tears are streaming down my cheeks and I'm fighting myself from looking away from the beauty. She just looks away. "And now you're playing victim! I can't continue feeling sorry for you when you're sabotaging your own relationship. I knew 3 months was too fast. You're already out of it."

I continue to let my anger out but she doesn't say anything. "Kathryn, I'm breaking up with you! Do you not care at all? Will you seriously not fight for me? For us?"

And once again, she doesn't say anything. Making my way to my door, I open it. "Get out Kathryn. Just go home" I hiss keeping my eyes on the floor. She does as I ask her, breaking my heart with every step she takes. Does she really not care?

- - - - -

The events of last night felt like a dream, but my heart knew it wasn't. Even though it happened over 12 hours ago, my heart was still breaking. I spent the whole night staying awake, wondering if maybe I was overreacting. I felt like I was being immature with my actions. I shake my head and join my friends in front of the school.

"Whoa Casey... you look like shit" Duke jokes throwing an arm over my shoulder. I let out a sarcastic laugh and nod my head, not really in a joking mood. I wasn't going to get over this, was I?

Sighing, I glance at my friends. "I have some news..." I mutter rubbing my neck. They all glance at me, waiting for me to spill the beans. Before I can get the words out, we're all called towards the busses. I push the break up to the back of my head as I think about this trip.

My smile immediately fades as Mrs. Evans agrees to buddy with a female student. I groan internally and try to hide behind Jasmine or Desire, either or would work. "Kings, you're with Mrs. Evans," the vice-principal says causing me to facepalm myself.

Just when I thought I was safe. What if Kathryn already told her? What if she was going to kill me because I dumped her best friend after she told me I was the best thing that happened to her. Once the Vice-principal was finished with whatever she had to say she let us get onto two separate busses of our choosing.

I decided to ride with my friends, of course. That way if Emily tries to attack me with questions, I'll at least have Edwin there to back me up.

"Are you done daydreaming or are you getting on?" Emily questioned causing me to yelp. I nod my head, timidly and get onto the bus, parking my bus in a seat close to Edwin. Mrs. Evans takes the seat on side of me.

I thought my heart was broken and incapable to beat again, but sitting right here on side of Emily, my heart was doing a bunch of tricks against my ribcage. Sweat was beginning to form on my forehead as I kept my eyes outside the window.

If I don't say anything, will she possibly leave me alone?

- - - - -

We had been traveling for 5 of the 13 hours and of course, the majority of this trip is all TEXAS! Then the other 8 hours were spent on the other 4 states we had to pass through, with Florida taking at least 3 hours. Math wasn't necessarily my thing, but the closer we get to Tampa, the quicker I can get away from this blonde.

But we took a break. Several students had to eat and use the restroom, myself included. I head into the restroom, groaning at the line which was mostly my classmates. Mrs. Evans stands right behind me and just behind her were Desire and Jasmine.

"Casey are you okay? You've been acting weird for a while" Jasmine comments causing my body to tense up.

"Yeah. If I knew you were so afraid of traveling, we would've just let you stay home with Ryn" Desire teases. I swallow the lump in my throat and suddenly we're the only 4 in the restroom. Where the hell did the line go? We weren't even talking that long!

"Ryn?" I scoff and glance at Emily who was eyeing me curiously. I chuckle nervously, scared of what she might've heard. She might see me as the bad guy, but she had to understand my point too. I didn't get into a relationship just so I could be kept hidden in the shadows. Kathryn is a teacher, I get that. I get her wanting for our relationship to be secret because it could jeoprodize her entire life.

But not talking with me. I tell her everything. You think in one situation, she'd at least have thought about telling me something. At least given me a hint instead of remain quiet. I let out a breath and face my friends with sad eyes.

"W-we broke up" I stutter. I clench my jaw, waiting for a response.

The realization hits me even harder this time. There was no turning back. There was no talking to her. I broke up with her. I severed this relationship. But she was also helping me come to that decision. And yet, I feel like she's the one who dumped me.

Emily lets out a breath and exits the restroom, no word to share. And since I severed the relationship I had with Kathryn, maybe that means Emily and I are no longer friends. It hurt my heart to think about.

"Who broke up with who? Was it mutual? Or did something happen?" Desire asks, sincerely.

I hang my head, "I broke up with her. I... I broke up... with her" I cry as I eye my friends sadly. The two pull me into a hug, allowing me to let it out. I probably just broke so many relationships. Kathryn, Emily, Sophia, Cane...

- - - - -

I woke up panting. My eyes move all around the bus finding most kids either sleep or on their phones. It was dark out, you could barely see the road or the railing on the sides. You were lucky enough if a car cam passing by. I unlock my phone, not surprised by the lack of notifications. I place my head on the back of someone's chair.

I fucked up. I royally fucked up.

"We're in Alabama right now. Only about 5 hours left on this trip. When we get to the hotel, we need to talk in private" Emily whispers on side of me. I glance at the woman, whose eyes were closed, her head pointed away from me. Bringing my eyes back to my phone, I make a mental note to avoid the teacher beside me at all times.

Talking in private could not be good. Not good at all. I turn my music up, blasting Hayley Kiyoko in my ears. The song playing at the moment was Feelings and it was causing me to feel like shit 100 times more than I already was.

I probably should've taken a relationship class before I just jumped into one. Falling in love in 3 months? That's unrealistic, we were bound to break up. Maybe not this early on but it would've eventually come. I sigh, this was also our first argument as a couple, before things went completely downhill.

Groaning, I glance over to Edwin and Duke, wondering if Jasmine and Desire already broke the news to them. Though I much rather they hear it from me, since it's my business to tell, I think I want Jas and Des to say it instead. I could already feel everyone's disappointment.

Kathryn and I were the perfect couple. Obviously, that was only a visage. Because we weren't perfect at all, we're broken.

Would my parents feel the same disappointment I can feel coming from Emily? My mom was just coming to accept us together. Finding another girlfriend could possibly be worse, she'll have to get used to a new face.

My face falls. I move out on the 31st and I knew living with her was no longer an option. Back to plan A. There was so much to think about. Moving out, prom, graduation, moving to California for college. Maybe by then I would've gotten over my 3-month relationship and had another girlfriend.

Diana is the first person to come to mind. Maybe I would make her happy instead and she would make me happy as well.

I shake my head once again, my heart breaking at the thought of my lover being none other than Kathryn Howard. Maybe we would've gotten over this little break and she would have told me everything.

My mind is clouded by what-if and buts for about an hour before I forced myself to get sleep. By the time I'm waking up, the sky is darker. Glancing at my phone I realize that it's 9 pm. We should be arriving at the hotel by this time or there. I glance out the window to try and see better.

"Wake up sleepy heads, we are in Tampa Florida" the vice-principal yawns. Everyone stretches in their seats, ready to get off this bus and possibly stretch their legs. Being cramped on a bus for 14 hours or more is very uncomfortable, especially when you only make one or two stops.

The bus pulls into a parking lot and to our left is the hotel. A few kids cheer, excited to get into an actual bed. Luckily for the teachers, it wasn't many of us. This may have been a senior trip but there were a lot of seniors who obviously wanted to spend more time at school than in Tampa, Florida. In my book, we call them idiots.

We step off the bus and I lean onto Desire sleepily. Unlike my friends, I spent most of this trip overthinking. Duke and Edwin lean onto each other causing me to smile. "We're in Florida guys! You know what that means?" I question excitedly.

"Beaches?" Jasmine questions. "Yeah that too, but women. Hot Florida women. Most women here are crazy but you get in where you fit in."

Duke and Edwin furrow their brows in confusion. They glance between the three of us, lost for words. I can tell by their face that Jasmine and Desire, definitely did not spread the news. I force a smile and grab Duke and Edwin's shoulder. "Your girl is back on the market."

"What market?" the idiots question causing me to groan. I had to be specific with them for them to understand such a simple statement. "I'm single guys. No longer in a relationship."

Edwin's face falls and slowly followed behind is Duke. "What happened?" Edwin questions. He moves towards me as if he's going to hug me but I stop him. I blink my eyes to stop any tears from spilling. "If you were dating some other broad like Desire, I would have been happy for you, no offense Des," Duke says looking apologetically towards the dark-haired girl. She waves off his comment and he continues.

"But Casey, this is Kathryn. There's no way you're ready to move on. How long ago was this?"

I eye my friends. "Yesterday night. You guys know she's been...skittish and really secretive. I was being calm and patient for her expecting her to tell me when she was ready. But I can't wait months until she decides to tell me. I--" I pause before opening my mouth, no words falling out.

Taking a breather, I glance down at my feet. "I blew up at her. I couldn't take it anymore. I wanted answers, I deserve to know. It's been feeling like I'm the only one in the relationship for the past two weeks. I couldn't take it any longer. So I dumped her in the heat of the moment. And trust me, I've been overthinking that this whole trip. So if you guys have anything to say please hold it back because I am already killing myself over this. I love her, okay. I... I just don't want to think about it for the rest of this trip."

The four of them nod their heads, understanding I needed space from the topic of Kathryn.

We head into the hotel and immediately we're broken off into groups. Luckily, I get to be with my friends... sadly Mrs. Evans was also over this group along with another. She was now responsible for us. Whatever happened from now until the end of this trip, would be her responsibility. I sigh as they hand us the keys to our rooms.

There are two to a room but I beg the vice-principal to allow me to stay with Desire and Jasmine because it would be inappropriate for a teacher and student to share a room. Avoiding Mrs. Evans just seemed like it would be easier done than said.

We enter our rooms, Edwin and Duke just across the hall from us. I set my things down on the chair before glancing at the beds. "Which one of you lucky ladies get to sleep with me?" I question landing on a bed.

Desire glances away from me and to Jasmine, pushing her forward. I gawk at her reaction. I was sure she would be jumping at the idea of getting to have me closer to her and in bed. I shrug my shoulders and scoot to one side of the bed, allowing her to lay down. She sits on the edge of the bed before glancing back at me.

"I know we should probably look around or something but I'm tired. You guys can go on without me if you want."

The two of them shake their heads. "We already told the boys we would just stay in and watch movies and go to sleep. You're fine" Jasmine reaches over to touch my hand. I throw her a small smile and nod my head. I kick off my shoes and take off my jacket, getting comfortable under the blankets and allowing my mind to drift off into a deep slumber.