I talk to Justin for a while and we have a lot in common actually, he reminded me of Gabriel if I'm going to be honest. After a while he leaves and I sit back in the bench and look around and see Juliet walking towards me. I look away from her and stare at the ground.

She sits next to me our shoulders touching, I immediately felt the heat off her body and i forgot about the cold. We sit in silence for a few minutes not looking at each other but in a comfortable silence.

"It's hard to trust when all you have from your past is evidence why you shouldn't." She says and I look at her.

"I don't trust anyone easily, I hardly trust at all. You don't just trust someone, you build trust. You give a thousand and more reasons why I should trust you, you proved to me I can trust you. I trust you. You are one of the only people I trust, you are the only person I trust that isn't my blood. I don't even trust max or Katie, I love them so so much but they don't give me reason to trust them. You don't have to trust someone to tell them things, you can tell someone your deepest secrets without trusting them. I trust you because you give me reason to, you never leave my side even when you have your little tantrums you always come back and love me more then ever. You are one of the only people I can be myself with and feel safe around. I still get scared, about stupid things I know deep down won't happen. I know you won't leave me but I'm scared in case it comes to the point you don't have a choice and you leave. I'm scared one day you'll realise you don't love me anymore and tell me we need to separate. I'm scared because the thought of losing you makes me feel lost, you are my home Spencer and without you I wouldn't have anywhere to go that feels the same. I don't think I've ever felt so safe around someone till I met you, it still surprises me how safe I feel around you. I feel like i can survive anything. I love you and I always will." She says and looks at me her eyes tearing up and so were mine.

"I'm sorry." Is all I say in a whisper and I wrap my arms around her.

"I'm sorry too, for ruining our anniversary." She says and I laugh.

"You didn't ruin it, I did by storming off and not talking to you." I say and she kisses my head.

"You didn't ruin it, it's not over yet." She whispers and I look at her.

"Let's go and watch scary movies all night and we can order food from the hotel." She says and I smile and stand up and she takes a jacket out of her bag and hands it to me.

"Thank you." I say and she nods.

She holds out her hand and I take her hand, she holds up her other hand opening and closing it telling me hand something over. The cigarettes.

I huff and open my purse handing them to her and she smiles and puts them in her bag. I close the jacket on me and we walk hand in hand back to the hotel.

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Me and Juliet showered and got into pyjamas and I laid back in her chest reading as she watched the tv in the hotel room. I slam the book shut and sit up.

"What's wrong?" She asks and I turn and look at her.

"My heart is shattered Juliet, the book broke me." I say and her eyebrows furrow and she start smiling.

"It's a book Spencer you'll get over it." She says still smiling and I look at her tears filling my eyes.

"It's not just a book Julie, read it and you'll understand. Evelyn Hugo deserved better." I say and wipe my tears. Juliet smiles and takes the book and puts it on the night stand next to the bed.

"Let's go out on the balcony." She says and I run my eyes and stand up walking over to the sliding door and open it before walking out on the small balcony. There was a table and chair but I lean against the railing. Juliet comes behind me wrapping her arms around my waist and puts her chin on my shoulder. We stand there for a few minutes before Juliet stands back and I look at her.

She pulls out the packets of cigarettes and takes one lighting it. She looks at me, she's up to something.

She walks back behind me pressing her front to my back and i look at her over my shoulder.

"Open your mouth." She says and I smirk and open my mouth and she puts the cigarette in. I take a drag and she pulls the cigarette out of my mouth and lifts my chin with her finger and presses her mouth to mine.

I open my mouth and she covers my mouth with her own, I blow the smoke into her mouth and she pulls back and blows it out. She smiles and sits down on the chair and I turn my back against the railing facing her. She leans her elbow on the table and takes a drag from the cigarette and i watch her. She looks back at me and I grip the balcony railing. She holds my eye contact and my heart beats quicker, after five years she can still make me nervous.

"Come here." She says still looking at me and she squishes the cigarette on the table. I immediately obey like I was under a spell and walk over and she puts her hands on my waist and sits me down on her lap facing her, I put my legs on either side of her waist so my dress rises up my legs.

I look at her and she turns her head slightly and kisses me, her hands go from my waist to my thighs and she squeezes them. I kiss her back slipping my tongue into her mouth, she hums and he tongue goes along mine slowly. I needed to clamp my thighs shut but I couldn't so I deepen the kiss and put my hands on her on the face, I moan into her mouth as she deepens into the kiss too. I arch my back against her and she slips her hand under my dress lifting it over my head. I pull back out of breath.

"What if someone looks up?" I ask her.

"Then they will get quite the view my love." She responds and I look down at her lips and kiss her again. She moves me off her lap and pulls down my underwear and I open her blazer sitting back down onto her lap. I slip it off her shoulders and her hands move down my stomach slowly and she keeps going down and starts massaging my clit slowly then stops and does it again and she keeps repeating, teasing me.

"Julie..." I pull back and look at her and she smirks.

"Don't tease." I huff and she looks down at my lips.

"There's lipstick all over you mouth." She smiles and I raise an eyebrow and she puts her fingers into me quickly and hard and I let out a loud moan of surprise and pleasure.

"That was evil." I groan.

"Worth it for the moan I got out of you." She smirks and presses her lips to mine again and moves her finger into me.

I could taste the sweet taste of smoke as I moved my tongue in her mouth, I bring her my hand around her back and unclip her bra. I take it off her and her fingers go back inside me and I move my waist a little bit. Our mouths move slowly and I massage her boobs, her fingers begun moving faster and I moan into Juliet's mouth and pull back from the kiss and rest my head against hers.

"Fuck Juliet please." I moan and start moving against her fingers, I bite down on my lip feeling my body heating up,not able to feel the coldness from the wind. I let go of my lip and my mouth falls open and I let out a little gasp and put my hands onto Juliet's shoulder and her fingers curl inside me.

"Don't stop." I moan and I hit my climax and squeeze her shoulders and she kisses my neck again.

She slows her fingers down and takes them out covered in my come. She puts her fingers in her mouth and I let out a heavy breath as she pulls her fingers out slowly and licks them.

"I want to taste you." I say and slide off her lap and kneel down on the floor waiting for her to say yes.

"Can I?" I ask her and she nods and stands up and I quickly pull down her pants and underwear and she sits back down. I slide them down her legs and put them down on the floor and open her legs. I quickly lean forward licking at her straight away. I move her legs up and open them more. I suck at her and lick quickly and her breaths get louder every time.

I stick my tongue deeper inside her to taste her more and she lets out a moan and I look up at her and her mouth was open and her hands were gripping the arm rest.

"Shit." She moans.

I suck and lick and her back arches up off the chair and her hand goes to my head. I keep licking inside her hitting the spot that makes her moan the loudest.

"I'm gonna come don't stop." She moans and keeps her hand on my head and I hit the spot harder with my tongue until she moans loudly and her muscles tighten. I take my tongue away then lick at her juices. She lets go of my head running her hand through my hair her leg falls down and she breathes heavy. I put my hand on the chair between her legs and lean up at kiss her. She grabs my neck and my waist pulling me onto her, I smirk and she crashes her lips to mine. Her mouth moves quickly against mine and I move my tongue against hers, both us tasting each other.

She picks me up and walks into the hotel room dropping me on the bed and sits on top of me.