Me and Juliet get home and I take out my phone and text Maria.

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I turn off my phone and go upstairs to me and Juliet's bedroom and take off my outfit and all the jewellery except my wedding ring. I put on one of Juliet's oversized shirt and one of her shorts and go back down stairs and Juliet laughs looking at me.

"Most of the closet is your clothes and you still wear mine." She says and comes over and kisses my cheek.

"Maria is coming over with Nadia and probably Tatum." I say and she nods.

"I'll go get changed." She says and I nod and go to the living room.

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Me and Maria both slap down the shot glasses and my throat stings a little but I grab the second shot glasses and quickly drink it then the third and put it down before pressing a hole in the beer can and put it to my mouth opening the top and chugging. Juliet and Nadia start laughing at me and Maria and I drop the can.

"Yes!" I put my hands in the air and Maria finishes the beer and huffs throwing it done on the coffee table.

"You cheated." Maria huffs and I laugh.

"How? Don't be a sore loser Maria." I say and she rolls her eyes and I smile. I sit back on Juliet's lap and Maria was still odd. She looks over to me and I stick out my tongue at her.

"Juliet tell her stop." Maria says and Juliet laughs and puts her hand on my thigh.

"Spencer stop being mean." Juliet smiles and I roll my eyes.

"She's just being a sore loser." I say and Maria kicks my foot and I huff and kick her back and Juliet lifts me and sits me on the other side of her.

"Would you both stop acting like children." Juliet says.

"She started it." We both say and Nadia laughs. Tatum didn't come, she went off with a hookup or something.

"You have such a shit playlist." Maria says and picks up the remote clicking out of my playlist.

"Do not disrespect my girl Lana." I say and lean over grabbing the remote off of her.

"Turn on something else." She says.

Like what? Drake?" I ask and she rolls her eyes. I roll my eyes back at her and turn on my other playlist and wicked games by Chris Isaak.

"Oh I love this song." I says lay down on my stomach leaning my elbows on Juliet's thighs. Juliet fixes my hair and the room goes silent only the music playing, I look and Maria and Nadia were on top of each other.

"Could they like not." I say and marks pulls back and holds her middle finger up at me.

Juliet leans over me grabbing the lighter and packet of cigarettes from the coffee table and she leans back putting a cigarette in her mouth and lighting it.

"We are going, I'll call you two tomorrow." Maria says and I hold up my middle finger and she rolls her eyes and they both leave and I roll over and lean my head on Juliet's thigh and take the cigarette out of her mouth and she blows the smoke down at me and I smile and put the cigarette in my mouth.

I take a drag and sit up and sit on Juliet's lap and blow the smoke in her mouth.

I kiss from her mouth to her ear and stop and lean back looking at the tattoo behind her ear. She sighs and I look away from it and look at her.

"I'll tell you." She says and I shake my head quickly.

"No. We are both drunk and I don't want you regretting telling me in the morning." I say and she shrugs and puts the cigarette in the ashtray on the coffee table.

"I won't be able to tell you when I'm sober."

"Then don't tell me, when you feel ready you will tell me when your sober. You don't have to tell me if you don't want to." I say and she shakes her head.

"I want to tell you now." She says and I sigh.

"What if you regret it in the morning?"

"I won't." She says and I nod and get off her lap sitting beside her facing her.

"Go on then." I say and she nods letting out a breath and she sits up and looks at me.

"I'm not going to go into too much detail. So...when I was sixteen and it was my sophomore summer before going into junior year and me and Grace got invited to a college party because we were in a open relationship and she kind of did her own thing hooking up with people of all ages. Anyway I agreed to go to the party with her and we went and everything was fine until a boy, a older boy. He definitely wasn't in college he could have been one of the college students dads I don't know, he offered me a drink so I accepted." She says and takes a deep breath and rubs her hands on her shorts and I put my hand over hers.

"He went and got me a drink and came back and obviously put some drugs in it because after I drank it I felt worse then drunk, my body felt weak and all I wanted was sleep. He acted surprised by it and asked me am I okay and I couldn't talk I shook my head then he brought me up to a bedroom and raped me. I didn't fall asleep during it, afterwards he left me in there and I sat on the bed crying for what felt like hours before one of the college boys came in and asked am I okay and I told him that I just felt sick and wanted to find Grace and leave." Her eyes start tearing up and I wipe the tears that fall down her cheek and I listen to her every word.

"He helped me find Grace and I was still crying my body still felt weak like I could collapse at any minute. Grace told me stop being so boring and that it was only this time or whatever so I told her I'm leaving and left the house and stood outside and called a cab. Just my luck another boy follows me out and starts flirting and I just say I want to go home and I'm not interested but he starts touching me and with the last strength I had in me I kicked him back but he fell and hit his head. He started bleeding and Grace walks out asking what happened and I told her and he denies trying to touch me and tells her that I just shoved him down because I'm crazy or whatever." Juliet laughs at the end and sniffles.

"Grace didn't believe me and I told her about the other man and she told me stop lying and that there wasn't any older men at the party. The cab came and drove me home, I couldn't shower for days and I didn't go to school. I couldn't touch my own body because I was so disgusted with myself for something that wasn't my fault. My mom tried talking to me and she had to force me into the shower and I broke down crying and told my mom everything and she called the cops. They didn't do anything. They said there's no proof and shit along those lines, my mom snapped and shouted at them and they still didn't try help or even act like they cared." She says and I nods and rub the back off her hand.

"I eventually went back to school, word got around I got in bed with a older man and that I was becoming a prostitute and selling my body for my money. It wasn't true and I told everyone that but nobody believed me, people came offering me money if I had sex with them. I told them no and people kept at me about it I got called a whore and horrible things and Grace broke up with me for a while over it but of course she came back and I went back to her. I eventually snapped and told them I was raped. They laughed Spencer. They laugh at me." She says and she starts crying even more and I wrap my arms around her before she leans back and takes a deep breath.

"Julie-"

"No wait till I'm finished, they all said I made it up so people would stop calling me a whore or a prostitute. I stopped going to school for weeks at once I'd go in for a day and my mom would have to collect me. My mom asked me was anyone bothering me and I told her no that I just feel sick or I have bad period cramps. One night I got a message, an anonymous message from a unknown number say 'Go slit your throat and wrists you slut.' I couldn't text back because it had no caller id it was just unknown. I couldn't believe it, I got raped and things only got worse from there, nobody believed me only my parents. Not even Grace. I went to the bathroom and noticed the boxes of tablets. I took a packet and took more then a handful of something I didn't even know what it was, I fill the mouth wash lid with water and threw the tablets back and drink the water swallowing them all. It didn't hit for a few minutes, I fell back against the bath, I felt my chest tightening up and my head was spinning like a merry go round. Then my vision went blank. After that I woke up in hospital, I had the worse pain everywhere. I was disappointed I woke up, my mom put me into a psychiatric hospital and I stayed there for about a week then I was able to go home. I moved school after that, soon later Grace followed. I never talked about it since then, I started fresh in the new high school and I just tried to forget about it." She says and I wipe a tear that fell from my eye and I wrap her into a hug and squeeze her.

"I am so proud of you. You are so brave Julie, I hope that asshole died and suffered in his last moments. I am so so so sorry you had to go through that and alone, people can be so cruel. I love you and I promise that will never happen to you again because I'll kick their ass." I say and she laughs still crying, she holds my face in her hands and kisses me.

"I love you too." She says and kisses me again.