What the fuck I should do to stop thinking about him? Arrow fucking Stanford.

I cant get him out of my mind since I last saw him. I miss him. In the last seven years I kept telling myself that I don't miss him that much. focusing too much in my work to stop thinking about him. But since I saw him it's like my hard work to move on and to not think of him go to waste in a seconds.

"Rose we are going to get late hurry up!" my secretary yell from the living room

"coming,"

I have a new project to do. It's a big one, that is taking place in Italy. I'm going to organize The Devil engagement party. He's a big business man in the city that stop at nothing in what I hear that's why everybody calling him the devil. Right now we are in my apartment getting ready to go.

"okay I'm ready. Lets go" I said walking to my door while looking in my bag to make sure that I have everything. Which made me hit a wall or so I thought.

"owww, my poor head" I rubbed my head where I hit it

"how many times do I have to tell you to stop looking in your bag while walking? You could get seriously hurt. " I snap my head up so fast that my neck hurt a bit when I haired his voice

"Arrow? What are you doing here? How did you get in?"

"your friend let me in" he point at Mia

"okay. We don't have time you need to leave and we should likely get going or we are going to be late" I push him out of the door with me and Mia behind him

"wait! Can't you give me a minute? I need to talk to you." He rushes after me. I stop walking and turn to face him to find him looking at me with hopeful eyes

"I told you that you are seven years late. If you don't have an excuse for every single month that went with you ignoring me, A very much good one, without the word coward or afraid come in it, then I'm going to lesson to you to the end. But if NOT then I don't want to hear anything from you or see you again. You didn't come when I was working so hard so that I can't think about you. You didn't come when I was trying to move on to stop me, believe me I would have got you back without a question ask. So don't come now and ask me back when I finely successes in moving on and trying to live my life. You don't have any rights" i hiss glaring at him.

"let's go" I turn around and walk away leaving him behind the same way he left me behind.

Everything after that went like a blur. The next thing I knew I'm opening my hotel room door.

"Rose? Are you okay? Do you want me to postponement our meeting to tomorrow?" Mia concern look made me realize that I'm shutting myself again without noticing. again.

"I'm sorry. Don't worry about me. I'm going to be okay after I take a shower and sleep a bit. When is the meeting?" I smile at her assuring her that everything going to be okay

"in four hour in the hotel restaurant "

"okay I will be ready and as fine as ever by then" I give her a last smile before getting in and close the door behind me. Like I said, after I woke up and take a shower I felt better and like myself again.

Meeting after meeting and putting orders to everything for everyone the whole day left me feeling so exhausting. Walking the street of Italy I can't help but remember when I first come here with Arrow.

FLASH BACK

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"are you serious? We are going to Italy?" smiling so big looking at him with eyes wide made Arrow chuckling at how childish I'm behaving

"yes. We are going to Italy for four days"

"oh my god, thank you, thank you"

"okay that's enough for now. Take the rest of the day off and go pack"

"okay. Thank you again" I left his office calmly until I reached my desk then I start dancing jumping and squealing.

"I was right. I know you were holding yourself back in my office " I jump startle from the sound of his voice, it always make my heart flutter

"sorry, cant help it" I turn my head to the side not making eye contact, don't want him to see my blushing cheeks. I cant believe I didn't hear him come

"don't worry. I always find it assuming when girls do that" he tell me smirking while leaning on the door farm.

"I'm glad to be your personal entertainment" I sarcastically say with my hands on my hips glaring at him

" no need to be mad. I will go away and pretend that I didn't just see you jumping and squealing around your desk. " he laughed holding his hands up, I was memorized by his laugh, it was the first time I heard him laugh since I worked here. And it's been one and a half year.

"if you weren't my boss and taking me to Italy the next day I would have hit you upside the head" I told him glaring at him playfully. It was the first time that we had a conversation that was not work related

"thank god I'm your boss then" he said smiling. We stood there smiling at each other until he clear his throat and turn to leave but not before telling me that I look cute while blushing. Which made me blush more

The next morning I was so ready to go. Wearing shorts with crop top and tennis shoes with only a pair of earrings and my watch as my only assessors.

We toke Arrow privet plan and in no time we were in Italy. The weather is perfect and the view is even more wonderful and amazing than anything that I have imagined.

"did I tell you that it's one of my dreams to come and make a life for me here. I always dream about finding a simple job at a planning events company. living in a small but cute little apartment that you can see the sea from it."

"do you want to be a planer events?"

"oh yes. After I finish school, I start my job hunting. But n body hire me so I start doing it alone. But after some time when I start to be a bit bigger my company start to fail because I can't run it right. I don't know how to say NO to someone. Or to tell someone that they are wrong. That what my dad told me, and of course he was right like always."

"but why did you come to me to help you? Why not a 'planner events' company?"

Before I could answer his question, the car stops in front of our hotel. And from there to the next three days we were from meeting to another. All business.

"Ella" before I could step out of his office Arrow call me. We just finish another meeting.

"yes?" I say in a low voice, turning around to see what he wants tired and in need of a shower

"did you go and explored the city or not yet?"

"no I didn't have the chance"

"we are going home the day after tomorrow twilight so take the rest of the day and tomorrow off to explore it."

"oh yes thank you" my face light up immediately, gone the tired and sad face it replaced by a big wide smile. I left quickly, changing my clothe for something more comfortable i hit the streets.

BUT it doesn't feel like I thought it would. Even with the exciting that I'm feeling right now I still feel like there is something is missing. Maybe because I could not share my excitement with someone.

So the next day I didn't do anything expect gathering all my courage to go ask my boss to come with me to the city.

So here I am standing outside my boss hotel room with my fist up in the air ready to knock but hesitate.

Suddenly the door open to relive my boss standing shirtless in front of me looking all hot and handsome.

"I was watching you for the last five minutes maybe more rising your hand and lowing it before knocking."

"i........ emmm....... I didn't mean to interrupt you...... emmm" I stutter but I didn't know If I was stuttering because he caught me or because he is standing in front of me shirtless,

"Ella. What do you want to ask me?" he raises his eyebrow

"I don't ........... emm ,...............you don't....."

"ELLA" he interrupted me sternly

"I want to go see the city and last night when I go for a walk it didnt feel right because I couldn't share my excitement with anyone so I come to convince you to take a break and come with me to city." I blurted

"okay"

"you don't have to if yo..... wait did you say okay?" I say shocked

"yes but only if we go as friends. I don't want you to call me Mr. Stanford or hold on something because you can't do it in front of your boss. Consider yourself with your friends."

"Are you sure because sometimes I tend to be a little crazy?" I hesitated

"don't worry. you won't be more crazy than my own friend. Nobody is"

"okay fine then. Go put a shirt on and lets go. Come on I don't want to be late."

"late? On what?"

"seeing the city of course. But let me warning you from now, once I made a friend he will always be my friend"

"so? Lets make a deal. When we are in the office of any place that work related we will be professional but when we are alone we are friends. How about that?"

"that sound perfect" smiling

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"I was wrong. You are crazy, crazier than my friend" he said hand over his heart with eyes so wide

"I told you. But that was awesome. I didn't know that they do this here" I look behind me where we just made bungee jumping.

" you are something ales. I cant believe that this wild childish girl is the same professional collected women that is in my office" he admit still in shock

"lets go et in there! I'm starving" I take his hand and pull him inside the little café

"I still cant believe that you made me do it"

" I didn't made you do anything"

"you don't have to I was scared shitless about you" I'm not going to even denied the blush or my heart bouncing in my chest

"thank you but you don't have to" I take my phone out of my bucket and open my bucket list and start looking for a bungee jumping so I cross it off

"what are you doing? You cant stop saying bungee jumping over and over?" he asked me after he order for both of us. we eat so much together that we both know what the other in the mood for it without asking

"I'm looking for it in my bucket list so I can cross it off it. Aaahhhaa here you are." I cross it off and turn my phone off and put it way looking up to see him looking at me in so much curiosity

"curiosity killed the cat "

"I don't care. What's on your list if you don't mind me asking"

"I don't mind we are friends after all. There is {skydiving, wining a bowling game because I'm so suck at it, going into an amazing advanture that can take about for the next fifty years, going in Paintball war, learning how to shot, kiking y father ass and nother 10 things}"

"you are something ales indeed" and from there on our friendship began

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I cant help but think about him while sitting here. Head titled back up to the stars in the sky, eyes close while the wind playing with my hair while the night singing his song around me. This is perfect.

I felt him before I saw him. But I didn't move. My smile didn't falter. I won't lie and say that I'm not happy to see him here. Or that I'm exciting that he come after me after everything that I said to him.

"I always liked watching you while you are in peace. With the softest and the most real smile on your face that to this day from the first day I saw it to this second still take my breath away and make my heart jump in my chest"

"Arrow please" I whisper. I turn my head opening my eyes feeling his eyes on me. "look up in the sky. See how far and beautiful the stars are" I miss him, I miss having his arms around me in moments like this

"I know that I did wrong and that I don't have an explanation to my lateness so I'm not going to beg for it. It's not arrogance I'm going to explain everything to you and I will admit that I was coward sometimes but I'm not going to waste another day without you. I'm going to do it in another way and hopefully you will agree with me and walk the line with me"

He stand up and walk around the chair, standing behind me hovering above me . a soft caressing on my cheek down to my neck to my shoulder tracing unknown shapes, like a feather on my skin heating every place it touch. I cant help but moan at the felling of his hands on me. opening my eyes looking up into his eyes. Blue like the ocean. lust and love shine in them

"and what is this other way?" I feel if I speak in a louder tone than whispering that the moment going to be ruined and I don't want that. It's been so long since I last been this close to him

"we are going to start over my love" he said before kissing me softly but deeply and then he start waking way. I sit straight looking after him " why now Arrow? More impotently why after four years of working for you, you didn't make any move until it was too late?" I shout

"because I was awake" he told me like I should understand but when he see the confusing in my eyes he add " when I was sick and you slept in my house for the first time. I was awake when you come to check on me. I heard every word. And it was like a green light for me to make a move. I hope you still have that love in your heart for me because mine is not gone. See you soon my love"

I sit there with my jaw on the flour looking at him walking away. Did he just say that he love me.

Oh I swear you could see the sparkles in my eyes from far away. Grinning like an idiot

Now I have no doubts not one small one in my heart that he will come back to me. I just got my man.

I will always hold your love in my heart. Without it, it wont beat.