"what do you think?" I asked Jack smiling brightly

He was looking around with his mouth wide open, I change the living room in our house to be somewhat a place to camp in it. I put the tent in front of the fireplace and put a blanket and many billows in it, with some junk food and a pizza on the side for later.

"wow" he turn to me after the shock of what I have done begin to sink in. "what all of this? When you did this? And where you find all of this?" he asked all at once grinning

"this is our camp. We were going to go camping before all of this drama begin, so I thought we could do it now" I take his hand and lead him to where the tent is and get comfortable on the blanket and billows. "and I found all of this in the corner of the garage."

"thank you. It's really great" he tell me smiling and put his arm around my shoulder pulling me closer to him.

"you are welcome. But it's not just for you I kind of need it to soooo." I tell him blushing

"well in this case. We aren't doing anything besides talking, eating and be with each other." Jack said softly coming closer to me and pulling me on his lap

"can't disagree with that. I love the idea." I said before ending any space between us with a kiss.

That night was the best night I remember in my life at that time. I was in cloud nine.

That moment was months and days before I know that I was living in his dreams. Before I found out, I was living another girl life all this time. Before finding the biggest lie someone has ever lie to me. It was months before I found out about his biggest secret and my biggest fears.

Now I'm setting on a branch in a park I don't know where it is, thinking about all the moments that kept changing my life. And the worst part is that I don't know if it was for better or for worse.

The day I found about my meds I decided not to tell him what I found until I was in my right mind. I didn't take it for three days but nothing happened in those days. He kept treat me like a queen and as if I'm the best person on this earth and I still didn't have my memory back.

But in the fourth day and the fifth days my memory was back in full force that come with the worse headache I had.

In the mean time I couldn't help but notice how Jack was acting. He was always complaining of a headache, and sometimes I found him drinking his medicine like water. Moreover, the dark circles under his eyes are getting worse.

Overall he was acting like his old self again. Like when we were in high school. Every day after I get my memory bake I couldn't help but find my relationship with him is getting more and more like it was in high school. We were building a friendship between us. Without me notice I get my best friend back. And the moment I realized that, I didn't know what to do. .after all I don't want to lose my best friend again.

It was after a week and half that I couldn't take the confusing any longer and decided that I need to confirm him.

But what I didn't know is that every secret in this house will be on the table to be read that night.

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Flash back

"Scarlet where are you?" I shout at the three years old girl who I have to babysit.

My friend is going on a date with some guy she knew, she was so stress about leaving her daughter with someone she didn't know because her babysitting is sick so she can't make it. So being the good friend that I am I told her I will do it and that she didn't need to worry.

But now I'm regret it. I was tired from running around all day and now I can't find her anywhere.

I get to my room to see her on the floor sleeping. Oh thank god. I was about to do some happy dancing but stop frozen in my place when I see the meds bottle on the floor next to her.

"oh my god. Oh my god. No no no no " I quickly go to her to see if she was still breathing. I sigh in relive when I feel her breath. Then quickly I run to my car with her and the bottle in my arms.

After five minutes, I was in the ER screaming for some help.

"what is wrong?" I think a doctor ask me while checking her. She open her eyes looking around her then put her arms around my neck and return to sleep. I stay still wide eye watching her.

"I think she take some bills from this meds. I found her sleeping on the floor." I was speaking quickly but I think he understood because he ask for the bottle. Once I give it to him, he look at me with pity in his eyes.

"what? What is t?" I asked afraid of the answer

"don't worry it's properly nothing. Did she wake up when you put her in her car seat before you come here?" he asked calmly

"yes?" I look at him waiting for him to tell me what's wrong

"then it's fine. I don't think she toke any bills from your meds. I think she fall a sleep while playing with it seeing that are most of the pills are broken in half or in pieces. But we are going to let her here for tonight in case I was wrong. I will let the nurse to take you to one of the room." He said smiling at me then calls a nurse to take us like he told me. I sigh in relive and hug her to me tightly. I don't know what I will do if something happened to her, I love her so much.

After we settle in one of the rooms with Scarlet sleeping on the bed i remember to call her mother, I don't want to scare her but she should be here with her daughter.

I get out and set on one of the chairs outside her room beside some girl with weird hat on her head.

"nice hat" I said to her smiling.

"thanks" she said a bit awkward touching her hat

I take my phone out and ring to scarlet mother. "hello?"

"hi Emma. I'm sorry to interrupt your date" I said

"it's okay, we are coming home anyway. Why is something wrong?" she said uneasy

"it's nothing series but we are in the hospital. I found Scarlet sleeping beside some bottle of my meds and I didn't know what to do so I take her to the ER. But the doctor said that she is fine and everything is great but they need to be sure so they want to let here tonight." I said quickly in one breath so she won't be afraid but I don't think she will be fine until she see her daughter great and laughing.

"oh my god. We are on our way." She said then hangs up.

I breathe out slowly looking at the bottle in my hand. This is all my fault. I can't believe that I let the meds on the night stand. I should put them away when I let her in my house. I know that Jack always leave them on there. God I fucked up. thank god nothing happened to her.

"I'm sorry but I couldn't help but note the name on the bottle." I look up to see the girl looking at me smiling sadly.

"what?" I don't understand

"I happened to know this meds very well. In fact I take the same." She said and pull her hat down reliving a hairless head. Oh my gad.

"oh god. I'm sorry." I said to her

"it's okay. I moved on. It didn't affect me like before. But here." She handed me a paper. I look at it in confuse.

"I'm sorry if you don't want to go it's fine but that's what help me to be okay with it. If you like to come we will help." She tell me smiling. I was going to ask her what she meant when someone call her name.

"thank you." I tell her in the end before she gone.

I look at the paper in my hand and see what it is about, But what I read shock me. A support group for brain cancer patients. What? I look at the bottle in my hand and fell my heart fall and break in many pieces. No NO NO. this is not happing.

"ROSE!" I look up to the sound of my name with tears in my eyes.

"what's wrong? Where's Scarlet?" Emma asked scared and I felt guilty for scaring her like that.

"don't worry. she's okay she's sleep in this room" I point at the room

"then why are you crying?" she asked uneasy

"because I just found out that .... I'm sorry I need to go. I'm sorry about Scarlet." I tell her and go.

I didn't know how but I found myself in my home looking at all of the medicines in here. I call my sister and asked her to tell me every one of them is for what. in the end I was a complete crying mess. And that's how Jack find me when he come home.

"Rose? Rose what happened? What wrong?" he asked walking to me

"don't. don't come near me you son of bitch" I said glaring at him

"what? What did I d..... oh" he stop him elf when he saw my meds.

"oh. OH" I scream at him.

"you selfish asshole. I love you. I was going to do anything for you and you do this." I walk to him screaming

"you brought me back to break my heart all over again. Is it fun to see me shatter in front of you? Does it look good to see me break down in front of you." I shout

"baby wait I can explain" he said desperate to let me understand him

"Explain. Explain what? That you threat me, my friends and family then drug me and take me with you. That you let me live a complete different life, without anyone with me except you. Ha. Explain what?" I said pissed at him. I was crying and sob escape my mothe when I see the tears in his eyes.

"and you know the worst part" I said laughing without humor. "that I forgive you. That I saw my best friend again in his straight mind. That I was going to let my family know that I'm with you and that they should accept that."

"what?" he said dump found

"oh, I didn't tell you" I smile at him " I know. I KNEW. I have known since week and half ago. But I'm here. I'M STILL HERE. I was angry and upset at first but then I saw how you treat me and how you said I love you to me. And like the stupid girl I am I forgive you. I said that you are back. I have my best friend back. But NO you wouldn't have it at that would you." I become tired, set on the bed, and start to cry all over again

"I have to go and found out that you are dying and you don't want to do anything about it" I glare at him

"oh" is all he said siting on the floor against the door farm

"that all you have to say?" I tell him

"I'm sorry" he tell me with tears in his eyes. We were sitting in silence for a few minute before he start talking.

"do you remember how my mum die?" he suddenly asked softly. We both were tired and any energy left in us is leaving slowly

"breast cancer" I answer softly

" I was diagnosed with cancer the first time when I was four, it had the doctor and my parent have to tie my and hold me to bed for me to take the chemo. After a while, I was clean from it. I was so happy not because I'm cured but because they won't force me in that bed again." He look at me sadly then continue

"but I think my wish to never be on that bed never come true. Because I was diagnosed again with cancer when I was 16, and I beat it again. But because I take a lot of chemotherapy, or because of the surgery or I don't know, I start to acting strange and after a while I think I developed some issue, mental issues." He stands up and starts pacing around the room while I slip to set on the ground my back to the bed.

"i don't want to admit that I have them, I don't want to admit that I'm crazy. So I put all my focus in something, and that something was you. I love you back then I still am, but with my issue I start to be obsession with you, and in the mean time I start to hurt you. And start doing things I'm ashamed to know that I did it." He sit on his knees in front of me

"please forgive me, I did not relized that I'm hurting you until it's too late. Please I never would let anyone hurt you but I did and it hurt me to be like this" he start begging for me to forgive him

"Jack stop. I told you before, I forgive you. You don't need to beg. Please" I tell him crying, hurting to see the strong big man on his knees crying and bagging for forgiveness. I pull him next to me and hug him.

"It took me hurting you to see that I need to find help. And I did, after I get out of it, I start looking at you. Only to see you happy with a lot of people who care deeply about you all around you. So I stay away. And every now and then I would go to see how are you doing and what you did in your life. I saw you become successful women. But I couldn't stay away for to long. I want you in my life even if just a friend. Because I know that you love Arrow." Once he said Arrow name a new set of tears began. I miss him.

"then why don't you come. Why do you have to do this to get me? You know I love you and you know I want you back if you say you saw me. You would see that I missed you." I tell him softly

" no I don't know that. I don't know what your reaction will be after what I put you through. And when I saw that your father and brothers is making sure that I don't come near you. I thought to play the role that I make you all believe. I played the bad guy. And it work."

"why now you come? why not before?" I asked looking at him

"because like you said before I'm dying. I don't have much time. And I wanted to have you for myself before my time is up." he said smiling at me

"NO. why are you doing this? Why aren't you fighting it? You could beat it. please" I tell him breaking down for the third time this day.

"because I don't want to. I'm tired. Believe me I don't want to die, but I don't want to fight ether. I don't want to go through that all over again. Please understand." He said desperate

"but I wasn't with you before. I am now. Please I just got you back. I don't want to lose you again." Now I'm the desperate one

"I'm sorry, I'm so sorry. I know I shouldn't involve you in my mess"

"don't say that. I want to be here. If I want to go and leave don't you think I would have gone when I first found out? I love you. you won't get rid of me this easily." I tell him and go to kiss him

"you still okay with me touching you?" he ask me shyly

"I told you I know before. And I let you touch me all you want yesterday. So why not now" I tell him smiling shyly blushing.

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To be continue ......