The Yule ball had been approaching and so were your invites, you would get bunch of invites from so many boys, Some were creeps, Others shy. But, You would get so many you declined all of them. The problem was not that you could not find a date you did not wanted to go with any of them.

It was around this time you wish you could have gone to the ball with Tom. It was hard for you to believe you were having a crush on Voldemort the mass Murderer. It was like your heart didn't care your mind was telling different but your heart was telling a whole new thing. 

You, were officially convinced you had a crush and hopefully stay like that making excuses would be easy besides, if any girl sees him won't she have a crush? Falling in love is harder what excuse can be made to fall for a murderer? 

Who will even listen to an explanation it is sin!

"Y/N?" You turned to look at Luna.

"Hi, Luna." You sighed.

"You look distraught."

"I'm fine." You bluntly replied now that is something she would have known.

"You know hiding what you feel inside can lead to a lot of problems go talk it out to someone or something." Luna kindly suggested.

You thought about what Luna had said you had gone to the forbidden forest and came to the distant part of the lake.

It was mostly a cool climate due, to the shade and the waters. You walked up taking out your heels and walking to the lake feeling the cool water against your feet. You walked closer. 

"Here I am. Trying to figure out what is happening to me..." You started talking. "What I am feeling is this normal it is not. I'm afraid to fall in Love with the boy I've been seeing in my dreams from my first breath because he is Voldemort. I'd want to be with him but how can I? How can I? If I fall in Love with him ain't it considered a sin."

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In the Gryfyndoor Common room.

You were buzzy learning spells, for the Second task.

When you saw Harry sit next to you.

"Y/nwouldyougototheballwithme?" Harry said something you could not make out.

"Harry, take a deep breath and tell me." You said looking at Harry.

"Y/n will you go the ball with me?"

"Why not Harry?" You smiled.

The next day you, Hermione, Ginny and Luna were going to get dresses eventually you got separated from the girls so you decided to shop on your own this was your fourth shop and you found nothing you liked. 

"Y/n?" You looked to see your dad of course he would have been in diagon alley he comes here often "Hi dad I didn't expect to see you." You hugged him.

"Me, neither darling but how come your here?" Lucius inquired.

"I'm here for a dress."

"And..You couldn't find anything you like?" Lucius smirked. "You know there is one store most people don't know the dresses there are gorgeous shall I take you?" 

You nodded "Thank you."

He took your hand Disappiarating.

Lucius was right each dress was gorgeous than the other you were looking for something different 

you started looking through the dresses 

Your free to imagine what you like.

You picked the dress and showed your dad. "It will be lovely on you n/n darling." Your dad complimented he paid for the dress.

After thanking him you went back to the castle since it was in the late evening going to your dorm Hermione was waiting.

"Y/n finally we lost you in the crowd so what is your dress and your date?" 

"My dress is a surprise my date is Harry." You smiled.

"Harry? D-?"

"No, Mione I don't like Harry Romantically I like someone else." The words slipped.

"Who is it?" Hermione asked breathlessly.

Knowing Tom was Voldemort you could never tell them you like him so you lied.

"Liking meaning as a friend."

"Oh" Hermione groaned. "I really thought you had a crush." Hermione sat down on the dorm couch.

"How is everything going the second task is after the yule ball the very next day." Hermione asked furrowing her eyebrows you found out right?"

"Yes, I did I found the charms needed and the spells I'm not able to get Harry should I just tell him in the dance? Wait, does Harry even know how to waltz?" Your eyes widened.

"Probably not, N/N You should go warn him." Hermione suggested.

"Do you know where he could be?" 

"In his dorm."

You rushed to find Harry. You explained about the second task firstly and gave him a few hours on the waltz how to move and all. What would some people do with out you? 

You went to the dorm early to get some sleep.

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Y/n Pov

"Y/n come to me my angel come to me." I Heard a sweet tender voice a voice I can hear only when I'm asleep.

"Mother!" I called as I looked at her with tears "I wish you were here I really do!" I cried "with my endless thoughts consuming me, I can never be truly happy Mother, because I just count my problems." I chocked.

"I feel my dad Lucius there is something dark something is going to happen."

"I can't share what I am feeling inside without being judged."

"I can never sleep in peace without my head hurting from my thoughts and my dreams." 

"My dear Y/N,

It's ok it's ok to feel it's ok to make mistakes, Your also

an human 'The most powerful Black Witch' is a title of your

powers and not who you are. You don't have to be perfect it's ok

to feel. You have feelings, emotions, thoughts. I know baby I can hear how

your crying but be strong be strong. 

I know your problems are high but so are your spirits. I must go now darling. I love you.

"I love you to mother." 

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The rest of the night you spent by dreaming about Tom. 

The next morning you skipped breakfast still being full from the dinner you thought about what your mother said in your dreams a lot. Then you decided the most awesome idea or absolutely crazy. Today, let's see

-You had quite a few Classes, Full of lectures, Lectures you were already prepared.

-No, Home works.

-Your friends would be doing there own thing. 

Today was a lovely Thursday what great Idea did you have. You decided to take a day off from school.

-Sneak out of the school.

-To Hogesmade You thought you saw a forest and a beautiful lake might as well see how it looks without snow right?

-Some, drinks and good lunch would do and dinner oh you could have breakfast to.

Now since your pretty smart let's see what you maybe doing wrong.

-Not, Informing your parents, Uncle, Friends or anyone where you are.

-They maybe worried sick.

-Your parents may loose there mind.

But you had decided this day is for yourself. You got some cloths and changed and sneaked out the gates of Hogwarts and took a boat to the other end. You went to Hogesmade. 

You looked at the simple village, simple lives, simple people, simple thinking you were hungry you walked a bit more when you saw a cottage sort of area and it happen to be a bread store. The freshly made bread's aroma tickled your nose making you want to taste the breads. There were fresh milkshakes and everything was so peaceful and calm.

"Hello dear, oh my my the black witch." A lady with apron came.

"Hi, I would like to be called Y/n if you would not mind."

"Of course not dear so what brings you to the store?" The lady kindly asked with a warm smile.

"I walked in here and the freshly made bread smells so amazing, do you mind if I can get the bread with a mango milkshake and some loaf of bread and a few crossiants for home?" You smiled warmly back at her.

"Why not dear?" She went outside but she did not use magic she did it with her hands.

"Dear, I thought you would be at Hogwarts?" 

"I just felt I needed a break to get away from the hustle and bustle ma'am. So, I thought it would be nice to have some me time." You chuckled. "Life there can be so demanding."

"It's good to let yourself breath it helps."

"I couldn't help but notice nothing here is of magic the ambience is lovely, the smell, and even the way you don't use magic I love it."

"I love to cook it feels so good and magic can't get the taste when you do it with your own hands."

You smiled these days you don't get to hear that very often.

Thirty mins had passed with you talking to the lady. When she finally served you the food it was amazing. You enjoyed the couple of mins you had there after packing the crossiants and the fresh warm bread for your friends, family. You set off, 

The village was quiet as you walked by your own finally you let yourself relax. You found the beautiful forest as you wandered deeper into the dense forest. Until you spotted a calm peaceful lake glistening in the sunlight. With a beautiful waterfall the water was crystal clear. You took out your shoes feeling the soft, warm grass, touch against your feet. You looked at the water how about a swim?

You dived into the waters but wait what it was warm like a hot tub. Wow, It felt so good. The warm waters against your skin seemed to wash away your worries. After a quite a long time. You, decided to finally come out and just laid on the grass after drying yourself you fell asleep. You woke up and did not care to know the time it looked like in the afternoon? 

Being hungry you were going to get lunch.

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I really enjoyed writing this chapter remember to take care of yourselves and know that it is ok to take a break.