Avneet's POV:

I was sitting their on the hospital benches, sobbing and shaking violently. I saw Rits getting out of her breathe and Manjul consoling her gripping her on his body Arishfa and Lucky joined him consoling her, she was crying like a kid for his brother. Jannat, Anushka, Ashnoor sat surrounding me consoling me. It shattered me, I just wanted to see him again. He can't leave me like that.

"He will be okay Avneet, stop crying" Ashnoor said softly pressing my back in consolation but I was shaking with sobs.

"It's all my fault I should have responded, I should have stopped, I should have turned back" I cried breaking down for nth time that day. I buried my face in my palms.

"Yes he did that for you but that doesn't make it your fault" Jannat said embracing me.

Time flew, Arishfa and Lucky were gone as well as Ashnoor and Anushka they wanted to stay but I forced them to leave. Jannat and Bhavesh were with me while Ritika still crying in Manjul's arms. She was death scared. I didn't find that much care in his parents eyes like the one I found in Ritika's. It was 3:00 am. My eyes were drowning and dying to sleep but I couldn't sleep a pinch bit, none of us could, I was waiting for being allowed to meet him, to see him, to touch him. The doctor came with a nurse following him, me and Ritika immediately stood up. Our eyes glistening with hope

"Who is here for Mr. Siddharth Nigam ?" the doctor asked. The others stood too.

"The operation is done but he is still not out of danger, he has been badly injured in the head and also lost a lot of blood, he may gain consciousness in the morning. We would ask you to leave for now" the doctor explained. Nope! I'm staying here nobody can move me a bit! Jannat came and got hold of my arm I looked at her.

"Avneet.. Let's go" She said

"I'm not going.. I'm staying here" I said

"Avneet, you are sleep deprived come on let's go" Said Jannat in commanding tone.

"He needs me here!" I said in raised voice

"I know but he would want you to complete your sleep first" She said, okay now that's a valid point. I slowly nodded my head and she lead me out of the hospital wrapping her protective arm around my shoulders. As soon as we reached the college I got into my bed, Jannat was staying with me.

I am the worst human being in the entire universe, I am leaving this guy. Wow, He was happily sacrificing his life for me. I mean i have watched it in movies and read it in books, but someone doing that for me is so surreal I don't deserve any of this. I judged him and cursed him so bad without even knowing the back story of it. This guy already went through a lot and he still is ready to go through more for me. His words hit my mind "why does everyone I love leaves me? When I love them with all of what I have!" I winced thinking about it. I was a monster for leaving him. I squeezed my eyes and faced the wall.

I don't know when I was asleep the next morning I woke up my head rested on the headboard body crawled into a ball. I jerked up and saw Jannat still asleep. My mind reminded me of Siddharth being hospitalized, our call time was at nine 'o' clock and its eight now.

I hurriedly got freshened up and changed. Bhavesh was already awake so I asked him to take care of Jannat she was worried for me all night and didn't sleep much. I didn't even bother to call someone else. I just took a cab and rushed to the hospital.

As soon as I reached there the doctor was walking out of Siddharth's room. I was the first one to visit him. The doctor said he had gained consciousness at early morning and he just woke up. So I am free to visit him. I went inside and saw him bandaged.

He seriously had white bandages wrapped around his head, left and and left leg, the side he had used to protect me. His face had few cuts but nothing too deep. I slowly walked in, he was staring at the ceiling, his face brightened up as he saw me. He suddenly became happy and cheerful when his eyes fell on me, he grinned ear to ear. Or should I say bandage to bandage.

"Why did you do that?" I asked firmly demanding an answer as I stood in front of him with crossed arms.

"Anything for you Angel" he smiled, the one which was reserved only for me.

"Shut up, you know how scared I was? I thought I'd lose you forever and what not!" I kept ranting in anger, my eyes fell on him. He was chuckling.

"I love you Angel" He said and I blushed looking away.

"It's paining a lot right?" I asked looking at him with guilt in my eyes.

"It was before, but you came" He said brightly still smiling. Dig me a hole, anyone?

"You know what? Its all because of me. I shouldn't have storm out like that, I Should have responded, I should have understood" I hung my head low out of guilt, he used his bandaged arm, to lift my head up by my chin, his fingers were out of the bandage. I lift up my head, my eyes met the most perfect gaze.

"It's not your fault Angel. Its my fault, I should have told you when you asked me. I shouldn't have yelled at you like that. See now just because of me your knees are hurt that bad" He said looking down at my bandaged knees. I was wearing shorts that's why my bandage was visible. Wait... Did he just take all of blame in his head? Should I laugh or should I die out of guilt? He was guilty to hurt me when he is hurt and injured x times more than me. He's being a mad lover now.

"Lets not blame ourselves" I said avoiding any further discussion.

"Okay" He smiled and started at my bruised knees his smile turned to a frown "I am an idiot, I should have told you" He raged at himself .

"Then tell me now" I said hopefully,

"Yeah so.." He started

"You can avoid if you want" I assured placing my hand in top of his

"No. You have full right to know " He said and I nodded slowly, I sat on the bed beside his leg and he smiled.

"When I was 16 I went in drug abuse" He said bit looking at me. He was a drug addict?! Oh my god it's worse than what I thought.

"Did Vrushali.. force you?" I stammered a little and asked him recalling what he said when we left his mansion.

"Yes" He said still failing to meet my eyes. Okay I called it earlier.. SHE'S A BITCH.

"She's a bitch!" I spat, he chuckled. It had only slight bit of humor rest of it was hollow.

"I know, she forced me to take all those, I didn't take them on my own. She forced them on my body forcefully" He said in a hollow tone, he continuously stared at the wall lamp which was in the wall to his right.

"I believe you" I assured him keeping my hand in his exposed fingers.

"I didn't want to share because I was scared you would think bad about me, which you already do" He finally looked at me and a stray tear escaped his eye.

"I don't and it wasn't your fault, what happened then?" I asked tilting my head to have a better view of his perfect face.

"I became a drug addict and you know, no one cared about me being drugged like that" He spat looking at away, he let out another humorless chuckle. I frowned looking at him "I had a teacher who got me admitted to rehab, I'm still thankful to him my dad didn't even visit me there because that would have harmed his reputation" He said with a shrug. I was taken aback I mean what category of a father did he have. He had gone through all the possible messed up shit in the world.

"It's okay leave the past" I said . Well he had left but you asked him to go back you're an absolute idiot. I caressed his skin while wiping his tears. I will bring his dad here, he needs to know all this. I was determined. My hand reached his lip and he kissed it, as if he was waiting for it to go there. I blushed.

We talked for hours. Manjul, Ritika, Bhavesh and Jannat came, they joined our gossip. We really had fun. He was out of the grief of that dug abuse phase he had. I hate this Vrushali so much. The doctor informed us the he'll have to stay here for a week. After the visit hours ended we all got out of the hospital, I bided him with a kiss on the cheeks he was amused, shocked happy, he blushed and I could literally see it on his cheek. HE'S SO FREAKING CUTE

We all came out and started for collage, we reached there. I was asked to meet our Physics Professor, I am doing my minors in that subject, why did I even choose that shit. I took a quick shower as I reached my room, I dressed up a little formal. I reached the staff room and saw his table, he was doing something on his laptop. I stood in front of him and greeted him.

"Good Afternoon Sir" I greeted respectfully.

"Good Afternoon Avneet. Hope your doing fine after that incident?" He asked but didn't look at me he was still busy on his laptop.

"Yes Sir I am fine thanks for asking" I replied politely.

"What about Siddharth?" He snapped his head looking at me.

"Yes Sir he is fine as well, he has been hospitalized" I informed with a smile, at least someone cares.

"Good. The boy is quite weird" he commented. Okay never mind what the hell is that supposed to mean

"Yes Sir?" I asked confused

"Hmm nothing. So I called you here to sort out the groups" He informed ignoring the topic "You're with Riyaz"

"Sure Sir" I said hesitantly and walked out of the staff room. Well I like that guy, he's quite polite but what about Siddharth? He is not going to be here though and he didn't even react on Bhavesh. C'mon Avneet he obeys you madly, he surely won't deny you working with a guy.

"Hello" A male voice called me, I looked back and I saw Riyaz. He was nervously scratching the back of his neck.

"Hi" I said with a smile.

"We are on the same team I guess" he said nervously. Someone is scared of me, Okay not me. Its Siddharth's horror that is spread here like virus.

"Sid..SIdh..Siddharth won't mind right?" He stammered and asked nervously. His face had an expression which could make anyone laugh but I controlled

"No he won't" I replied with a smile. Whats the mater with taking his name?

"Oh thank god" he sighed in relief "So we will meet in the library tomorrow to find a project" he advised I just smiled and nodded. I decided to call the girls in my room. I walked through corridors to my room. People were murmuring things about me and Siddharth. I rolled my eyes at them and entered my room everyone was already there... Fast people.

"Are you fine now?" Reem asked carefully

"Do I look fine?" I said.

"No actually ..your knees look bad" Anushka chuckled .

"Hm I know . Its hurting actually" I said sitting on the bed. "you know he was blaming himself for all these and on top of that he was guilty of injuring me"I said casually chuckling a little they chuckled with me "This guy is really cute" I added.

"Yeah and you're leaving him" Jannat said making me guilty all of a sudden. Aashika frowned at me so did Ashnoor.

"I don't love him Jannat and he clearly needs someone who loves him truly not a psychiatrist like me. I am just giving him counselling in a different way" I explained but she wasn't convinced I didn't feel convinced either, why? No idea.

"Hmm leave all that" Jannat said .

"Yeah leave him I got a new crush!" Anushka squealed. We all gossiped, chatted, talked about Jannat and Bhavesh about Anushka's new crush. They left the room. I was tired so once I was on the bed I slept in a snap.

***

I woke up, I got ready and went out to get my breakfast. I saw Ritika in the worst mood possible, she was literally yelling and hitting Manjul at every instant. I feel pity for him. I remembered, I had to talk to Siddharth's dad. I have to take his number from her only. I walked to her table and stood there.

"Hey Rits can I get your Dads number?" I asked firmly

"Yeah but why?" she asked with a scoff.

"I need to talk to him" I replied

"Yeah Mannu give her" she ordered and started picking her nails. Manjul took her phone from the purse and found the number.

"Note it" he started "Its 686-465-003"

"Thanks " I smiled at him and turned to our table, the girl gangs table.

"What were you doing there?" Anushka asked suspiciously .

"Nothing. Just talking about Siddharth " I lied.

"OOH, someone is talking about him" Teased Aashika and I slapped her arm. Everyone laughed. We ate our food and i started for library I need to start working on our practical. They don't leave us even after exams. I called his dad

"Hello who is it" his father asked.

'Hello Mr. Nigam, I am Avneet, Siddharth's friend. I wanted to talk about him, he is hospitalized" I said politely but firmly. I was walking through corridors to go to the library.

"Yeah I know Ritika told me. So what? he is hospitalized?" He asked, I stopped in tracks and gritted my teeth. Mister! Your son is hospitalized! my dad would have stayed all day long in the hospital if Jai was sick but look here.

"So she didn't tell you about her, she met an accident as well" I thought of playing a game, this asshole needs to be played at

"What? How? When?" He freaked out. Like seriously? When I told him about Siddharth, he didn't give me that reaction then why now??

"She is not hurt but I really feel disgusted at you, he is your son right?" I replied him boldly

"Yes he is but I am ashamed of him, he is a stain in our name" his dad ranted "And i don't like this types of joke miss" he added.

"What stain? He is all lost after the diagnosis of your wife. He is the one suffering from psychosis? Do you care? He has suffered a lot. At least talk to him before calling him a stain. At least try and get to know the reality" I ranted, I was angry for real now "And not to mention, your second wife forced drugs on him" I said in a raised voice. The students in corridor stopped to look at me.

"Stop lying" He said

"I am not lying, She did. Before believing her talk to your GOD DAMN SON" I yelled before cutting the call. Everyone was standing very still watching me with wide eyes murmuring things.

"What? Do your work you assholes" I said angrily and everyone ran away doing their work. I went to library to meet Riyaz I still had to do this stupid project.

"Hey" I greeted him as I sat in front of him.

"You're late" he complained as he looked up from the book

"Sorry" I said sheepishly and he chuckled.

"Lets start" he advised. I nodded and got up to go to book shelves. I pulled out all the physics books. We had to make this project a perfect one! We started skimming through books.

"We can use this I guess" He said as he came toward me with a book in his hand.

"Umm let me see" I took the book from his hand and started shuffling the pages examining it. "Yeah this is it" I chirped. "Let's start with our project" I advised and we both walked to the table in front of us. We sat there and started noting important parts from the book. We were immensely busy doing work. We were going to prove that acceleration due to gravity is independent of mass and altitude, if no external force is applied.. Yes that shit.

Riyaz was a huge flirt of the college but in front of me he was behaving respectfully, let's say it's party because I'm Avneet, Siddharth's girl friend and partly because I'm Avneet who successfully broke two noses and eight limbs of two full grown boys.

"Ah Done" I exhaled as I closed the book

"We still have to prepare the presentation on PowerPoint, and then we have to get the equipment to perform it" he said dully.

"Hmm tomorrow at computer lab then?" I asked.

"Yeah but .." he started "Will you eat your lunch with me today" he said nervously.

"Sure why not" I agreed

"Okay so lets go, its already lunch time" he said. I nodded and we walked to the canteen. I gestured my girls telling them that I was sitting with him today and they shot a thumbs up. I went to his table. Rohit and Aaskash were there. They were scared when they saw me.

"Avneet. You must know Rohit and Aaskash I guess.. But this is Mrunal, and that one is Parisa my sisters they are twins" He said pointing at two identical twins. I greeted them all and sat down. Aaskash and Rohit were quite while Ritaz was being a joker. It was fun sitting with new people for a day Mrunal and Parisa were nice.

"Oh shoot I'm late I have to visit Siddharth" I said in a hurry as i remember I have to visit Siddharth as well.

"Bye" they all bided and I left the college for hospital. I reached there in few minutes and started for his room. I entered the room and saw a man sitting there already. Hey he is Siddharth's father. I entered the room and sat on the other chair there.

"Hi Angel" He smiled as his eyes fell on me. He just called me Angel in front of his father, I blushed.. I don't know why!

"So you were the one to call me?" his father asked.

"Yes" I replied nervously.

"Why did you?" Siddharth asked in disbelief.

"Yeah" I replied ignoring Siddharth.

"I want to hear it from you Siddharth. You should have told me all that before" His father said.

"As if you would believe me" Siddharth scoffed

"I want to hear it all from you Siddharth" his father forced the words .

"So listen . Yes . Your wife Mrs. Vrushali Nigam did force me to take drugs, she forced drugs inside my body even though I denied. And what was the consequence? I was beaten and she told you I fought with others. She made me an addict and left me and you didn't even bother to take me to Rehab and when someone did, you never visited me there. I was always neglected and the reason is your wife Vrushali" He ranted, venom dripping off his mouth. His voice was slowly rising with every syllable.

His father let out a huge breathe "I hope your not lying" his father exhaled

"Oh I swear I am lying" he looked away letting out a humorless chuckle and his father walked out of the room.

"Why did you even bother to tell him?" He asked looking at me.

"I had to" I caressed his skin

"I love you so much Angel" he kissed my hand as he gripped it in a firm hold of his bandage less. I didn't reply but stared at him I was lost in his eyes. I felt like swimming in those deep honey pools, I'd happily drown in them without complain "I know you don't and never will and I won't ask you to" he sighed "I should've died in that accident, right?" he asked abruptly pulling me out if stance.

"No. Not at all. Don't ever say that" I frowned at his words.

"Hmm" he said not looking at me. Something is really wrong.

"Siddharth, don't ever think of self harming alright?" I asked, what? I'm a psychiatrist I can read your mind.

"Why? Tell me one good reason to stay alive" he said.

"I am the reason" I said softly placing my hand over his cheek.

"You are Avneet but what am I doing in return? Nothing, Nothing at all, I am just troubling you" he said. Seriously nothing? Nothing? You tattooed my name on your arm, carved my name on that same arm, gave me the best birthday surprise, make me feel special all the time then why are you leaving him idiot? my subconscious mind asked me and I was speechless inside for a moment. Actually why am i? yes I don't love him That is the reason.

"Shut up Idiot" I said to my subconscious but a little loud making Siddharth feel like I said that to him "And yes you've done a ton more for me" I stated .

"HUH sure" he scoffed