"Keep protection on me everywhere I go but thats the life I signed up for yea I know, yea I know" I was in my room finally finishing up my school work for the week while singing along to Yea I know by Lil herb aka Gherbo.

I close my computer and get off my bed and I instantly feel dizzy as fuck so I sit back down.

What the fuck

My head started pounding and I immediately fall on the bed and start gripping on my head, wincing.

"OWWW" I yelled causing my momma to run into the room.

"Are you okay baby?" She walked over to me and realized I had a tear running down my face and im holding my head so she runs to get me some pain pills with warm water.

I take the pills and lay back down and she puts my cover on me and kisses my forehead before walking out of my room.

I try going off to sleep but I still had a slight headache and then I had to pee really bad.

I run to the bathroom feeling like I was going to pee on myself.

I must be finna start my period cuz thats the only time I be having headaches like this

I get up from the bathroom and begin washing my hands and then I hear my phone ring from the other room.

I dry my hands off and walk back into my room singing its Jaymar but I didn't answer.

🙄 @

I had texted him earlier and told him that I needed to talk to him and that he should come over.

What he said a few days ago in the car still roams through my head and I can't quite get over it.

"STOP ACTING SO FUCKING CHILDISH I TOLD YOU IM GON BE IGHT I KNOW WHAT THE FUCK IM DOING ION NEED YOU TRYNNA BE BY ME ALLA TIME I GOT MYSELF ION NEED YO FUCKING HELP"

Him saying that really had me feeling some type of way because all I try to do is make sure he's safe. Yea I was acting childish but its only because I care for his wellbeing and he knows that.

🙄

I slip on my slides and walk outside seeing his car park right infront of my crib.

He gets out the car and opens the car door for me and I try my hardest not to crack a smile because I loved when he did that.

I get in the passenger seat and he closed my door before getting into the drivers seat.

"How you been baby I missed you" He grabbed me by my face and tries pulling me into a kiss but I push him away.

"Riah what I do now" He smacked his lips saying.

"Its what you been did" I responded and he looks at me in confusion.

"Riah what is you talkin bout" He said looking at me with a mug on his face.

"Im talkin bout when you had me in that backseat and said you don't need me by yo side and how you only need yourself thats what im talkin bout" I replied popping my neck at him and he does a heavy sign.

"I told you ian mean ta say allat to you I was just stressed"

"So that make it better? I be stressed and ion take it out on you so wheres that same energy?"

"Riah ion got time fa dis"

"Ohhhhhhhh" I looked at him with a suprised expression on my face and felt my adrenaline rush.

Im finna beat his ass

No riah keep yo hands to yoself calm down

"SO- okay let me calm down" I began breathing in and out trying to keep myself from knocking this nigga head off.

"Look I know you stressed bout yo daddy and shit but don't take nunna det shit out in me. You do this shit alla time when some shit happen you just ex me out the equation like ion een matter" I said feeling a tear fall from my face and I hurry up and wipe it away as he looks over at me with a blank expression on his face.

"Riah..I told you I loved you and I meant that"

"BITCH I DONT CARE BOUT ALLAT LOVE SHIT IF YOU LOVED ME BITCH YOU WOULD SEE THAT WHAT YOU SAID TRULY HURT MY FEELINGS INSTEAD OF ACTING LIKE IT WASN'T THAT BIG OF DEAL YOU WEIRD AS FU-" I started spazzing and getting in his face and I was so close to hitting him in his mouth before he cut me off by grabbing me by my neck.

"Once again Riah...watch who the fuck you talkin to" He said in a serious tone still holding on to my neck while staring me in my eyes. Making my cat throb.

Whyyy do he gotta do this right nowwwwww im trynna be serioussss

I was so close to just kissing him and fucking my angry away but if I wanted to be tooken serious I was gon have to fight that urge.

I mush his face causing him to let me go and do a chuckle, like them lil laughs you do before you go off.

"And you not gon fix this wit sex this time bitch im done witchu" I open the car door and feel my hair get snatched.

"LET ME THE FUCK GO BEFOE I BEAT CHO ASS INNIS FUCKING CAR JAYMAR I SWEAR TO FUCKING GOD ON MY DADDY GRAVE" I balled both my fist up and felt tears come down my face.

"Why you trynna act like you ain did nun and you just so innocent I know you did some wit my cousin and you wasn't een gon tell me was you? Fuck out my cah bitch" He pushed my head out the car and closed his car door from the inside then just sped off.

I just stood there astonished, shocked, speechless. Never did he just flip the script on me like that.

I walk back in my crib mad as fuck and snatch my phone seeing that same bitch who I fought at that last party @ me inna post.

Im finna kill this bitch

I immediately slide up and ask her for her address because bitch fuck allat arguing whats the word hoe.

Im tired of these bitches constantly fucking wit me these hoes gon learn who ta play wit.

Where you trynna link at? Cuz youn een know whatchu talkin bout n dat lying shit gon get you hurt fr so wtw wya

@5:19pm

La_Royal

You just gon have ta catch me😘

@5:35pm

Then after she sent that she blocked me.

BITCHHHH

I immediately text Adrien asking him why the fuck she sayin we fucked when we didn't and how she even know sum happened wit us.

🖤

bro istg ian tell nobody the only person who coulda said sum is Hana that one girl u seen when you walked out my house bc istg ian say we fucked or nunna det

@5:37pm

I believe you

@5:40pm

yk where that Hana bitch live at or where that Other girl live cuz im trynna bump they really got me fucked up

@5:40pm

🖤

I know where Lamiyah live at you trynna slide on her rn

@5:40pm

Yea come get me

@5:42pm

Bet

@5:45pm

I was thinking bout making a post but ian finna explain myself to no fucking body.

Then that bitch is so weird. She the same bitch who was just under my post a few days ago wit heart eyes. The same bitch that boyfriend died because JAYMAR killed him and now she wanna- mannnnn this bitch can die.

Ian even mad about him finding out that me and Adrien kissed, im mad because bitches is lying saying I fucked him when I definitely did not.

"RIAH YO FRIEND HERE ASKING FO YOU" My momma screamed as I hurried up and put on my fighting shoes.

I walked out of my room and my momma noticed how I was dressed.

"Hollon hollon girl whatchu finna go do? I know you not finna fight" She had stopped me from walking.

"Momma look this girl got me messed up fareal she lying on my name and she constantly keep playin wit me and you even told me yoself ta don't let nobody play wit me"

"Hollon let me get my keys. Im only letting you fight this one time because you is right. Now cmon because I wanna know who dis bitch is and if her momma trynna fight too" My momma replied putting on her bonnet, house shoes, and her rob then grabbed her keys and we walked out the house.

Little do she know I been out hea beating bitches since forever

"You ready" James askes me as I hop in his car, seeing my momma hop in hers.

"You know I am" I dap up wit him and then they drive on the way towards Lamiyahs crib, with my momma following.

We arrive in the front of her house and I text her and tell her to come outside.

The only reason ian shoot this hoe windows out and kill her and her momma is because my momma decided she wanted to come and. So that Lamiyah hoe lucky she gon live ta see anotha day..for now.

She ain come out for a few minutes and I felt my head begin to pound again but I just ignored it.

Right when she steps outside I see her come out with the girl I seen at Adrien house when we had kissed. Which I ended up finding out was one of Jaymars old hoes too.

So all his hoes friends what the fuck

"Step inna street shordy" I motioned her as I walked into the street.

She walked over to the street with a big ole smile on her face like she was just finna beat my ass or sum. a

"Cmo-" She squads up with me and I immediately begin throwing punches at her face, not allowing her to finish her sentence.

I back up and then see she begins windmilling so I rush her again and she snatches me by my hair and I immediately grab hers and slam her onto the ground.

"Bitch yo-" I cut myself off as started throwing fast, hard punches to her face as I sat ontop of her.

"AYE BACK THE FUCK UP" I heard James yell as I continued throwing punches to her face.

"Get her off meee" Lamiyah cried out.

"GET HER OFF MY DAUGHTER SOMEBODY PLEASE" Lamiyahs momma screamed.

"YEA BEAT THAT ASS RIAH JUST HOW ME N YO DADDY TAUGHT YOU YEA" I heard my momma hype me up.

Next thing you know I heard random people coming out of there houses yelling for them to break it up and as they grabbed me off of her I stomped her head in.

"AYE BREAK THAT UP MAN THESE KIDS THEY DONT NEEDA BE FIGHTING" I get snatched up off of her and look up seeing its Jaymar and I immediately get to swinging on him, throwing punches at his face and he throws me onto the ground.

"THE FUCK IS YOU OUT HEA FIGHTING FO"

"Boy get the fuck up off her" James said pushing Jaymar off of me and helping me up.

"Lemme talk to you" Jaymar said reaching for my arm but I snatch it away.

"Go talk to him just go" Adrien whispered to me as he got in the car and my momma stood there watching us.

At first I hesitated and then walked with him into his car.

"The fuck do you want"

"Im so-"

"HA bitch I do not care" I busted out laughing in his face and he smacked his lips at me.

"I was just shitty when I found out but afta I left yo house I confronted Adrien bout it and he told me da truth bout allat shit that happened witchall and im sorry fareal" I just sat inna car not listening to shit he was talking bout.

"You not going nowhere I hope you kn-"

"Bye" I open the car door cutting him off and he snatches me by my shirt and yanks me back in the car.

"Don't make me put my hands on you" I looked over at him like he was crazy because bitch put yo hands on who?

"Yea ight" I responded cracking my knuckles to get ready to swing on him at any second now.

"You finna make me shitttyyyyy I just TOLD YOU IM SO-" I cut him off by snatching him by his hair and begin punching him on the side of his face. I instantly stopped when I seen he had whipped his gun out and snatched his head up with his pole pointing directly at me.

"YOU SEE DIS RIGHT HEA DIS ALL MINES" He screamed pointing at my pussy then back at my face with his gun.

"AND IF YOU THINK YOU FINNA JUST UP AND LEAVE YOU AIN IGHT SHAWTY?? AND DONT EVER IN YO FUCKING LIFE PUT YO HANDS ON ME LIKE THAT EVER AGAIN CUZ IAH BLOW YO FUCKING BRAINS OUT" He continued and I just looked at him shocked as fuck.

What the fuck did I just get myself into this is one of the exact reason why Iont fuck wit these hoods niggas man damn

"YALL COO RIAH YO MOMMA SAID HURRY UP" We both look over seeing James scream at the car and Jaymar looks back at me for a split second before putting his gun away.

"Get the fuck out my cah" He told me as he pulled some weed out of his pocket.

"Yea I am bitch, outcho life too" I said hurrying up and getting out the car as I seen him break his neck at me from what I said.

I slam his car door and walk off towards my momma car. Then I seennat bitch Hana trynna walk up to Jaymar as he got out his car to talk to Adrien.

"Bitch get the fuck away from me" Jaymar said pushing her back and I immediately run up behind her cocking my hand back and hit her in her head. Seeing her head bounce back and then I spit on her.

James steps inbetween me and the girl and he helps my momma take me back to her car.

"Stupid bitch lie on me again AND GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM HIM HOE" I said and she just held her head and walked back into Lamiyahs house.

No, I don't wanna be wit that bitch nomo and no, I don't wanna see no girl walking up on him or with him ESPECIALLY a opp bitch.

Yes, I still love that bitch even tho he just threatened my life but no, I will not continue to fuck wit him

Imma lose love for him real quick though..I already feel it fading away

I got out the shower and walked back into my room feeling way more exhausted then I usually am after I fight and my head was pounding.

I decide to post a part of me and Lamiyahs fight on my story quoting, "This what happens when you lie😞 now im done beating you bitches up im finna start upping blick on you hoes cuz beating yall ass clearly ain enough".

⬇️

Then I immediately fall off to sleep.