For the past few days all I been thinking bout and trying to figure out is who killed my pops. Ian been talking to nobody and barley been leaving my house.

Depressed as fuck I hate this shit

I laid back on my bed, playing doin bad by youngboy and ombpeezy and started smoking my wood while looking up at the ceiling.

I immediately hop up off my of bed and grab my gun off my dresser after hearing somebody start banging on my door.

I cautiously walk my way downstairs and look through the peephole with my gun in my hand and then see its Riah.

Fuck

I already knew what was finna happen so I slowly open the door and she pushes it opened and begins going off on me with tears coming down her face.

"YOU GOT ME FUCKED UP JAYMAR FUCKING WILLIAMS I SWEAR TO GOD BITCH IF YOU AIN WANNA FUCK WIMME SHORDY DATS ALL YOU HAD TA SAY LI BRO DONT EVER FUCK ON ME AND THEN JUST DISAPPEAR THEN YOU WONDER WHY I SAID ION FW YOU HOOD NIGGAS NOW YALL ONLY THINK BOUT YALLSELVES" she continued, pushing me back and I just let her, not having the energy to argue back.

"Riah im sorry" I told her seeing her begin to wipe tears from her face.

"Nah fuck you bitch if there was something going on with you, your supposed to tell me not ignore me for 2 fucking days thats why your in a relationship you dumb bitch and you know what you prolly is going through sum right now so imma just leave you alone like you been doing me" she said beginning to walk away and I grab her arm.

"Riah im sorry fareal don't go" I said holding back tears.

Even though ion wanna be associated wit nobody right now she the only exception

"Tell me whats wrong with you Jay" She said snatching her arm away.

"My um- my- damn" I kept trying to get the words out but for some reason I felt like crying and I hate crying infront of people.

"Jaymar breathe" she said which kind of calmed me down.

"My dad got killed and ion know who did it yet" I told her and her whole expression dropped and she immediately brings me into a hug. I hug her back, feeling a tear begin to slide down my face and I just let it.

"I love you Jaymar you gotta tell me stuff like this and not just cut me off like you do everybody else when you get sad okay" she says hugging me tightly and then letting me go to look up at me.

"Gotchu" I responded, hurriedly wiping my tears off my face before she could see them.

"How you even get here ain yo momma at work?" I ask her and she shakes her head no and then we walk up to my bedroom.

We get into my bedroom and at first we just sat in silence with me laying in my bed and her sitting on my sofa scrolling through her phone.

She still never told me about her daddy and how he died and I just felt like asking her again so I did.

"Why would I tell you that and yo daddy just died"

"Why not?"

"Ughh fine" she walks over to my bed and lays beside me.

"He got killed too" she told me and I stopped hitting my blunt for a minute.

"How old were you?" I asked looking over at her as she played with one if my braids.

"14" she answered and I just looked back up at the ceiling.

Damn

"He died right infront of me too" she continued and I sat up on the bed causing her to sit up too.

"It was a normal li day. He was making me icecream in the kitchen and telling me how beautiful I was, like he always did then we both heard a knock at the door. I remember this part clearly, he grabbed his gun and ran to the door and looked out the peephole and ion know who it was but it must've been some opp niggas because he ran back to me picked me up and put me in my room telling me to hide before closing my bedroom door."

"You want this?" I asked her and she nodded her had yes while grabbing the blunt and hitting it before she continuing her story.

"Okay, so yea, he put me in my bedroom and I hid under the bed. I heard a group of niggas bust open the door and start screaming at my daddy saying, "aye bitchass nigga where dat money at". Thats the only thing I really heard other than my daddy saying "man fuck yall and dat money" , before I started hearing somebody getting tossed around in the living-room."

"I wanted to come from under the bed so bad and then once I finally was getting ready to crawl out I heard a loud pow like a gun shot and heard my daddy scream and then i seen bout 4 dudes walk in my room holding my daddy at gun point and I look down at his leg seeing it was dripping blood"

"I wanted to cry so bad but I couldnt or they was gon find me so I just held that shit in. I heard them say, "I know yo daughta in hea and if you is honey you finna watch yo hoe ass daddy die taday" and my daddy began begging them like "no no" right before they blew his brains out and his blood splattered everywhere. Then after that I had to go live wit my momma and around that time she was still struggling with drugs a li and we would argue all the time and I would run away and shit. Thats when I developed my angry issues fareal fareal, I mean I always had em but after that it just got worser"

"Then after that I was so mad at my daddy for living the life he lived and I vouched ta never fuck wit a nigga thats was inna streets like my daddy but look whea im at right now" she finished and at first ian know what ta say but then it just got quiet and I looked over at her seeing she had just zoned out with tears dropping from her face with the blunt still in her hand.

"Ian gon eva leave you I promise" I told her after I grabbed her face so she could look over at me, wiped her tears.

"Promise" She said sniffling and then bringing her pinky finger out.

"Fasho" I responded locking my pinky wit hers.

We ended up falling asleep and then I immediately open my eyes hearing my phone ring from somebody calling me.

I reach over Riah to get my phone and see its Johnny so I answer.

"Bro I found out who it was bro it was Thomas bitch ass im finna kill that nigga I swear to god I am"

"Hollon hollon chilll chilll where you at mane chillll" I tried calming him down.

"NAH FUCK THAT, I CAUGHT THAT NIGGA OTP WIT SOME NIGGA TALM BOUT "yea I got the Job done they ont een think I got sum ta do wit either but johnny ass prolly suspect sum might have ta get him gone too" " as he told me that I felt my head begin to spin.

"Ain no way" I responded rubbing my hands down my face.

"Ian say nun doe, he ont een know I heard him but he gon know when I kill his ass and I know whea he at right na' im already on da way to him so just have da bond money ready bro"

"HOLLON JOHNNY CHI-" he hung up on me and I immediately grab my gun and run outside to my car.

I thought about waking Riah up but ion want her in harms way at all so imma just let her sleep and tell her later.

I drive to the trap house and walk in, seeing that Johnny nor Thomas were in there so I call Damaris but fa some reason his ass ain answer.

Im just panicking not know where the fuck to go or what the fuck to do. I just can't believe this shit.

And its so crazy cuz he was acting weird asking hella questions and shit but ian neva suspected him of doing nun because he been my homie for years.

Can't trust nobody not even yo day 1s

I just got back in my car and started blowing up Johnnys phone. Then since he wasn't answering I decided I was gon call Thomas and he answered.

"Wassup bro" Thomas answered.

"Where you at?"

"Shit im by the- AWWW FU-" I heard gun shots go off and then the phone instantly hung up.

I just sat there in disbelief not believing nunna dis shit is real.

I instantly get a phone call from Damaris and I answer.

"BRO CHECK DA NEWS BRO THEY GOT LI JOHNNY ON CAMERA KILLING SUM NIGGA CHECK DA NEWS"

What the fuck already

I push the gas back to my place and open the doors walking straight into the livingroom seeing Riah sitting there waiting for me.

"Jay are you fucking serious we just had a-"

"Riah please shut up fa a minute please I will explain it later" I cut her off and turn on the tv and turning to the news channel.

"Tonight on Fox, Breaking news 4 shot with 2 dead and 2 in critical condition at Groves Park a few minutes ago. One of the suspects in critical condition is actually going to be held for question because of surveillance we have of the young man letting off fire. Killing the two victims named Thomas Romaine and Josiah Watts. Heres part of the clip, unfortunately we aren't able to show it all"

"Is that...Johnny" Riah askes.

I immediately grab my keys before running back into my car with Riah behind me.

I start the car up and then speed off towards the park.

Damn Johnny what the fuck mane

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