i love you, tulips...

mahal na mahal kita, stell...

dito lang ako palagi sa tabi mo...

stell suddenly opened his eyes, waking up from a dream--or a nightmare, is what he'd prefer to call it.

a nightmare of longing; a nightmare of wishing that the person he loves the most is still here beside him; a nightmare of waking up without anything to look forward to because for the past few months, he would only look forward to seeing his happy pill, justin; a nightmare of hearing his voice inside his head over and over again; a nightmare of feeling his touch but he's not physically there.

a nightmare.... a nightmare that stell would want to end.

stell stared at the ceiling of his pitch black room as his fears woke him up again at such an ungodly hour. he covered his eyes with his hands, trying to prevent the tears from coming out of them but to no luck, he still ended up sobbing and weeping, asking himself 'why?' 'why did justin leave him?' 'did he do something wrong for his lover to just leave and go with someone else?'

it's been 3 months since justin left and the drastic change in stell's life has been unbecoming.

they've only been together as a couple for 2 months and people might say that he's just overreacting but in stell's mind, that short period of time with justin was the best time he could ever have and he wouldn't trade it for anything in this universe.

stell said in between his sobs, hoping and praying that justin will come back in his arms. he waited for hours and hours... but no one called nor came. it's always been like this. whenever stell would breakdown, he would wait for some magic to happen that justin would suddenly call him or appear infront of him. but nothing happened....

it was just him.... as sadness envelopes him in its arms.

7:00 a.m.

stell's alarm goes off and he immediately turned it off as he'd been already awake since 3 o'clock in the morning and he had only spent the past 4 hours crying in the dark and curling up like ball.

although he did not want to, he had to drag himself out of bed and do his morning routine before heading to the university.