Sorry for the long wait .. I thought that I found love, a man who will be mine but wrong..

I said I love him but.. Yeah. I don't feel the same way as those three magical words ..

I hate him..

I also hate myself..

I'm sorry if I chose an you who are waiting. I'm fucking asshole bitch..

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"Julian! Please.. Wake up!" I heard a loud, muffling sound. I can't see. My eyes were closed. All I can hear is sounds from outside. Its like a was in the deep shallow of the ocean. The tides were moving keeping my body still. I knew this was the end of me.

"Mam, we should leave." I heard a low voice of a man. It was very deep, serious tone. The girl was crying.

"Julian! open your eyes baby!" I tried to open my eyes. I saw her. She was very beautiful. She was crying.

"Mam please--"

"Just shut up asshole!" She screamed at the man. She touched my face. The bloods smella lingered to my nose and my nose wrinkled in disgust. She kissed my forehead.

Who is she?

"Julian, just please take care. I love you."

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Chelsea

"Where's my brother?" I saw Jillian with her parents who was rushing from the hospital door. I stood up, shaking. I was sitting here in the chair of the waiting room. I have been here for almost one day. I haven't eat ad drink enough.

"This is all your fault!" Julian's mom began to grab my hair violently.

"Argh!" I screamed in agony. I think that almost every strand of my hair were pulling off one by one. I can't cry any longer. Numbness filled inside me.

"Mom! stop!" Jillian was stopping her mom.

"I shouldn't let my daughter loved you!" I was thrown in the floor. I looked confused at Jillians dad. Jillian just shook her head.

"Dad, please don't." She said quietly. Her dad was red tomato.

"I shouldn't let her go to school. I should let her just bore in her room for the rest of her sixteen years. This life is so troublesome!" I can't comprehend what he was saying.

"Who are you talking about?" I said quietly.

"Julian, julian is a girl Chelsea." My eyes widen.

This can't be happening.

This is not real!

"Mr. Mitchell please tell me your lying! How could- NO, JULIAN WILL NOT LIE TO ME!" I stood up. Brushing my bloodied mouth with the back of my hand.

"Yes! She is. She is a Hermaphrodite. She had her menstruation a couple of months ago. She had her first menstruation at sixteen! She was completely gone in her room for the last sixteen years of her life, just reading about the books from her sister. She was a girl Chelsea!"

I grabbed my head. This is not rel. This was all joke. This is not real. This is fucking bullshit!

"NOOO!" I ran. I covered my ears hoping to find the nearest exit.