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"Do we just leave her?" I hear Trev ask to August. I should tell them it's fine but I continue with my eyes closed, utterly chilled, snuggled into the arm chair.

"I mean..." August replies. "If she wakes up alone she's gonna be pissed."

"No she wont." T chuckles. "It's Em, she doesn't get angry."

August snorts. "She rages."

Trev just laughs and I hear him getting up off the floor. "Well it's up to you."

"Why me?" August mutters.

"Because either we leave her here or she goes to bed with you. It's not really my decision."

I open my eyes then and they aren't even looking at me. They are both stood, facing each other.

"Yeah but I don't know if she wants-" August looks at me and he pauses. "Oh."

Trev looks at me too. He smiles.

"Emersyn you tricked us."

"No yous just assumed I was asleep." I mumble, sitting up and looking between them.

"Right." Trev says and he picks up his drink and he phone and the share bag of cheese and onion crisps. "Goodnight my loves."

I smiled and stand up, wrapping my blanket around me which was given when I wanted to hug something but didn't wanna touch someone and I walked away from August and into his room.

Whatever aye?

I was a little exhausted to be honest. I was going to sleep in his bed, I didn't care. Two night in a row. So what.

He isn't telling me no.

"I guess you made the decision then?" August observes as I drop the blanket and lay down in his bed.

I ignore him. Closing my eyes and August busies himself with getting ready for bed, he gets changed I think, I don't know I don't watch this time. And the when I feel his presence beside me, I unhappily open my eyes.

"What are you doing?" I mumble.

He ignore me and opens the draw besides my head, like his bedside cabinet and I watch as he pulls out his medication and I watch as he takes two pills and dry swallows them.

"You should drink water." I whisper. His eyes flick over to mine and he rolls his eyes, tossing the bottle of pills back into his draw and then he grabs the bandages out and he unwraps his arms and changes them, besides me. I watch.

There were no new marks. The couple from the other week were healed, they didn't need to be wrapped but he rewrapped them.

"You still feel the need?" I whisper.

That would be why he was wrapping his arms, so he couldn't.

He nodded.

"I will do tomorrow. Prevention."

I nod and I move over, to what I thought was his side but he sits down in my space and gets into bed with me.

"I don't allow girls to stay."

"I am not a girl." I whisper, smiling a little to myself and Leo exhales an amused sound.

"I beg to differ."

"Shush I am asleep." I tell him, closing my eyes and I can feel his are still open, still looking at my face and I huff a little, reopening mine to tell him off.

But I don't say anything, not when when I do open my eyes he is staring straight at my lips.

"No." I whisper and August just sends me a small fucking smile.

"I know."

I reclose my eyes and I feel him move closer and I huff again. "August please."

"Please what?"

"Let me sleep."

"Sleep then Emersyn." His voice is soft, his hands annoyingly finding me under the duvet and forces my body close to his, moving an arm under my neck and I am pulled so I am pressed against him, my head in the crook of his arm.

"You aren't allowed to cuddle me." I mumble, sliding my arm across his abdomen and he turns into me, wrapping me utterly in his arms.

Em you're so weak man.

"Why not?"

"Because you don't feel things."

"I mean- I know it feels good to have you this close." He mumbles.

I lift my hand between us and I press it over his chest and I feel nothing, no racing heart, nothing. I find his hand and I bring it up so his palm is spread over my chest. My movement is slightly suggestive and I knew one of us would have made the remark if I hadn't been showing him how my heart races when he's this close.

"You only get like this when you're high. Or drunk." I breathe and he nods.

"Mhm."

"That makes me a mug Aug."

His eyes open and he pulls a face down at me. "Aug?"

I shrugged. "Leo then."

He half smiles and moves his head down, heading for my lips and I panic, I blow air in his face to say no.

"Emersyn." He groans, laughing at my movement and I just sigh and place my head down, snuggling into his side.

"No means no."

"Okay." August exhales in amusement but damn you he pulls me tighter against him and he presses a quick kiss down on my head, settling down with me nestled into him.

Shit.

And so I sleep. I fall dead asleep and I prepare my little heart to harden for when he wakes up in the morning and he isn't this august, nope, I am sure he'll be the other Leo.

....

When I woke up I was alone in bed. It was pretty cold to be honest. Not the temperature, just to wake up all on my own. I hear the shower running and I realise that he must have woken up before me and so I sit up and get my bearings.

My head hurt. We smoked a lot last night. It's not that painful gross feeling you get when you are hungover, it's more of a dull ache behind my eyes.

The shower stops and so does my heart because call me dramatic but I don't know if I can deal with this tense little interaction just yet.

I lie back down, bringing my phone up to scroll through social media, because it's the morning and that's what we do. August comes out of his bathroom, his chest and arms bare but shorts fitted nicely to his bottom half and I just watch him a little.

August was tall and pretty slender, but his muscles were clear, defined across his abdomen and arms. He had the perfect swimmer's body I guess.

"Trev and Lue are going out for lunch and then Luella asked if you and her can go somewhere." He tells me and I raise my eyes from his chest to his face.

I smile a little.

He smiles back and I must have looked surprise because he raises an eyebrow at me.

"She created a group chat." August says. "She's been waiting for you to wake up for hours."

I look at the time, it's only ten. Later than usual but Luella usually sleeps for hours and hours.

"I'll call her." I say gently and he nods.

"She says she wants to do something from the good list." August says and he walks toward me, climbing back into bed and I just stare at him in complete surprise of his attitude.

Or well lack there of it.

"What does that mean, the good or bad list?" He says, smirking slightly and I feel my lips tug up.

"It's a secret."

"Mm." He hums and he kneels up on the bed, opening his window wide and then he falls back down, lying down besides me.

"You okay?" August asks.

"Are you high?" I whisper.

He snorts, throwing me a slightly unimpressed face. "No. But mentioning a good mood usually makes it go away."

I widen my eyes at him and then I close them again, trying to keep my breathing steady as I remembered everything last night.

"August I am sorry for over analysing so much when we got back here."

My eyes are closed but I can feel his attention on me.

How couldn't I?

"It's fine."

"No like I fully shoved so many scenarios in your face and I think my brain was just trying not to explode."

The fucker moves closer and I hold my breath.

"It was funny actually. You can tell you write. You created all these little plots, possible outcomes, possibly twists and turns."

I open my eyes, looking at him.

"All I did was kiss you." August chuckles. "It doesn't need to mean so much."

I nod. It means so much to me. That's the issue here.

"I know."

I didn't do this with Nas when I kissed him. Nasr, oh god.

I opened my eyes. "You pulled me away from Nas last night."

A small grin crawls on his face. "Shit."

"That was so rude." I laugh and his hand meets the collar of his t-shirt that I was wearing and he pulls it to the side, looking at my skin.

"The fucker was trying to give you a hicky."

My eyebrows raise. "And that was a problem because?" I whisper.

"Because you had no clue what was going on." August laughs and his hand gently trails down my body, finding the curve on my waist as I lay on my side and he just keeps his hand there.

Why?

Why? Why? Why?

"Oh so you didn't want Nas kissing me because I was high?"

"Mhm." He hums and I narrow my eyes at him.

"But it was fine for you to kiss me?"

His nose scrunches up, it's so adorable, fuck. "Well I was high too." He mumbles.

I move closer and August let's me.

I stare at him. "August what's going on, why are you being nice? It's day time, you are supposed to be nasty August again."

He chuckles and then he rolls over, lifting himself on his arm slightly and I stare up at him. He was hovering.

"It's these meds Em, I don't know what's going on but I have so much energy."

"Energy?" I whisper.

He nods. "I feel a lot."

I lift my hand up to his face, his face which was hovering above mine and I stroked his cheek.

"I am happy you're feeling good." I whisper.

"So am I."

I smile at that, searching his eyes for his intention and then he smirks a little.

"Oh goodness." I mutter. "What's the look for?"

August just stares down at me, his eyes are in fact alive, if it wasn't ten in the morning, I would think he was high. I mean he was high, his mood was so elevated. "So Emersyn are you going to text Luella back?"

I mean yeah August but I'm slightly distracted at the fact you are so close.

"There's this sunflower field." I say. "It's pretty. We could lie in it. Do you recon Luella would like that?"

August nods, but his eyes are on my mouth, I am sure he wasn't even listening.

"Are we coming?" He asks, proving me wrong.

"If Lue wants yous there."

"What do you want?" Leo asks and heat rose from my stomach to my chest and my heart tragically skipped as he lifted his arm and he ran his fingers through my hair, watching as it sprawled out on his pillow after he did so.

His eyes went back to mine.

"What do you want?" He asks again and I blink, utterly lost.

Sunflowers.

"A picnic." I whisper and August's lips tug up in amusement.

"In the sunflower field?"

I nod dumbly.

He was so close.

"Emersyn I want to kiss you." He whispers, his eyes searching my reaction to that and I just held my breath, I probably looked terrified.

"But last night you said no. And I respect that. Are you still saying no?"

I swallow. He was drowning me. I didn't what to do. I couldn't talk.

I tilted my chin up.

August smirked a little and he brought his head closer, and his lips were hovering just above mine.

It was dangerous.

So so dangerous.

And it was at this moment where I was considering how this was in fact life threatening, that August's lips brushed over mine and my body reacted instinctively. There wasn't a moment of hesitation from either of us, not when our lips touched and every single 'shouldn't' fell away.

His lips coaxed mine, humming when I kissed him back more urgently and little shivers of panic and please shot through me as he deepened the kiss, parting my lips and he slowed down, his lips becoming slow, deep, his tongue so fucking dominating with mine that I couldn't help it, I shuddered.

And then I guess both of us stopped thinking entirely, because his hands were on my waist, pulling my down the bed so my back was pressed directly against the mattress and he rolled so one of his legs were between mine and shit did he kiss me, he kissed me as my heart tried to cope. He kissed me as if it was a sport, as if it was fun and I mean, I was the one that moved my legs so he could settle between them and so I could raise them over his waist, but he knew he was in control. It was practically radiating from him.

I sparked alive, my heart swelled to the point of near bursting and then August grabbed both my my hands which I don't even know where they were before this but he grabbed them and he pinned them above my head and shit I held back this strange bubble of sound that tried to escape through my throat.

The rush of sensations crawling across my body was maddening. Scary. Thrilling. And we were kissing as if we were insane. Like our lives depended on it. His tongue slips back into my mouth, sensual but demanding and it's nothing like ive ever experienced, and I suddenly realise why people describe kissing as melting because every square inch of my body dissolves into his. The weight of his body on top of mine is extraordinary. I feel him- all of him pressed against me and I inhale his lemon shampoo and that minty freshness of his mouth.

Shit I never brushed my teeth.

August doesn't need to mind.

I turn my head, needing air and he immediately fixed his lips over my neck, grabbing my wrists in just one of his hands and the other runs under my t-shirt- bunching It up even more and my back arches off his bed as he presses himself tighter into me.

His lips, once open mouthed and wet suddenly pause and in the anticipation of what he's going to do, I am panting, my breathing heavy, my heart racing and then he presses his lips back over the spot just under my ear and the lad sucks.

I thought he didn't leave marks?

But he was determined and his mouth closed over my skin, red hot pleasure sends shivers of almost electrical standards down my spine, making my thighs tighten around his waist and he chuckles a little, pressing something solid between my legs as I tried to wiggle my hands free to touch him.

He didn't let me and I think that is what was turning me on even more. My legs were tingling, well not my legs, between my legs and I have never felt this type of desire before. Goodness it just fucking builds with him doesn't it-

"Fuck Emersyn stop moving against me." He mutters, his hands letting my wrist free and I just stare up at him now he's removed his lips from my neck.

I lift my hand to my skin which was obviously reddening and I just stared up at him wide eyed.

"August." I whisper and his jaw clenches.

"We can't."

"Cant what?" I whisper and he narrows his eyes at me and he grips my hips, rocking himself harshly against me and shit ive never been this turned on before, heat pools there and I am only in my underwear down there, his shorts don't do much to hide how he was feeling too.

"Why not?" I ask softly, my hands lifting, and I run my fingers down his back, feeling his skin react to my touch, watching his eyes darken as I widen my thighs for him.

"At the moment I am struggling to remember." He grits and I lift my head of the bed, catching August's bottom lips between my own and I have this strange need to bite. So I do.

He shuddered and I am mesmerised at how something I do, actually affects him so much.

His lips capture mine again and then theres a knock on the door.

I ignore it, coaxing his lips to join mine again but he's paused.

"Yeah?" He asks and I slump down, letting my legs fall but the fucker glares at me and so I raise them back up, pressing myself against him once again and I think, I am not even going to lie, if he's just let me move against him I could get off on just this.

Shit my body is in over drive.

"Um mate. Cole's here. Looking for you." Trev says. "Can I come in?"

August's hand covers my lips immeditaly as I go to cry out no.

My dad is here?

Oh my god.

"Come in Trev." August says and I glare at him.

What the fuck?

Trev subtly opens the door and slides in the room.

I drop my legs again and August chuckles and then it's like he freezes.

"Fuck Cole's here?"

Trev nods slowly, his eyebrows raised at us. "Yeah apparently you haven't been going to therapy."

August sighs and he sits up. "Your dad is a pain in my ass."

I am just trying not to show Trev that I can't breath.

"Wait dad?" Trev gasps a little and I slap my forehead.

"Yes." August mutters. "I didn't just invite you in here for no reason." He grits. "Tell Cole that I just woke up so I will be out in five. Don't tell him she's in here."

"Just come out and tell him." Trev says. "He seems stressed."

"Mate I need five minutes." August mutters and I cover my face with my hands at that. Oh god.

Trev laughs and leaves the room and August pries my hands away from my face.

"Em your dad is in the next room."

"I know." I whisper.

"I should um go talk to him."

I nod. "You should."

"But fuck." August states, his eyes attached to mine and I just nod a little.

Fuck.

"Where does your dad think you are Em?"

I swallowed. "Asleep on your couch."

"Well shit." He chuckles.

"Just say I left already?" I ask.

"Genius."

I grinned then, this was definetly not how I expected this morning to go.

And then my grin fell.

"You haven't been going to therapy?" I ask.

That makes the guy get off me, climbing down the bed and I freaking gulp at the size of the tent in his shorts.

I close my eyes and August laughs. "You good?"

Not going to lie, that was low key terrifying.

I opened them and sat up. "What if he can hear us talking?" I whisper.

August shrugs, having adjusted himself as he just stares at me a little.

"Just stay in here? For both of our sakes."

I nodded and then he grimanced down at himself.

"I cannot talk to your father like this."

I shake my head, agreeing.

"Cold shower." He nods and he goes back into his bathroom and I collapse then, sprawling myself over his bed.

Well that was intense.

Oh goodness.

I raise my hands again and cover my face in embarrassment.

And then my Dad freaking knocks on the door. "August I need you to come out mate."

Oh my god.

What do I do?

Cant he hear the shower running?

The door opens then, just a tad and my heart stops. Then it closes again.

He must have heard the shower.

Shit. That was scarily close.

August doesn't stay in there long, he just quickly I guess cools off and then gets dressed. Not saying much to me as he heads out into the living room.

"Hey." August says and okay I am a nosey bitch because I move off the bed and I sit down by the bedroom door.

Oopsies. I know I should ears drop but Oh whatever. It was my dad.

"Where's Trev gone?" August asks.

"Something about cleaning." My dad answers.

"You alright?" August asks and I am sure my dad's face is the face of confusion because August never asks him that.

"Mhm." He hums. "You haven't checked in with me the past few days."

"Been busy." August just says.

"You haven't been to see Lisa in two weeks." My dad says. I guess Lisa is August's doctor.

"Don't feel it's necessary."

"August it is necessary."