Ethan ->

Chapter Ten: Bi the Way I Think I'm Gay.

"So you don't know anything about him?" Ethan asks, checking out a slutty girl as she passes by. I sigh and nod. "He seems like an asshole, why are you so worried about it?"

I can't tell Ethan I gave Reed a blow job. He'll think I'm gross or something!

"It's just," I nervously bite my lip.

"Oh my god!" His eyes widen. Crap here it comes. "That chick just kissed the other chick. Damn!" I take a much needed breath.

Thank god Ethan is stupid and girl obsessed. That could have ended badly.

"Talking about that," I squeak. "What uh, what about two guys. Is that okay?"

Ethan crinkles up his nose. "I mean as long as no guy hits on me."

Don't worry Ethan, guys hitting on you probably won't happen.

Ever.

"So let's say if uh, I was into guys you'd still be my friend?" Why am I even asking this? It's not like I'm gay or anything. But I'm not completely straight either...

"Well yeah, wait, Caleb are you trying to hint at something?" He questions me, not looking past me for the first time since getting here.

"Maybe." I blush.

"Reed's gay isn't he?!"

Josie facepalm can be heard from all the way back home.

"No! He's bi!" At least I think he is. Did he ever really tell me? I can't even remember.

"Bi?"

"You know, liking girls and guys." I nervously play with a string hanging off my white tee shirt. "I was um, talking about-" I stop hoping he's getting the picture.

"Steve is gay?!"

"No Ethan! My brother is a straight man whore. I'm talking about myself!" I freeze. "Crap no I mean, I'm not-"

"Dammit Caleb!" He groans, stomping his foot.

"Look I'm sorry, stuff happened between Reed and I, I just, I don't even know how I feel about Reed."

"Now I owe Josie twenty bucks!"

I give him the death glare. "Oh you did not do what I think you did, did you?"

Ethan chuckles nervously. "It was Josie! I just went along. If it makes you feel better I betted that you weren't gay."

"I am not gay!" God I even have a hard time believing that now. Why should I question my sexuality for a guy who did nothing but lie to me?

"Then do I owe Josie twenty bucks or not?!" Ethan has the look that he always gets when he's confused. It's a mixture of displeasure and panic.

"No! Yes! I don't know!" I groan and lean against the wall of a food truck.

Ethan pats my shoulder. "There, there."

I roll my eyes.

"It'll be okay."

I shake my head. "Mom hates gays. What happens if I do like him? Will she and dad kick me out? I don't have anywhere to go!"

"My house! Duh!" He grins goofily. "We can play video games and watch anime all we want!"

I smile a little at his offer. "Even if I like guys?"

"Even if you like taking it up the ass!" He smirks.

Oh Ethan.

After our talk, Ethan and I decide it would be best to play some games. Naturally Ethan is amazing and does better than I. He always wins over me. Then again it's not that hard to be better than me. I suck. At the dunking booth my ball bounced off the back wall and hit me on the face. I didn't play that game anymore.

"You should buy me cotton candy." Ethan remarks as I hold an icy cold Coke to my bruised cheek. "Or a chili dog."

"Ha, no." The last thing Ethan needs is beans. Especially when he's staying the night and sleeping in Reed and my tent.

Speaking of Reed, I've yet to see him all day, even when we went back to the barn to get lunch with mom. She said she thought he was with us. As usual she panicked and called him when realizing it was just Ethan and I. Surprisingly, he did answer and said something about wanting to spend the day to himself.

It might be because of our argument, but I think he's planning something.

But what?

"If you win me something I'll buy you cotton candy."

"Win you what?"

I point to the huge bear behind him. I've always wanted a big bear but I suck at games and no one would ever win one for me. It's so big it won't even fit in the tent but I want it anyways. I mean who doesn't want a huge bear?

Ethan turns and stares at it. "I'll try."

"That'll be $2.40." The man tells me. I hand him a five and get my change back, along with a nice sized bag of blue and pink spun sugar.

I tuck the change into my front pocket and hand bag to Ethan. "Thank you," he chimes.

Sure enough Ethan won me my baby blue bear with a big white bow tied around its neck. Luckily the guys working the ring toss let us keep it there while we walk around. Ethan and I decided it's time to ride some rides.

"Is that Reed?"

"Huh?" I glance over and sure enough Reed's leaning against a gate, next in line for the Ferris wheel. His eyes are glued to me.

"Hey I'll stay here. You can go talk to him. I think he wants to." Ethan rips open the bag of cotton candy and sits on the top of a roughed up picnic table. I nod weakly and walk over to Reed.

Am I ready to do this? I guess I kinda have to be.

I race into the cart and climb in next to him. The man running it gives me a weird look but I quickly flash my free ride bracelet. He nods and closes the gate on Reed and me. The Ferris wheel starts.

"Hi." Reed mumbles softly, staring at his lap.

"Hey."

"I'm, I'm uh sorry for everything I've done, all the lies, being a pervert, what happened the other night." His fingernails are digging into his knee. I place my hand on his and squeeze. Instantly he calms down and he lays his hand flat.

"It's okay, just, why did you lie?"

Reed takes a deep breath. "When I saw you I knew I had to impress you. So I made up a lie saying I was Mr. Popular. I thought that'd make you want me."

"Oh yeah, lying is a great way to impress someone you like," I say sarcastically. He stiffens up. "Why was it so hard to be yourself? What's so wrong with being a nobody?"

"It's just, I'm worse than being a nobody, I'm a jerk. I am mean so people pay attention to me. Anything seemed better than being geeky and ignored. I might not be liked but everyone knows who I am."

"There's no point in being known if everyone hates you." I chuckle softly and cuddle up next to him. Even though it's summer the nights are actually pretty cool. Reed wraps an arm around my shoulders. "I'm sure if you just be yourself lots of people would really like you."

"Like who?" He frowns doubtfully.

"Like me."

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