I never understood why bad things happened.

Why innocent people were taken from their friends and families.

Why their lives were stolen by those who were unhappy, as if taking those people would grant them something.

Things would never be the same, they weren't coming back, and they never will.

The laughs, smiles, and memories would only be a reminder if what they once were.

My parents....lost due to a plane crash. I know it was an accident, that no one expected it to go down, and I can't help but feel angry. I will never know the life I could've had if they didn't get on the plane.

Uncle Ben. The man that became the father I never had. An innocent person with a family, killed without mercy. We only wanted to get a few things before movie night. I didn't expect to not go home with him, or to watch him die in my arms as blood pooled under him. I never expected to lose another father.

Aunt May. She was all I had left. The one who was with me since I was a baby. She held me and hugged me and was the mother I never got to know. When the car hit her, my world became dark. I didn't understand why that man had to drink, and why he chose to go down the street we were on. I would rather have the car hit me, but she used her life to save mine.

It's always my life before theirs. It's always my fault.

When I met Tony Stark, things looked up. I had another father figure I could look up too. That man made me happy again, and gave me hope in myself and humanity. I got to save lives in more ways than I could before. I felt whole again.

But then that shattered too. As I watched him die, I could only whisper one thing "dad, please don't leave me too".

I could tell he didn't want to leave me, Pepper, or Morgan behind, but his time was up.

I never understood why the ones close to me were the ones to leave.

I always felt like I could've done something. But I never could. I never had the chance to make a difference.

But, I use their deaths to stay strong, to remind me that others feel the same pain I do. And that I can help prevent that pain. So I keep smiling.

MJ, Ned, Morgan, Harley, Pepper, and the Avengers are still with me. So I have to keep moving forward.

I'll see you all again when my time is up.